#carnalities

[devilied-blog]

all ze text

meme.  //  accepting.

Send “✆” for a MORNING text. 

[  delivered at 7:15AM  ]  you up yet?[  delivered at 7:15AM  ]  i want ice cream.

Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT. 

[  drafted at 4:26PM  ]  are you ever gonna give me my jacket back?

Send “☎” for a RUSHED text. 

[  delivered at 6:08PM  ]   hospital ttyl

Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

[  delivered at 6:08PM  ]  ROFL >_<[  delivered at 6:08PM  ]  i ahvent been thi sdrunk in a lonnnggg ass time …. [  delivered at 6:09PM  ]  gave someoen a lap dance …..[  delivered at 6:10PM  ]  he got hard i coudl feel it … 

Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text. 

[  delivered at 8:18PM  ]  don’t take this the wrong way but can i practise my lap dances on you?

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

[  delivered at 2:55AM  ]  need some minmin cuddles!!!!!

Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text.

[  delivered at 1:52AM  ]  ….. [  delivered at 1:53AM  ]  go fuck yourself.[  delivered at 1:53AM  ]  i’m not in the mood.[  delivered at 1:54AM  ]  anyway we both know you’d rather talk to tae anyway so why bother. just leave me alone.

Send “#” for a RANDOM text.

[  delivered at 11:15PM  ]  i just realised i never asked you this … who’s your favourite pokemon?

Send “@” for a SCARED text.

[  delivered at 11:45PM  ]  i … had a really bad nightmare[  delivered at 11:45PM  ]  please tell me you’re awake[  delivered at 11:46PM  ]  i’m coming to your room to cuddle anyway[  delivered at 11:46PM  ]  please don’t shut me out

Send “&” for a LOVING text.

[  delivered at 5:12PM  ]  i had a really good time today riding around with you! [  delivered at 5:13PM  ]  bet you didn’t know i could pop a wheelie :~) i’m badass you know … [  delivered at 5:14PM  ]  anyway i’m really happy you came with me.. i love you minmin.

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

[  delivered at 2:31AM  ]  are you okay?[  delivered at 2:31AM  ]  what’s all that noise?

Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text.

[  delivered at 3:49AM  ]  you’ll NEVER BELIEVE what i just fucking copped, jungmin. you’re going to be so proud of me!!!!

Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

[  delivered at 2:00AM  ]  yeah but mine’s bigger.[  delivered at 2:05AM  ]  ah … what the…? [  delivered at 2:06AM  ]  disregard that. hi!

Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text. 

[  delivered at 3:12AM  ]  maybe if i’d never met her she’d still be alive right now.[  delivered at 3:13AM  ]  my heart hurts so much thinking about her.[  delivered at 3:13AM  ]  i don’t think i’m ever gonna love anyone like i loved her. why can’t i move on? … i feel guilty for even wanting to. fuck. [  delivered at 3:14AM  ]  please help me. i don’t wanna feel like this anymore.

[gyeogno]

all the textsies

              MEME : ACCEPTING !             @carnalities

Send “✆” for a MORNING text.       (  SENT! AT 6:58 A.M. ) : are you awake yet?       (  SENT! AT 7:01 A.M. ) : i don’t want to move so get me apple juice?       (  SENT! AT 7:01 A.M. ) : no.. orange juice

Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT.       (  SENT! AT 11:50 P.M. ) : you don’t take me seriously when i text in caps and i’ cant be bothered to either so im staying in lowercase but i hope you can tell how pissed i am becaus im so fucking annoyed at you bringing all these whores home after we’ve just spent a whole fcuking day together? i’d beat the shit out of the slut AND you if you weren’t my brother

Send “☎” for a RUSHED text.       (  SENT! AT 11:06 A.M. ) : im cominghg stop complainin i ha dto put clothes on

Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.       (  SENT! AT 12:35 A.M. ) :   [ IMAGE ATTACHMENT ]       (  SENT! AT 12:41 A.M. ) : lefttt shoe=busuness right shoe=no sho fun

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.       (  SENT! AT 3:08 A.M. ) : don’t wake me up early i’m slepeing in till 4

Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text.       (  SENT! AT 4:48 P.M. ) : stop telling me what to do when you know i can just tear you to fucking pieces okaY

Send “#” for a RANDOM text.       (  SENT! AT 2:04 P.M. ) : who does dracula get his letters from?       (  SENT! AT 2:31 A.M. ) : JUNGMIN       (  SENT! AT 2:32 A.M. ) : JUNGMINN

Send “@” for a SCARED text.       (  SENT! AT 6:58 A.M. ) : i walked away because you tell me not to do anything in public       (  SENT! AT 7:01 A.M. ) : i’m in an alleyway i was still angry i punched the wall now my knuckle is torn       (  SENT! AT 7:01 A.M. ) : soooo much blood omg

Send “&” for a LOVING text.       (  SENT! AT 6:58 A.M. ) : it’s cool how you’re so patient with me and       (  SENT! AT 7:01 A.M. ) : you don’t hurt me or whatever       (  SENT! AT 7:01 A.M. ) : you’re a good brother

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.       (  SENT! AT 6:58 A.M. ) : do you normally wear two scarfs? ??       (  SENT! AT 7:01 A.M. ) : why are you wearing two scarfs today?       (  SENT! AT 7:01 A.M. ) : it’s not even cold ?

Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text.       (  SENT! AT 6:50 P.M. ) : SHIITIT I TOLD YOU STAYING IN MYROOM FOR A WEEK STRAIGHT WAS GONAN PAY OFF FUCK YOU       (  SENT! AT 6:51 P.M. ) : I COMPLETEED THE GAME

Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.       (  SENT! AT 12:37 P.M. ) : i don’t think pimples are supposed to grow there though       (  SENT! AT 12:37 P.M. ) : OOP

Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.       (  SENT! AT 10:41 P.M. ) : HEY it’s okay if you idk       (  SENT! AT 10:42 P.M. ) : if you hit me sometimes since i deserve it      (  SENT! AT 10:42 P.M. ) : i think it’s better if you just slap me rather than telling me to calm down       (  SENT! AT 10:43 P.M. ) : at least then i’ll get punished too or something

[yeolkeot]

@carnalities

it begins a little muffled. in the beginning it was a concept.it sounds like if he, if he if he ifheifheifhe-------- dared. then it was cool and collected, he won’t, he won’t, he won’t hewont. he. they. it? kihyun hasn’t really identified them as a person yet. he’s living his life like a dream, light like an oracle and hard like a bull. yet here he is walking into the first storm he’s had in a while and trying to find the eye, trying to close his hand around itself and not fish for the lighter he knows is in his pocket. he’s trying to prove he can sit in the eye and let the wind rip him apart while he smiles. 

see the error is blaring now, it’s not muffled, it’s not suggestive, it’s not a nagging possibility that he can quiet and swallow. the error is red across his eyes and silver. it’s fucking silver. ITS HIM IT’S HIM IT’S HIM ITS H I M ITSITSITS WHAT----- IS-------- IT? ( it’s me it’s not me it’s them it’s someone ) the realization comes slow, like he can’t put it together. the first time kihyun saw them he touched himself and reached out hoping to touch glass. when he didn’t touch anything he wanted to throw up. he had to excuse himself from the gallery much to his mother’s chagrin. once is okay. once is gripping the sink and nodding. twice is gripping the wall and laughing.

three is a bit much.

now he’s walking. he’s moving around the gallery and observing and smiling as he should. an error should be a test, an error should be outwardly uncompromising. as silver blares across his vision demanding attention kihyun lets his duties guide his feet. he’s trying to prove he won’t crack but his finger touches something smooth in his pants pocket and warmth rises in his belly. mom said not to wear the dress pants with the pockets. his hands still. he remembers. he’s walking again.

“hey you,” his hands slip out his pocket, lighter left grazing fabric and red grazing across his vision. his words come out slow and unpracticed, low and unassuming. “get out.”  go say hi to everyone his mother had said. this counts right?