@carlbelow : “I don’t wanna ever have to let you go.”
a hand comes up to scratch at the stubble not yet shaven, the fingers dance across their own cheek to check for tears before uselessly looking for a pack of cigarettes . heaven took them . heaven always takes everything and if they could take karl’s facial hair, they would . eventually it’ll disappear, eventually they’ll come to work in a suit with shiny shoes but that’s just it, isn’t it . work in exchange for the safety of their loved ones . ❝ you know you can’t get rid of me, even when we’re in different places . ❞
they should’ve known better . a decade spent amongst humans and the oddest of qualities rediscovers as karl now knows, they can LOVE somebody . but nothing is made to last, nothing except heaven and hell and the never ending stream of lost souls he is forced to guide . it’s not fair, makes them want to shake those golden gates with the weight of their rage but nothing happens . no, karl has to play nice, has given up freedom, free will and yet in front of them stands their other half . it’s killing him, makes him wish that’s a fucking option for once but the pain doesn’t subside and again, nothing happens .
❝ fuck, you should’ve stayed with ivo, carl . ❞