#cal things

[ambrieler]

Jake Abel’s ass is just as delusional as us. 15x19 NEVER happened and midam is alive and well

[ambrieler]

bless all you midam artists who draw adam with messy hair and michael with neat hair. to be honest adam would've left that cage with a long grunge-y cut if not for michael

[theravingren]

This is a Cal appreciation post again because he’s home and I’ve missed him so much and I’ve been caught up in so much that I haven’t had much of a chance to realize that he’s home and...

Cal designated today as a chill day for me and he just let me sleep unbothered and brought me brunch in bed and let me just chill and watch shows endlessly and do whatever. And it’s so nice having him home, I feel bad because his dream was to study in Australia and he was doing it but left early but... he came home because ‘family comes first’. and I really appreciate that. I really appreciate having him by my side through all this and... I guess I didn’t realize how much I missed him until he was hugging me. 

I cried so hard when I first saw him. And having him home is like a breath of fresh air. I love him so much and I am so thankful for his reassurance and his hugs and his voice of reason and... 

I’ve missed him so much. 

[theravingren]

Goodnight Voice Chats with Cal

Me: I love you

Cal: I love you to the moon and back... and some more

Me: To the universe and back?

Cal: Nah, more.

Me: ...to infinity and beyond?

Cal: ...

Cal: ...I walked right into that one, didn't I?

Me: That makes me the Woody to your Buzz.

Cal: Weren't you always?

[theravingren]

Okay but Caleb Jonathan I’m very mad at you because you’re supposed to be here when I’m sick and fuss over me while thinking you’re completely useless like you always do when in reality just sitting next to me makes me feel better, and playing with my hair til I fall asleep is the ultimate way to get me to sleep and you know that and I really miss you right now. 

And you still haven’t sent me a picture of a koala bear. I’m mad at you for that too. 

I’m just kidding I’m not really mad I’m just really sad. 

[theravingren]

Cal you can come home now. 

This whole studying abroad thing is dumb. 

Not really. But. Meh. 

Dusty and I will just watch movies tonight. You’re missing out.

...I’ll miss your sarcastic commentary.

[theravingren]

But seriously you can come home now. I convinced myself it was just a joke. And I know it’s only a few months but...

damn. I miss you. 

[theravingren]

The fact that Cal was completely comfortable dating me when I identified as male and went by masculine pronouns, and would support me if I decided to once again, and go through HRT and surgery just makes me so happy. Like, he’s so understanding of me identifying as non-binary, even when we were like in middle school when he found out I was dfab, and has always supported me no matter what. 

I’m just. Really glad that we’re married. I feel like if I didn’t have him then it would be impossible for me to find someone that understanding. Especially around here. He just gets me and. I’m so lucky for that. 

I love you Cal.