Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to five other writers! 😍
(And tell us why you've chosen those!)
Thank you also to @teitpp who asked me the same question? (Do I recc 10 fics now?)
I have already recced and faved my 2 All Time Favorite fics in this post: 1) Black and White and 2) The Golden King and His Dark Queen so I'm not going to repeat myself with them here.
Without much further ado:
Broken (Fandom: James Cameron's Avatar)
I started that fic in 2010 when the movie came out and it was the first ever fanfic I wrote in English at the time. It featured a fucked-up relationship between Grace Augustine and Miles Quaritch (we see an emerging pattern here, but author regrets nothing!) that eventually led up and was supposed to explain movie events and interactions between them. I uploaded the story on ff.net at the time and it literally exploded. I don't think I had ever again so many comments on a story. But then I sort of didn't write the last two chapters even though I knew exactly what was going to happen in them. Until I did. In 2023, 12 years after my last update. I finished the bastard. And that makes me proud.
The Sacrifice (Fandom: Star Trek Voyager)
In the midst of the pandemic and after having lost two mother figures in two years I wrote my second ever original English fic (all other stories were translations of my German stories to this date). It featured a situation inspired very heavily by "Counterpoint" where Voyager needed to be escorted to hostile space and the alien Commander took a fucked up interest in Kathryn Janeway who sacrifices her health and dignity in getting her crew across while they watch her helplessly be abused. The story is not graphic despite all the horrible things happening to Kathryn and it is her herself who reasserts herself. She finds allies in unlikely places and prevails and is not rescued by her crew. And then she finds time to heal among friends. That was the important part, that her sacrifice meant something although it leaves her permanently scarred.
Mate (Fandom: Star Trek Strange New Worlds)
My first foray into PikeUna territory where I happily still sit and enjoy life and which soon will be turned into a comic by the wonderful @eldar-of-zemlya. It's short, sweet, nonsensical and full of dad jokes. But it gave me opportunity to fuck around with the Zalgo Text Generator. (He comes!) Chris and Una are trapped in a white void and have to figure out what the word "Mate" means. When in doubt, always fuck.
A Tale of Two Chrises (Fandom: Star Trek Strange New Worlds)
That one was so dumb but I had a lot of fun. I needed to write an Una Threesome but had a hard time coming up with the third character, because I find most characters in SNW, regardless of gender, either too young or otherwise problematic to ship with her. (Meanwhile I know that Joseph is a valid option, hold on tight.) So I came up with Admiral Pike from the future from S1x10 "A Quality of Mercy", because why not let Una fuck two Chrises while we're at it? She's kinky enough. But then the crack sort of became more sober and the whole whing became surprisingly wholesome and bittersweet. It also made me develop Una's Illyrian name "Evynne" that was featured in other fics, too and the Illyrian bonding of mates. Overall great fun. And there exist some wonderfully steamy illustrations by @eldar-of-zemlya. Check them out on AO3.
Illyrian Hospitality (Fandom: Star Trek Strange New Worlds)
Two things are true: Una is beautiful. Una is kinky. So I thought what would become of her if she never joined Starfleet. And then I had a field day making her into a high-class escort that is not a prostitute and relentlessly flirts with Chris who isn't prepared for any of this. I had great fun coming up with Illyrian lore and cultural concepts and develop the planet a bit while my two favorite dorks fumble, fall in love and get their deserved happy end. It's a rare wholesome story by me but stay tuned: the sequel will tear their world apart.
who are the dragons for the "Love is some kind of punishment" post? and why did you choose them for that autogenerate pic? /eyes emoji
EEEEEHEHEHE SO XANTHIA AND CAMIR! this is going to be so long
For Xanthia, she was previously Pentes' wife! The two were married in order to unite Pentes' kingdom with a country that would merge with his own, and she had been the firstborn daughter of this country's previous leader. Because Pentes himself is an immortal, and he LOVES himself some consistency, Xanthia was granted a shared immortality upon this marriage in order for her to be his wife for eternity. Which wasn't exactly something she had wanted at the time, but over the first couple of decades of their marriage she grew to genuinely love him as at the time Pentes was good to his people, and in turn good with her.
But. Pentes isn't a good man. He is the physical embodiment of mud, the Lord Alluvium specifically, and was given his sentience by pure exposure to King Norve, who was very pissed when he was digging underneath the Scarred Wasteland. He inherited this anger and the want for power that King Norve had wanted at the time. So, after their multi-decade-long honeymoon phase, Pentes began to try and gain more and more power by taking over the land around him. Much of this land is actually where the Quarantine Zones are in the Scarred Wasteland now, and if he could overpower someone, he would do it without hesitation; so the peak of his rule expanded for this entire area and then some. Xanthia didn't like this.
The Thing about Xanthia is that she's very straightforward and blunt about her opinions. She thought this drastic expansion was unnecessary and greedy, and would only hurt their people in the long run, which was NOT something Pentes wanted to hear. For most of these expansions, because she loved him so much, she kept her mouth shut and did what she could behind his back, but it wasn't much because (motions to the mud part) he quite literally had eyes everywhere there was dirt.
She would become more defiant though the more it started to affect their kingdom negatively. Pentes was solely concerned about gaining power, for what he never knew, but he knew he needed it and wanted it. He was becoming more and more aggressive, more arrogant, and while to the outsiders perspective his kingdom might have been thriving through this, the reality was that it was tearing apart the inner councils and that the kingdom was very near collapse. So Xanthia decided she had QUITE enough of it and finally, publicly, denounced what Pentes was doing.
Pentes to the public eye took the speech she made gracefully. He acknowledged what she had qualms with, and announced that he would make a formal speech in return, and address any problems his people might have as well. but well actually he was pissed as hell.
The Thing Is Though. he couldn't just kill her. she honest to god wanted to rest, so it wouldn't scare her to threaten to take her immortality. On top of that, it would ruin the image that his kingdom was Fine Actually for the Queen to suddenly die in some way, so soon after she made a speech against him. So he keeps her alive. but he doesn't keep his people alive, and that is what hits her the hardest. Before they married she was in schooling to become a doctor, and was notorious for helping those around her no matter their status/relevance.
The title of Bell is one held within King Norve's Council. The Bell is a warning signal, to take on the dress of the Bell is to announce that there imminent danger that is unavoidable, and no one will escape the incoming tragedy alive, and typically this dress is given by King Norve himself and the title holder will act as a messenger. Each Bell title holder usually has its own moniker, and Pentes' title would come to be the Blood-Ridden Bell. Six months after his response to Xanthia's claims and soothing his kingdom, he very suddenly has an "outburst of magic" after donning the Crown of Pins* that leads to a very violent slaughter of a GOOD portion of the inner kingdoms people. His end goal was to devastate Xanthia so horribly that she fell into a deep depression, and become something malleable for him to manipulate-- because she has power of her own! While she's wasn't a god like him, she was becoming one through exposure to him, and she could've very easily be turned into a living weapon just like King Norve himself.
But she doesn't devastate like he intended her to. After "coming back to his senses" and "realizing what he had done", Xanthia is already making moves to leave this kingdom. Of course she's in pain about what had just happened, but she knows Pentes after well over 200 years of being married to him, and knows that he is just Too Powerful to have an uncontrolled outburst like that. His power is well cultivated and precise, but he didn't account for the fact that Xanthia knew him so intimately as she did-- because while she loved him, he didn't love her fully. She was a prop for his kingdom, and he believed her to be just as knowledgeable about his power as his people. But she is insanely smart! And Again! Loved Him Deeply! so she would pay attention to these things!
So he scrambles. He's apologetic to his peoples and seems to be deeply ashamed of what he's done and immediately goes to repair what's been lost to the best of his abilities, even putting in significantly more work to rehabilitate everyone in the kingdom and bring back people to the inner kingdom. But Xanthia is missing. and people notice this quickly. But he never gives a proper statement as to what happened to her, because truthfully, for a very long time he genuinely didn't know-- only that she was definitely still alive.
This ofc pisses him the fuck off even after King Norves gives him the little Bell promotion in titling him the Blood-Ridden Bell, because while he has technically gained power, he could've had a LOT more power if he had kept Xanthia and turned her into the weapon he wanted her to become. But alas.
So, Xanthia is exiled from Pentes' rule, and in turn is exiled from the Vermin Court, which pins a very large target on her back if she is to be rediscovered by the wrong dragons of this court.
Right now, Xanthia is actually taking shelter under Anura's eye in the Clan of Phrauge, and has been since the Clan was first originated. Not many within the clan actually know who Xanthia is at length, just that she's an immortal doctor and was said to have known Anura when he was the Clans leader. Pentes, as of the present storyline, is actually aware of this and visits Xanthia VERYYYYY very downlow.
It's usually to taunt her. She is still sickeningly in love with who Pentes was before he become who he is now. She always seems to be in a state of mourning of this version of him, and it doesn't seem like she'll stop mourning him anytime soon, especially when he visits her. Some days he'll come to her and basically lovebomb her into confusion, other days he'll be cruel and accusatory, threatening to expose her to those who want her dead for abandoning him, etc etc etc. It's really bad. Anura unfortunately isn't in high of enough rank for his actions to sway Pentes any, and because he is still affiliated with the Vermin Court he can't completely keep Pentes out of his clans boundaries-- especially not without exposing the fact he is still alive to his own clan.
So. Xanthia is just very tired. She'll always love who Pentes was, and he will always dangle this over her head.
*- Crown of Pins: This was a crown made by some of the first organized Religions around the Plaguebringer, specifically when she was still known as Jhortanas to the common people. It was worn by religious leaders while performing rituals in order to communicate with her, and became a weapon of destruction after being imbued with ancient plague magic. King Norve stole this crown after running off on his own, and gave it to Pentes to form his physical body. Pentes only brings out this crown when he intends to do mass destruction, ie, the Blood-Ridden Bell Murder.
Now. 1. imagine if i had this in a bio. 2. Camir's situation is. significantly less convoluted. HELP.
Camir Moreno is the second husband of "Arianwyn" Craftwood aka Crafty, but the two divorced somewhat recently and on less than neutral terms. It's rumored that the two had children and that well he didn't get custody, but given that the Craftwoods are so vigilant about keeping their family members anonymous within reason, no one actually knows if there's actually any kids. But
Camir grew up with Crafty in the burrow market. For as long as he can remember he's been in love with her. He fell for her REALLY hard and continued to love her throughout a shit ton of Burrow Market Tragedies:tm: and even the War of Flies which VERY much fucked up things for them. but hes also a narcissist and has a shit ton of his own problems and while the love he has is genuine, he never actually got along with her that well?!?!?
They had conflicting interests for the Burrow as they both climbed in leadership. They had conflicting customers, ethics, literally everything, and it came to a point where he very legitimately questioned Why he loved her, but came down to like 'heh i just like women who stand their ground' which like. sure whatever.
he was very difficult to deal with in marriage, and the only reason why they even married was for political gain. The Morenos and Craftwoods on the surface are very influential families in the Gabbro (old city in phrauge) and having these families come together would only bring each other customers. The second this shit was proposed Camir agreed. But it took craftwood a LOOT of hefty talking into because she had actually, previously, been married to fucking Patriarch Feir (guy who made Bawkrya the Patriarch with no warning) which is A BIG DEAL!!!!!!!!!!!!! and that marriage obviously led to divorce as well, and she just didnt want to waste her time with more political marriages (and also she was preoccupied banging women and sopping wet men (neither of which is camir))
but she would relent. and immediately regret.
They made the marriage work just long enough for her to get some important contracts that she wanted out of the marriage, but she very quickly handed him the divorce papers the second she knew she could safely break off the marriage w/o severing what she built Off of the marriage. and Camir found this really insulting. Because again, he really liked her! he's had a fascination with her since he was like fifteen! but he absolutely didn't have the words to express this, and didn't feel like it was necessary to do such because oh you're my wife now.
But, he perceives anything she does that he doesn't like as something to spite him and is generally very petty about the divorce, and Quite Literally has beaten the FUCK out of someone for bringing it up in a manner he didn't like. On the surface, he holds an amicable relationship with her, but its something he Has to do as they're both burrow masters.
anyways he was just in love with the idea of her that he made in his head that is absolutely nothing like what Crafty's actually like as a person, and she is very well aware of this. The marriage isnt the first time he's brought up his feelings for her. Hes just one of those guys that cant take no for an answer
to Craftwoods delight though, Xidorn aka her sopping wet man her little rabid ring dog her sweet cinnamon apple, ends up getting a hit on Camir and kills his ass after provoking him during a VERYYY large fighting tournament in the death rings. They both coordinate his assassination even getting vasyl in on it, and uhhh i havent planned anything beyond this but camir gets whats coming for him.
Well it took me some time, but I'm finally working on my tumblr queue. Thanks for @curator-on-ao3 for tagging me on my first foray into a fandom. And I thought long and hard for that. Apart from a few exceptions I actually only and ever wrote for Star Trek. But today I want to post something that I wrote for a Fandom that is not Star Trek.
As I cannot decide between two, you get two. :D
The first is a still unfinished fic that I did for the amazing webcomic Stand Still Stay Silent by the Finno-Swedish artist Minna Sundberg about a ragtag crew of people having to delve into the "silent world", that is the world after a pandemic has turned most humans and animals into monsters. If you like Sci-Fi, magic and a Scandinavian turn I can wholeheartedly recommend this comic. I ship the "parents" of the mission Sigrun Eide, a Norwegian gung-ho soldier and Mikkel Madsen, a Danish jack-of-all trades.
One day, Mikkel was standing outside doing the laundry. It was a fine, clear winter day and the danger seemed as remote as it could possibly be. Lalli probably was sleeping, Tuuri and Reynir were inside and Emil was patrolling.
A noise startled Mikkel and he turned around to see Sigrun in the entrance of the tank. Her arm was still in the splint but her hip allowed her to walk again.
“We should talk,” she said matter-of-factly and joined him.
He sighed and nodded. “Look, if it’s about…”
She stood upright and looked him straight in the eye. “Do you want to fuck me?”
Mikkel let the laundry fall back in the cauldron and stared at her.
“WHAT?!” He blushed. “What… what are you talking about?” he stammered.
She sighed and shook her head. “I’m asking you now if you have felt or are feeling a desire to have sex with me.” Her voice had the tone as if talking to a small child.
Mikkel suddenly found the floor much more interesting. He scolded himself for his carelessness. Now he got the reprimand he deserved. Finally, he found the courage to look at her again. “Why do you ask?” he muttered.
“For faen, you Danish ox!” She cast up her healthy arm in exasperation. “Stop fidgeting, will you?! I’m asking one last time!”
from "Vekst (Growth)".
The second foray is into "The Librarians", the magical TV series from 2014-2018 that lets me know that every HR is actually the Minotaur's labyrinth and that I sold to colleagues and friends with exactly that sales pitch. Flynn/Eve, unpublished.
It shouldn’t have happened.
But that was probably a tough expectation to have in a world where magic was real. Nevertheless it shouldn’t have happened. And yet it had.
They had been careful. They had used every precaution to prevent the exact same thing from happening that now mocked Colonel Eve Baird in the form of a positive pregnancy test.
But the longer she stared at the goddamn thing, willing reality away, the more it manifested, the more the little plus appeared.
She was on birth control ever since joining the military and she was diligent about it. Not only as a soldier but also as a Guardian a pregnancy was off the table. It was antithetical to her line of work.
A baby would not only hinder her mobility and abilities to perform at her job while she was carrying it - after that poor thing was born it was a liability for a set of parents who worked in a high-risk environment. And conversely what Flynn and her were doing was a danger to the child because it wasn’t the first time that dark and sinister forces were after them.
It made them vulnerable, a target.
And there was no doubt whatsoever that Flynn was the father. None.
But Flynn was a lot of things - except careless. He had insisted on condoms on top of her birth control, because he knew what was at stake - maybe even better than Eve herself. At least he had managed to survive for years before the Library had chosen her as a Guardian.
Eve strengthened her grip around that piece of plastic in her hand, pushing the blood out of her knuckles.
In case you wondered: I can only write three tropes and it's not dependent on fandom.
I tag @elephant-in-the-pride-parade, @strkamand, @cnroth, @cheile, @coffee-in-that-nebula, @enterprise-come-in and anyone else that I'm forgetting at 00:18 AM.
These three are among the small group of individuals that have been in the Silver Market since it was started 30 years ago-- and have survived. Each one knows their own section of the Market like the back of their hands, and each one keeps to those sections in order to not try and kill each other.
Camir, working on the most surface level of the Silver Market, deals with most trades in relation to item export. Special little substances, rare delicacies, and more are his forte. He also does a good deal of work in the Gabbro and other Dragonhome territory, most often bringing in more faces to the Market in hopes of more deals.
Zenth, working in the mid level, and also the most populated level of the Market, keeps track of every single guild that makes their way through the Market. From the shadiest groups to prestigious ones that don't exactly want to be associated with the Market, he keeps them in order and out of trouble they're not looking for. He also from time to time has to keep the other two Masters in check when they decide to bite off more than they can chew. Especially Craftwood.
Craftwood works on the lowest level of the Market, which hosts the more unpleasant sides that only dragons born into it even know about. She's not the most open about her work as it isn't all that sanitary, but the one thing she loves talking about are the "Silver Death Rings." Gathering fighters from all parts of Sornieth, dragons compete often to death in fight rings in order to show off their strength, or obtain rare items that aren't permitted on general markets. Craftwood spends most of her time here betting on fighters that she personally employs-- but if the wrong dragon dies in the ring, it very well may bring down the entire Burrow.
I've spent two whole days trying to rename this one dang character, since I took his name to use for his father since Korsa does not fit with Saren and Lorrel (aka Leo) - his brothers - but Korsa works well for his father. I went through a few *dozen* possible names for this one, but none of the names clicked like they usually do for characters. Even Korsa was just a placeholder name for him from the beginning since I didn't really like it for this character, and had been wanting to name the father Korsa instead for a few weeks now.
CAMIR. Cam for short.
Hell yeah.
(Thanks to Jhey for letting me stick a C onto one of her characters names and ending my misery. I was seriously considering just naming him "Little Shit" and being done with it)
