A blonde at the bar and this time, he was not the one who started things, She seemd to be interested and he was not about to turn her down, clrealy his charms were working and for a while it kinda felt good to be back on the game, although at the same time he felt like he was putting his mask back on and being this person he was begining to hate, but honeslty what was left?
Things were fine, that is until they got to the bedroom...
At first it was okay, they both were very much into it, her legs wrapped around his waist, and he was more then ready to go, but then, as he kissed her neck, her hand placed on the back of is head, somehting fell off, they way she smelled... She was just a human girl, why did he expect that certain vampire smell he liked so much? Something was wrong this was not the person he wanted, he looked up, her hair on his pillow, blonde hair, not black, the shape of her body was not...it was not a bad looking body it was just not hers, still he was able to push trough and leaned in to kiss her “You’ll never kiss me again,” he heard the angry voice screaming inside his head, fuck, he needed to focus because this would not end well if he didn’t, “I can’t let you ruin me.” Her voice again in his head, a flash of white fangs, the angry, dissapointed look on her face, everything just come into his mind like that all together, all at once, all the emotions, spinning around in his mind, and in that moment of all the times this could happen! His head was not in the game anymore and his body began to react acordinly to this, “Fuck” he muttered, quicly move away from the woman, before she could realize he was about to go soft, pulling the sheet over to himself. “What--?” the blonde was cleary surprised by this, of course she expect a lot more, because...well that what he promised her , “I’m sorry,” the wolf told her, “I can’t do this, I--” he closed his eyes, hand gripping on the sheet around his waste, “I have a lot of my mind right now, I’m sorry, love, but I can’t--if we were to continue this I wouldn’t be able to give you the attention you need, because all I can hear in my mind--” is her voice, but he couldn’t say it, this woman was aready angry enough, “There are a lot of emotions, that I don’t know how to deal with, and--this is me, it’s not you--it’s my problem...” “Oh my god!” she was now putting her clothes on, one shoe on her foot, the other in her hand, “I’m rebound girl?!” she yelled at him, “That’s the problem isn’t it? you can’t--because you’re thinking about your ex?!” “She’s not really my ex...” “Oh My god! you’re a jerk! a fucking jerk! I just ugh!” she threw the shoe at his face, and he was glad for the werewolf reflexes because the heel was coming right at him at full speed, and yet another memory hit his mind, the party, the sharing, the not knowing it was her but still feeling the pull to her, all the crazy things she made him do, the way he always threw his common sense out the window everything he was around her, to the blonde he said nothing, only reaching out the shoe he had caugh with his free hand for her to take,she yank it out of his hand, put it on and walked out the door, slamming it on her way.
“Goddamn it!” he sat near the edge of the bed, “God damn it, Dawn!” she didn’t want him to ruin her, but she was the one who ruinned him! he couldn’t have her and now seemed like he couldn’t have anyone! but this was his own doing, diving head first into this right after a fight like that where emotions were running so high!
A few hours after
He was still sitting in the same spot unable to move or to think, the beedroom door crept open and Repaer walked in, in all his puppy glory he run to the bed, sitting there and looking at this owner. “Don’t you give me that look, buddy! you’re too young to understand these things!” he told the puppy, “It will happen to you too,” he went on as he pet the puppy, “One day you’re out there, having fun, all the--dog girs you can have and some more, and then this one comes up and it all changes, she’s all you can think about and the fun is over!” he sighed, “it’ll be fun, just like someone cut your balls out!” he said, allowed himself to fall back on the bed, even though he was sure he was not going to be sleeping anytime soon.
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