#caaaaaan

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Daily Nagoriyuki 14112025

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lays on the floor and muffles my screams into the carpet

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[youknow-i-loveit]

I have a writer's imagination and a lonely heart.

This makes for a troublesome combination.

[youknow-i-loveit]

my problem

Ever since I hit puberty, I've always had to be fixated on at least one guy.

It gets really annoying sometimes. I attach myself to celebrities and fictional characters I know I can never have, but in my silly little romantic Disney hippie head, I forget for a while that they can never be mine... and every time I wake up from my daydreams, it's so painful.

And it's not much better when it's a "real" guy- something always goes wrong somewhere, and I end up alone.

But when I'm alone/single (which is most of the time), I think about any and all possibilities, even as remote as the chance is with any of them, just because I always have to be fixated on someone. Usually I can transfer my affections and obsess over a celebrity or fictional character, and that eases the pain of being single (for a while anyway), but it's always there.

It's stupid. I get jealous when other girls pay attention to my "possibilities", as if I have some sort of claim over them. Half the time, my "possibilities" have already rejected me anyway. Why do I even think about them at all? It's so stupid!!

*sigh* "I want you to take this crowbar... and just-- just BASH my head right in! Go ahead! Just BASH it right in!!"