The Final Frontier

Jenn - she/they - 30s - This blog has no structure and I'm keeping it that way

[bugslibraryy]

i think there are sooo many ways it could go but i’m thinking bout this: ilya is no stranger to shane’s teary don’t-let-the-tears-fall eyes during sex but it’s never gone over the edge to full tears. anyway ilya is fucking him face down ass up and doesn’t immediately realize shane starts crying, just hears shuddery breaths (also not uncommon for shane). when he notices oh shane’s hitching shoulders and sweet noises are genuine tears, ilya still inside of him and drapes himself over shane, gripping his chin to see his face properly, checks in. once it’s abundantly clear shane is having SO MUCH FUN DON’T YOU DARE STOP ilya is. gleeful. to say the least. so unbelievably turned on at the reality of shane crying overwhelmed happy sex tears and determined to have him crying harder

Ok yay again the rest of these are taking so long for me to get to I’m sorry but another beautiful take on crying shaneybug.

I looove this idea for hook up/situationship era first time Shane cries during sex !

Shane is being railed into the mattress, he’s already cum twice that night, once with Ilya’s mouth around him hot and wet and punishing and perfect, his clothes all still on, hands gripping and pulling at Ilya’s curls.

He’d cum the second time on Ilya’s cock, and Ilya had kept going, still fucking into Shane when he’d asked “still need more huh? Fucking greedy Hollander” when Shane had begun to pitch his hips back back back in small rolls after his orgasm had faded and he was in that lovely fuzzy hot space. Shane had nodded, nodded and Ilya had pressed down into Shane’s lover back and started fucking fucking fucking him again.

It’s so good it’s so much and Shane is gasping into the sheets, mouth open, drooling and his whole body is melting, he’s on fire, he dizzy and he’s open and he’s being taken and taken and he wants. He needs. And then Ilya is pushing Shane’s arms out from under him so Shane is while upper body pressed into the bed, knees bent up and oh fuck he’s deeper like this and Shane flares his hips back and there there there it’s sooo fucking he’ll die if Ilya ever stops he’s sure of it.

And he gasps in a breath and he’s gripping pulling twisting at the sheets and whining and it’s so much it’s so much and he hiccups and breath and tears are down his face and his shoulders are shaking with it. Then Ilya is up over him, pressed to his back and his thrusts are slowed, deep but just rocking into that perfect spot not pounding and Ilya’s hand is gripping Shane’s face. “Okay? Hollander? Hollander?” When Shane takes a second to reply.

Shane nods but he looks dazed and then Ilya is tugging his face to look at him and he’s like “Hollander? Good?” And he’s stopping his thrusts and Shane gasps, reached back to slap at any part of ilya he can’t. “No” he sobs like it’s heart wrenching. “No no no fuck Rozanov it’s good it’s good please” and then Ilya goes still for half a second and his fingers brush away the tears on Shane’s cheek, smears them across the skin and then he’s fucking Shane, deep pounding thrusts that make Shane shake, and he’s like “ yes yes yes god oh my god” and Ilya is smirking, beaming and he’s watching Shane cry as he fucks him- he’s fucking Hollander so well he’s fucking crying. He’s crying on his cock. Ilya could die a happy man. He fucks him harder and harder teased his nipples and cock until Hollander is hiccuping sobs as he cums.

Ilya uses the excuse of being “worn out fuck Hollander you made me do all the work” to spend a bit longer laying in bed with Hollander on top of him, making sure the tears are well gone and he’s rolling eyes and bitching at Ilya by the time he leaves.

[bugslibraryy]

i heard we’re talking about shane crying during sex? 👀

ok so i think he’s almost cried plenty of times, y’know that thing he does where his eyes fill with tears but they never actually fall? ilya fucks him so good i can see that happening on a regular basis, but it’s not like he likes him or anything, it’s completely involuntary, ilya’s hitting so deep and that’s just how his body reacts, couldn’t possibly mean anything else….

i’m gonna be boring and say the first time he actually cries during sex is at the cottage, probably after the thing with his parents. there was a really good tumblr fic i read a while ago (i’m annoyed i can’t remember who wrote it) where after they get back to the cottage but before his parents come back over for dinner, all the stress of the day hits shane all at once and he kneels for a while with ilya’s cock in his mouth to settle his nerves. i think that helps get him through dinner, but he’s still feeling shaky after they leave

they fuck nice and slow that night, it’s been an emotional day for both of them, and ilya recognizes how off-kilter shane feels, but shane insists he still wants it, begs for ilya’s cock like it’s the only thing keeping him tethered to reality. shane feels so full it’s like he’s going to burst, so full of love for his boyfriend and relief that his parents still love him and they even like ilya too, it’s too much and he’s breathing faster and faster until his face scrunches and the tears come pouring out. ilya panics, asks shane what’s wrong, is he hurting him, tried to pull out but shane sobs and wraps his arms and legs so tight around him and begs him not to go, he’s fine, it’s so good everything’s just too much and he needs ilya to keep fucking him or else he’ll die and the tears just won’t stop. he pulls ilya down on top of him and buries his face in his neck, it’s safe there, he can let everything go and ilya will take care of him. after everything that’s happened over the last decade ilya is still here and they finally have each other and shane is never letting him go again

ilya’s losing his goddamn mind because this shouldn’t be hot, why is this hot? the man he loves is breaking down in tears and is so desperate for him and it’s the hottest thing ilya’s ever seen, and he’ll definitely have a little crisis about it later but for now shane needs him and he has to keep going, has to keep fucking shane until there’s nothing left in him. he wraps his arms around shane’s back and behind his neck and pulls him impossibly closer, “i’ve got you, lyubimyy, shhh it’s ok, let it out for me, good boy…”

…and on that note i have to clock in for work ✌️

Hiii cutie bug! Again sorry to be late to get to his glorious glorious ask omg.

But YES I think this is how it went down if Shane was never to cry during casual era sex. Like Shane had always held held held in the tears when he felt overwhelmed during their hookup era, let them shimmer in his eyes but he was always so unsure how much he could share of himself with Ilya. He never cries- ever- it’s so rare, he has gotten so good at making sure they never fall and who is he to put his tears on his casual fuck Ilya Rozanov.

Adore the idea the Shane knees for a while with Ilya after getting back to the cottage, just using Ilya as his grounding his cock filling his mouth as he tries to re centre. Tries to find his way in the haze of his dad knowing of boyfriends I think so yes probably and his mum knowing and his mum apologising and it’s too much. Too much.

But YESSS yes Shane on his back, Ilya’s cock deep stretching him open, up over him and Shane is gazing up at this man, his man that is fucking him. The hulk of muscle and skin and Shane loves it, loves him. He loves being fucked and he loves men and he loves Ilya- he’s not sure be could live without this. And it’s. It’s alright. His parents know and it’s ok- it’s good even they like Ilya ans it’s so much it’s still still so much in the whole world and whole hockey of it all but his mum and his dad shook Ilya’s hand and had dinner with him and shared vodka with him and his dad had laughed at one of Ilya’s jokes and his mum had insisted Ilya have a second helping and Shane is so horrible in love.

And Shane just shatters, shatters, he takes in a long breath through his nose and there’s a soft keening sound and then he’s sobbing, sobbing and fuck it feels good it feels so good after being so scared today, so scared and happy and nervous and terrified and in love love love. It’s all been so fucking big and new and scary and worse of all, unpredictable. But now, now he feels held, taken care off, owned in the valley of has body, the thick press of his cock.

Ilya is all “Shane? Okay, okay hang on” and he’s starting to pull back and he’s like you said Shane grips him to him, his thighs and arms pinned tight tight around him, pulling him in and gasping “please fuck please no Ilya closer” and Ilya is nodding and petting his hand down the back of Shane’s head, kissing all over his face and crooning soft words, mixes of Russian he doesn’t know and sweet English that makes his heart ache.

Shane is nodding and nails in Ilya’s back and he’s gasping “please Ilya fuck me, fuck me, I need it. Need you” and Ilya nods and kisses him all tongue and open mouthed and then tucking Shane into him, wrapped up to his chest and he’s fucking him deep and aching.

Shane is shaking and sobbing into Ilya’s neck and moaning and Ilya is just cooing “it’s okay, you’re ok, I have you, I’ve got you, my Shane, it’s alright, you can let it go, it’s alright I love you. I’m right here” and it destroys Shane, he’s rubbing his face into Ilya’s neck and nails are digging into his back.

“Good boy, good boy, take it so fucking good, take my cock so good- so good Shane” and he can’t stop telling him how perfect he is, crying on his cock, needing him, loving him, so desperately sweet so fucking open, a mess for Ilya, trusting Ilya with his tears messy and gorgeous. Shane is safe with him, always, even when it’s scary.

[observethewalrus]

YESSS it’s such a deep cathartic crying, all those years of holding himself back and repressing anything he deemed too needy too indulgent too scary too much too much…

until the dam breaks and he’s incoherent with need, until it’s all escaping, all this emotion and stress and love and fear and desire have nowhere else to go and ilya’s fucking it all out of him, forcing a sob out of shane’s mouth with each hard steady thrust like a metronome, his body lurching upwards but never going far with how tight ilya has him pinned

and when he’s finally empty, when it’s all drained out of him and the only thing left is ilya’s cum deep inside him, he can finally breathe. even with ilya still pressing his weight down on him, boxing him in until it’s all he can feel or see or smell or hear, ilya’s voice in his ear telling him how good he is, how perfect, how safe, how loved, tiny kisses being pressed to his skin everywhere ilya can reach without pulling away, even completely surrounded shane’s breathing deep and free for the first time in ages. the tears haven’t stopped once but he’s calm now, letting them fall while he looks up at his man, his ilya, finally his…

[pixe7ed]

06-15✨ HBD Ilya Rozanov!!!

Shane version:)

[fuckrozanov]

goodmorning this is your assigned shane of the day

[bugslibraryy]

I’ve not read the book(s), only watched the show and read fanfics but I’m sorry not sorry to say in my big big brain that to ME, after the cottage, Ilya’s dirty talk is like 40% regular dirty talk and the remaining 60% is him being needy. But not like “I want to fuck you I want to be buried in you all day” (that’s the regular fyi) but it’s more that when the topic is Shane’s pleasure, it’s always if it’s because of Ilya. If Shane’s stained briefs are because of Ilya, if Shane’s wet dream was if Ilya, if Shane thinks of Ilya when they can’t share a bed, if he’s picturing Ilya’s hand around himself, in himself. Ilya tries so hard to turn it teasing against Shane to get him all flustered but he fails like almost always.

“Is it me, Shane, that is making you feel good? Is this okay? Am I okay? Shane do you feel good? Am I making you happy am I making you feel loved do you love me Shane do you need me Shane Shane Shane am I all you need am I the only one that’s given you this am I good Shane do you love me I love you Shane Shane my love my Shane” this is on repeat in Ilya’s head heart and soul

Bug this is SO big brained. Wow wow wow. I have taken far too long to get to answering this but it’s sooo good. I ADORE needing top ilya and needy top Ilya dirty talk 😮‍💨that’s so perfect. Like it’s so fucking sexy to know that your partners need and desire is caused by you, is for you. I think that drives Ilya fucking wild. I think it’s also the Rose Landry of it all !! To have the confirmation that it’s Ilya that he wants, needs, that Shane loves him wants him picks him it’s still somehow to unbelievable to Ilya, that Shane loves him the way he does, what they have together. And Ilya just hes addicted to hearing how Shane needs him, to know Shane is touching himself so him, thinking of him when he’s needy. He needs to know, needs to hear it Ilya LOVES being needed.

And YES it beinf flustered an achy- like Ilya can’t even try and front he needs he needs to know that Shane needs him, needs to know that Shane’s desire belongs to Ilya. Is because of Ilya, for Ilya.

It makes Ilya feel crazy. Shane shaky and gripping at Ilya, pushing up into his thrusts and says “that’s so good” and Ilya is all “yeah? Yeah it’s good? My cock is making you feel good Shane?” And Shane is nodding nodding but Ilya needs more, he needs to hear it. He needs to know. “You need it right? Need my cock? There’s nothing else better right Shane? Only me yeah? Only I can fuck you like this, only I know how you need it how you fucking like it, only I will take care do you like this Shane” and Shane knows, knows when it’s frantic in Ilya this need to claim and know Shane is his. He’s pushing his cock into him hard deep thrusts and he’s gasping out “you need this yeah? Need my cock? Fuck Shane, just wanna make you feel good wanna make you feel so fucking good you deserve it you deserve to feel good wanna be the one to give it to you. My sweetheart give you anything anything you need it’s yours. Just let me make you feel good Shane I love you so fucking much show me how you love me with your hole, pretty little hole show me how it needs me”

Shane gets the same way, aches to now he’s the thing that un does Ilya. Shane is curling his fingers through Ilya’s hand, kissing at his forehead and ear. “It’s so good. So good, only you Ilya, only you, only your cock I belong to you only you make me feel like this, you’re mine my Ilya” and it takes Ilya apart he’s frenzied in his thrusts and he’s grumbling “mine mine” into Shane’s neck as he cums and cums filling him up……

[observethewalrus]

i suddenly wanna draw again but i haven’t practiced in months :(

[yadathings]

[virginshane]

​imagine you push inside shane hollander for the first time and his face is right there looking like that !!!!!!!!!!! like he’s feeling god from ur cock……..

[ilyapasta]

Something something— some of their friction in the beginning comes from Ilya being uncomfortable with how much heart Shane wears on his sleeve, despite feeling charmed by Shane’s sincerity and earnest qualities and wanting that openness for himself, versus Shane being uncomfortable with how much Ilya makes him reveal parts about himself he’d always wanted to keep secret, keep buried, despite craving the freedom and agency being with Ilya brings out in him

[hutsonwoolyums]

https://www.tumblr.com/bugslibraryy/819750048440221696/ok-shane-hollander-and-one-of-these-pillows-and

Hi baby love I bring this to your desk for your thoughts feelings and considerations!!! 💗💗💗

Ooooh bug I love that you brought this to my desk.

I’m thinking Ilya buys this when he falls prey to one of those targeted Instagram ads, and when it arrives Shane’s like baby, what the fuck? And Ilya’s like for you, when you sleep because Shane’s usually a deep sleeper but he does toss and turn sometimes like he can’t get settled and comfortable, and the lady in the picture looks so cozy cuddly warm Ilya’s heart kind of breaks thinking about his Shane like that, and Shane’s like I’m not using that because he prefers to cuddle with Ilya, thank you very much, but one night he’s restless and fussy and he knows if he keeps tossing and turning he’s going to wake up Ilya (Ilya calls him my little rotisserie chicken when this happens) so he grabs the pillow from the depths of the closet and oh, this is nice actually, he can just sink down into it and the pressure on his hips is gone and his arms don’t feel like they’re in the way anymore and he slips into sleep almost immediately, and then it becomes not a regular thing but something he pulls out on nights when the itch under his skin is too strong for him to sleep and Ilya starts calling it his spoon moon like, “want me to get your spoon moon, kotenok?” And Shane will flush and roll his eyes and mumble yes, and maybe Ilya sneaks and sprays it with his cologne every now and then because he loves how Shane breathes so deep when he’s asleep and cuddled up close to it. 

So THEN Ilya has to go out of town for some reason (hand waves, doesn’t matter what) and they’ll only be apart for three nights—they used to do months—but that was before they had every night together, before they’d fused together all the secret hidden parts under each other’s skin and it’s intolerable to think of three nights alone in their (suddenly hatefully big) bed, but Ilya calls Shane every day and Shane sleeps with the spoon moon every night, and Shane gets by well enough, keeps busy at their home with calls to his parents, to Rose, to Hayden, with foundation work, and workouts, and Anya, until it’s the last night of Ilya’s trip and Ilya calls him right as Shane is settling into bed (spoon moon waiting off to the side) and Shane’s hair is wet from a shower and he’s wearing his glasses and Ilya is only human, so of course the goodnight phone call becomes phone sex, and Ilya’s taking his time with it, just barely stroking over his cock while he talks Shane through opening himself up and sliding in one of his favorite butt plugs (I know, I know how you need it, sweetheart. gonna keep you nice and open for me, huh? So I can just fucking s-slide right in when I get home, yeah) and Shane is nodding and arching his back and showing off for Ilya, spreading his thighs so Ilya can see him stuffed full and aching for his big man to fuck him, and it always makes Ilya a bit crazy when Shane calls him that, so it’s not long before he’s hanging on by a thread, but Shane’s not there yet and he wants them to come together, a facsimile of what they’ll have when he gets home in the morning, but Shane can’t get there.

His grip is tight around his angry purple cock as he fucks his hips up into it, and he’s whining at every shift of the plug, and his fist is wet with pre-cum, but it’s not enough (I can’t, I can’t, Ilya I need you please) and his eyes start to prick with tears and not the good kind, and that just won’t do, so Ilya tells him to stop, stop everything, and it hurts to do but Shane pulls his hand away from his aching cock and then Ilya tells Shane to get the spoon moon and tuck up close and Shane doesn’t understand what good this will do but he’d do anything to come right now and Ilya’s voice sounds so confident and sexy when he’s in charge like this so Shane does it, gets all comfortable like he likes and rests the phone flat on the mattress by his head so he can feel like Ilya’s right there, and then Ilya’s voice is syrup as he tells Shane all about the fantasy that’s sustained him through each of the long lonely nights, how when he gets in from his early flight he’ll find Shane asleep and wrapped around the spoon moon just like he is now, and his perfect boy will be plugged up and ready, and all Ilya will have to do is slide up close, replace the plug with his cock and get Shane nice and full on the slow rock of his hips, not even pulling out much but just fucking in, in, in cause he knows how Shane needs it, how they both need it, after these days apart, how he’ll keep Shane on his cock like that for hours, and Shane can come as often as he likes but Ilya won’t pull out until he’s taken all he wants from his boy, and as he says it he makes Shane take out the plug and replace it with two fingers (just like that, sweetheart, you feel me? You feel how much I need you? Yeah yeah I feel it fuck, Ilya) and Shane gets three fingers in, then four, and oh fuck he feels so full and the soft pressure of the pillow is so nice against his oversensitive cock, and with Shane’s eyes closed it’s like Ilya’s all around him, fucking him just right, and giving Shane his thigh to rock against, and groaning sweet filth in his ear (yeah that’s right, that’s my good boy, just take what you need on my cock malysh fuck, it’s yours, it’s all yours), somehow all at the same time, and Shane’s nuzzling deep into the pillow because it’s soft and warm and smells like Ilya, and this time Shane’s tears are the good ones, just soft hiccups around endless stream of moans broken only by Ilya’s name as he ruts his cock against the pillow until his orgasm washes over him. 

[upset-to-dead]

Soft touches

[observethewalrus]

Idk what its called technically but blood kink

⭐️⭐️….maybe more like ⭐️⭐️⭐️ but with caveats

Hard no for me in real life, my boundary for pain tolerance is “if blood is drawn we’re done.” Fiction is a little better but I’m talkin like vampire fics. I can’t really think of any other time I’d intentionally seek out blood play fics outside of that context

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[writinginasnowglobe]

it's honestly kind of funny how horrendously bad shane and ilya were at hiding their situationship like we have ilya blushing at his phone and being so outwardly angry/jealous during the rose era and we have shane smiling down at his phone and answering questions about ilya without even thinking about it in the locker room and the fact that their teams call the other BOSTON LILY and MONTREAL JANE......if there was even ONE person on the bears/raiders that was friends with someone on the voyageurs/metros, they would've put it together

[finny-red]

Summer sketch ☀️

[darlingofdots]

may I also propose: Scott Hunter is actually mildly allergic to blueberries but he was so bewitched by Kip's history major smoothie barista charm that he did not hear a word out of his mouth and just agreed to anything he said and then he's too embarrassed to come clean and has to keep drinking Itchy Mouth Juice before every home game for, like, months

[pmamtraveller]

Fish-shaped interlocking paving stones.

[observethewalrus]

name calling (in a degrading way)

@tearsofshane <33

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Definitely enjoy it most of the time, there are some names that will take me right out of my headspace, but for the most part it’s a yes for me irl and when reading!

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