it is simply the way fuyumi is going to have to live with the fact that everything she’s strived for, everything she has lived her entire life for, is going to absolutely be broken by this. there’s no recovery from this. fuyumi has lived TEN FUCKING YEARS trying to make sense of this mess, trying to salvage anything she can so she and her family can have at least SOME semblance of normalcy. fuyumi has spent her entire fucking life trying to hold on to her family. they mourned TEN FUCKING YEARS for touya, and to find out he’s alive? like this?
howl was saying over call that fuyumi finally understands why her mother just broke like that and they’re absolutely right.












