Beautiful Mysteries
“ I have been with many women and I was in love with them all whether it was for 10 seconds or 10 years”.
I heard this and automatically related, because I fall in love with everyone I’ve been with even if it was just for one second.
Trust me I understand how weird it sounds, how can you love someone for only a second or a couple of days… I don’t understand it myself either and I honestly didn’t know thats what I was experiencing until I heard that line.
Granted its not the love you to eternity love but it is still love.
And I guess that’s the emotional hopeless romantic in me..
Everyone I am with, I know I am with them for a hidden reason even if I don’t know what it is.
I know its not just vanity or lust I know it has to have a deeper meaning and for a couple of hours I might see it and I will love you in those couple of hours because you showed me something beautiful.
I’m big on believing that there has to be good in everyone no matter what so maybe that is what it is? Good that I see?…
No, it has to be something else because if it was just good it wouldn’t be so beautiful to me, so intoxicating, so thrilling.
Whatever it is, I always find it and I always become addicted to it.
It’s delicious, sweet, satisfying and it never fails to find me and devour me.
Until either this sweet mysterious thing or the man gets tired of me and my constant need to be in its hold.
Then there I am once again, forced to pretend like I can handle being left once again.
Even though it was a minor abandonment.. it still was an abandonment none the less.
Y.P