I was feeling pretty bad. But I'm almost done eating my noodles and that’s helping but now I'm sort of hurting because I ate to much to fast. But its fine. Today was good. Happy Halloween. Or as I heard it called today “Gay Christmas”.
It was a really full day, and I didn’t technically dress up. I did year my fairy wings for much of the morning. But now I'm just in my pretty black robe and flouncing about and listening to a horror podcast. I got to come home early but its dark and rainy and honestly holiday appropriate.
Right before I went to bed last night there was a huge crash and sweetP started screaming and running around everywhere and it really freaked me out. But it turned out he stepped on a sticky mouse trap and it was stuck to his back foot. He got really stressed out but I cleaned him up and gave him treats. Today was his birthday but I barely got to hang out with him and that was sad.
Sometime around 4 I got woken up by the scary pipe sounds again, it was very scary. But I got up and it was okay. I got dressed and left here early for the studio. I didn’t eat, there wasn’t anything worth having in my apartment. I was going to get mcdonalds but filming took a little longer than expected so I just headed to work. I was going to eat in the cafeteria but I honestly had a lot of food anxiety all day. like I couldn’t ask for anything or stuff. I did eat a muffin but seriously I've been up for 13 hours and that muffin was all I had until these noodles. I don’t know what was wrong with me but I was just real stressed inside.
Work wasn’t terribly interesting. I helped cut things on the table saw. I chatted with Don. Mostly I worked on homework and read. Someone put the table saw blade on backwards so I had to fix that but it was stuck and I had to ask Anders for help and he cut his arm on the thing.
I was feeling okay but I still hadn’t eaten and I was feeling stressed.
It didn’t help that after work I headed to my studio and got really sick, like pale and stomach issues and everything. I was miserable. I just laid in my nap spot and read until my phone interview at 3.
I was feeling a little better by the time I had the interview. It was me and my mom and the charity I do work for, and then the people running the event. It was good to hear my mom’s voice. And the interview went okay. Its weird though because they want me to talk about how sad I was when I was a kid and how I felt bad about my skin but I have separated myself so much from those feelings, let them go, that its hard to recall. But I did my best.
I had to quick leave to bike to main campus to meet with Frenchie but there was confusion and she went to my studio. So I quick biked back.
It was so great. She is wonderful. We went through all of my art and we honestly talked for almost 2 hours. I asked her to be on my thesis committee and she said yes. I'm thrilled. We also went through the outline and research I've been working on and she gave me a theory I should be exploring about objects being us and it was great because that’s where I’ve been struggling. But she gave me something she had written on that topic of ephemera (specifically about cosplay) and so I'm going to look more into that.
We got done talking about 6, she really made me feel so good about my art. I went and sat with Cole for a few minutes and looked at his short film he worked on in Romania. And then I headed home.
I fed sweetP and didn’t even take off my jacket. I needed to get groceries. I was going to o to cub and get a piece of pizza there but I missed that bus so I took the 17 and went to kwolaskis, the fanciest grocery store, which is a lot closer. It was raining anyway so I'm glad I went to the closer place, even if it was poorly laid out and because I was tired I kept having to backtrack because I was getting confused. But I eventually got everything I wanted and I headed home.
sweetP is all cuddled up on me, making bread and kissing my face. Happy birthday baby.
Tomorrow I have work and townhall and studio work and ballet. I hope it’s a nice day. sleep well everyone.
