you know how i obsess over shit? whether it’s a project i have to do or a new fandom or whatever? that’s what i’m doing about the move.
the concept of it is at the forefront of my mind; it’s the thought that’s taking over all the other ones, including the ones telling me to kill myself.
unfortunately mental illness doesn’t just go away. the first spiral day i have AFTER the move is gonna hit me really fuckin hard. it’ll be there screaming at me “it’s not getting better, it never will, so may as well die already.”