#capstone shit

[transsexual-dandelions]

Capstone is killing me this is so stressful (<- has to make safety forms; is too scared to ask my teacher questions)

[gravehags]

hey quick question what the ACTUAL fuck does this mean

[houseofpopsiclesticks]

(but i am going to keep working on the piece because i need to to graduate and i have literally never had a goal in my recent memory other than a need to graduate college - i don’t remember any other goals before 6th grade than that)

[houseofpopsiclesticks]

me, whenever anyone says something to the effect of “why are you so stressed?” “you are making yourself stressed” “you aren’t going to be able to do x/y/z because of your stress” “your stress is polluting the project” (this last one i take explicit offense to because i do not show this stress to my creative team / cast): well, i have anxiety that is flaring because there is too much going on so i feel stuck and unable to do anything, and therefore can’t produce/be creative, and therefore everything is starting to crumble in terms of capstone/future/auditions/sleep.

[houseofpopsiclesticks]

my show opens a month from today.

[houseofpopsiclesticks]

. . . no one at ace hardware actually wrote down my request.

aka fuck ace and i am going with the local guy my friend knows to get the fabric.

[houseofpopsiclesticks]

i am self-censoring so much and i don't know if i can pull off this piece like i see it in my head / how it should be / how it wants to be

[nerdprincealec]

ive been working on this walk cycle since 10pm, it's now almost 2am and I had to start over completely because the walk was too fast to fix and kept limping. I now only have one leg started. I'm about to scream.