Warnings: secret recording (consensual fallout), dom/sub tension, emotional vulnerability, implied masturbation, performance kink, mild voyeurism, praise kink, trust kink, aftercare, dirty talk, soft control, boundary negotiation, and all the emotional filth you're here for.
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You werenât snooping.
At least, not at first.
You were looking for a damn PDF. Something about utilities, or maybe that insurance form from three months agoâhis laptop was closer, and you knew the password. Heâd given it to you ages ago, offhandedly, like it meant nothing.
And it didnât. Until it did.
Because there, nestled in a folder innocently titled âMeetings,â you found seven video files. Dated. Labeled only with timestamps. Quietly tucked away in a corner of his desktop you never wouldâve opened if you werenât bored, if you werenât waiting for him to get back from the store, if you werenât curious why he always seemed to close his laptop just before you walked into the room.
You stared at the folder for a while.
And then, you clicked.
The first file opened in silence.
And there you were.
On your knees. Lips red and swollen, your hands behind your back, his fingers tangled in your hair. You couldnât hear what he was saying, but you didnât need sound. The way he looked at you said it all.
Focused. Ravenous. Devoted.
You exhaled.
Closed the file.
And clicked on the next one.
By the time Bucky returned home, you were still on the couch, laptop on your thighs, arms folded tightly.
He walked in hummingâsomething low and tuneless, his hoodie tugged halfway off over one shoulder. His hair was still damp from the drizzle outside. You didnât say a word.
He froze when he saw your face.
ââŠWhat happened?â
You didnât answer.
Just turned the laptop to face him.
His brows furrowed. He took two steps forward, then stopped cold when he recognized what youâd pulled up.
Color drained from his face.
He stared at itâthe still frame, the timestamp, the exact moment you'd moaned something too wrecked to repeatâand then looked back at you.
âI can explain.â
âIâd love to hear it.â
âItâs notââ He paused. âI wasnât being a creep.â
âYou filmed me without asking.â
âI know.â
âIn multiple scenes.â
âI know.â
âStored on your personal laptop, labeled âMeetings,â like a goddamn PowerPoint.â
He ran a hand through his hair. âI wasnât watching them forâlikeâfor that.â
You blinked slowly. âOh, youâre gonna have to try harder than that.â
His shoulders slumped.
âI needed to see,â he said finally.
You frowned.
âSee what?â
âIf Iâd gone too far. If I hurt you. If⊠if you meant it. When you said I could keep going. When you begged me not to stop.â
You stared at him, unmoving.
âI didnât want to doubt you,â he said. âBut sometimes I look at you during and I think⊠fuck, sheâs shaking, sheâs crying, what if I missed something? What if I broke her and didnât even notice?â
Your voice came out hoarse.
âYou thought filming me would answer that?â
âI thought⊠maybe if I watched it later, I could tell the difference.â He swallowed. âBetween pain and surrender. Between too much and perfect.â
Something hot bloomed behind your ribs.
He looked down at the laptop.
âI was going to tell you.â
âBut you didnât.â
âI didnât know if youâd ever let me do it again.â
You paused.
Then stood up.
âCome with me.â
His brows lifted. âWhat?â
âBedroom. Now.â
He hesitated.
Then followed.
You stood at the foot of the bed, arms crossed. He lingered in the doorway.
âYou like watching?â you asked, voice steady.
He nodded slowly.
âThen turn it on.â
ââŠYouâre serious?â
âDeadly.â
He didnât move right away.
âYouâre not angry?â
âOh, Iâm furious. But I want to know what you see. And I want you to see it, tooâthis time with permission.â
You stepped out of your sweatshirt. Peeled off your leggings.
âI want you to see how I choose this.â
He stared.
Frozen.
Then turned back to the door and grabbed the camera.
You made him sit in the chair.
Fully clothed.
Hands on his thighs.
Watching.
The camera blinked red in the corner of the room.
You took your time undressing.
Not for show.
For clarity.
Every motion slow, deliberate, intentional.
When you stood before himâbare, soft, unflinchingâyou stepped between his legs and leaned down.
âYou donât need playback to know I want this.â
He nodded, barely breathing.
âI want you.â
You straddled him, dragged your hands down his chest, and let your hips settle against the shape already hardening in his jeans.
And then you kissed him.
Slow and deep, like it was your name on his tongue.
When you reached between you and pulled him free, he groaned like it hurt. You stroked him once, twice, then leaned in close enough for him to feel your breath.
âYouâre not allowed to touch me.â
His eyes fluttered.
âNot until I say.â
He nodded again.
âSay it.â
âI wonât touch you.â
âGood.â
You slid down onto him in one slow, tight push.
His head fell back.
You pressed your palms to his chest, riding him lazy and slow, your thighs working, your breath catchingâbut you never broke eye contact.
Not with him.
Not with the lens.
You came with your hand on your clit and his name in your mouth, trembling around him while he stared at you like he might fall apart without permission.
When he beggedâlow and hoarse and reverentâyou nodded.
âLet me see it.â
And he did.
He came hard, hands still at his sides, mouth open, eyes locked on yours as his entire body jerked under you.
You held him through it.
Even after he finished.
Even after the room went quiet.
You reached for the remote.
Stopped the recording.
Then climbed off him, tucked yourself into his lap, and kissed his forehead.
He held you like you were glass.
Not shattered.
But cherished.
âIâm sorry,â he whispered.
âI know.â
He exhaled shakily.
âIâll delete them.â
You pressed your nose to his neck.
âYou donât have to.â
He froze.
You whispered into his skin:
âBut if you ever want to film me againâŠâ
His breath hitched.
ââŠYouâll ask first.â
He nodded slowly.
âI will.â
You pulled back.
Met his eyes.
Then smiled.
âYou really labeled it âMeetings?ââ
His ears turned bright red.
âI panicked.â
You laughedâwarm and wicked and full of the chaos he loved most about you.
âWell.â You reached for his hand. âHope you brought your calendar.â