#camp 15

[farfromdaylight]

day 27 wordcount: 110,901

total wordcount: 345,678

and with that... it's done.

this is a very weird feeling. like, shouldn't i still need to get up and keep writing tomorrow? how does this work.

okay, technically, i still have a lot to write, but all of that writing is now called "editing." the ending is, in fact, absolute garbage. there's no two ways about it. it's trash. i went ahead and wrote what i could of the last chapter but i left entire scenes out because i simply can't write them until i edit, so. time to be done so i can do that.

... i may have written to this total because i'm a dork. my total wordcount going into the month was 234,567 (plus a couple hundred words i wrote a few days beforehand). it honestly just happened that i ended up this close to the next in the series.

this is surreal. i wonder when it's gonna sink in that i have a completed draft. (probably as soon as i start loading it into scrivener and start embarking on the journey that is Editing.) it's done. it's really done. holy shit.

[farfromdaylight]

man, this ending is not working for me. which, I mean. I'm glad I'm realizing it now? it means I need to scrap it all and figure out something else. but it also means that I might not be able to finish this fic this month. I basically have to cut the last ~15k and rewrite it, and some of it will tie back to edits I haven't made yet... I hate to just stop here when I basically only have one chapter left, but I'm also at the point where that chapter is going to be useless and will just have to be rewritten later, so... what's the point... I FEEL VERY CONFLICTED. Do I finish this fic for the sake of finishing the draft or do I stop where I am and start editing?

[farfromdaylight]

day 26 wordcount: 107,445

total wordcount: 342,222

almost everything i wrote today was utter trash that i’m going to have to cut or rewrite later.

i realized this about 2k into the day (i wrote about 5500 words today) and pretty much accepted it. the thing is that this part of the fic is not very well outlined. i took the time early this morning to streamline some of the outline, but it’s still dependent on some other rewrites i’m going to do in editing. since i don’t know what’s going to happen yet i kind of just had to go ‘welp okay idk what’s gonna happen here.’

i kept writing anyway because i wanted to have something down, and i wanted to get past this hump. it also highlighted which things i need to focus on in editing in order to rewrite this part.

i dunno. i’m happy to be near the end (i only have a single chapter left to write) but i’ve also reached the point where i don’t really benefit that much from having this first draft if i’m going to have to trash it all. so i’m not putting a lot of effort into what i’m writing, at least not the way i was earlier this month (or, hell, last week). i will go ahead and finish the draft, but man, i am gonna have to dive right into editing to make it readable.

[farfromdaylight]

day 25 wordcount: 101,851

total wordcount: 336,628

i can't effing believe this fic still had 100k in it how the fuck did this ever happen

anyway i feel like i'm finally at the point where i actually feel confident that i can finish this fic by the end of the month. i've hit certain plot goalpoints in the conclusion that mean i'm close to the end. not sure how many more words it'll take, but eh. i'll figure it when i get there.

[farfromdaylight]

97442 (words this month) / 332219 (fic total)

i finally got to chocobo ex machina and i managed to make it not entirely a deus ex machina. it still has shades of it but it could be a lot worse. WE GOOD.

breaktime for food and then continuing on with actual CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT whoo

[farfromdaylight]

day 24 wordcount: 95,234

total wordcount: 330,011

uh i finished writing an hour ago and then i got distracted by the internet and now i'm super tired so this will be quick.

FINALLY REACHED CHAPTER 60 HOLY SHIT. am in endgame. not sure how long endgame is going to take but i hope it's not very long (mostly because i'm ready to be done ahaha). but i do want to wrap up the various points of character development so we'll see. ...not all of the character development exists in this draft because i changed some stuff while writing but WHATEVER, I'LL FIGURE IT OUT

[farfromdaylight]

92804 (words this month) / 327581 (fic total)

sephiroth is dead. i am officially in wrapup/conclusion shit. holy crap, this has taken so much to get to but FINALLY. FINALLY.

this arc is over 100k it's been such a journey but I'M SO CLOSE TO THE END. I CAN TASTE IT.

(please don't let the conclusion take me 30k lmfao)

(watch it take me 30k)

[farfromdaylight]

day 23 wordcount: 92,189

total wordcount: 326,966

holy crap i think i might actually be almost done with this final battle. technically it's not over yet but i've finally set the last sequence in motion to end it. it's honestly taken all week to write this massive 14k bit and i'm just like. GODDAMN. that took a lot out of me.

i have no idea how it's gonna come out either. it went in so many unexpected directions??? IDEK, MAN. things happened. shit got real. it was intense. people almost died like 5 times.

i feel like i still have 30k to write to wrap this fic up. weeps.