(Now that I have processed things, do I get to leave?)
(Of course, no one will respond. I am under the ocean buried in sand. I have no idea how many days its been.)
(Is it unacceptable that I still want to punt that street medic? On a scale of one to ten, how bad is it?)
(I've come to terms with it a little bit more. I do feel like I have lost a part of myself... along with the paralysis, I believe in souls now. Mine is torn. My mind and my body has been through many ordeals in its time. Both ordeals I am aware of, and ones I am not.)
(...This is a poor way to spend time.)
(I hope Apollo is alright.)
(I hope I wash up on some shore soon. Maybe I should try to free myself from the sand.)
(I hate hoping. I hate maybes. I wish I could just get out there and do things with my hands and my body. I want to keep moving. I do not like staying still. This I know well.)