🍏💙💜🌺 for Calayne, please! :D
🍏 Does your OC have any triggers? What is the history behind these triggers and are they related to any disorders or mental illnesses? In what ways does your OC react to being triggered?
Honestly, her own rage is probably the biggest trigger for her (although I’m not sure trigger is the right word for it). She is trying hard to overcome the side of her that raided and murdered for centuries - and is renowned for it - so whenever she lapses back into that mindset she takes it as a deep personal failure. It is probably more of a regret than a trigger, now that I think about it, but it’s the closest thing she has. Her reaction is typically to spiral into self-loathing and introspection for a while, and vow to do better next time. Though, the more she fails, the more she feels like she is just lying to herself and can never truly change.
💙 What did your OC want to be when they grew up and why? Did they have any lifelong dreams or ambitions they never got to work on or are they currently working to achieve this dream? Has their life taken a very unexpected turn and put all these plans on hold for a while or have they given up on any dreams?
She always wanted to be a military leader, but it’s not clear if that was actually her desire or just the expectations placed upon her due to her mother’s success. Given the history of the Irethani, they are heavily focused on might and warfare and power through conflict. Any other life would, to her, have felt like wasted opportunity, and she has never been one content to live in the shadows. She wanted to fight for her people, and work to regain what had been stolen from them. What else was there?
Her life did take an unexpected turn when she realised that her people were not as ‘born to rule’ as she had always been taught. The first time this became clear was when the Rhaiz, their leader, started using lower-rank Irethani for experimentation (having moved on/run out of prisoners). Calayne realised she couldn’t justify essentially torturing their own people - that the means did not necessarily justify the ends - and that was like the first crack in a pane of glass. After that, she started finding it harder and harder to justify a lot of what she did, until it reached a breaking point and she chose to leave the people she had spent her life fighting for.
💜 Music or Silence? Swords or Spells? Cities or Nature?
Silence (mostly out of habit - she likes to have an awareness of what is happening around her). Swords (although she does practice the thaumic arts in combat, they’re not ‘spells’ per say). Cities (she is used to being among people/leading, so cities are actually where she feels more relaxed. Out in nature, she is left more to her own devices, and that is difficult for her. This makes the fact that she is now seeking a life of isolation even harder).
🌺 Does your OC have any tattoos or other body art? Does their body art have any specific meaning behind it? Do they have any scars? How did they get those scars? Any birthmarks?
All Irethani have dark facial markings, typically resembling those of their parents (with individual variations - the same way children in general tend to resemble their parents but are not carbon-copies of them). There is no real meaning to them, however Irethani who wish to sever ties with their family often alter the pattern (via tattooing) as a kind of statement. And some alter their markings just for the aesthetic, although this is considered quite indulgent and vain.
