are you the big ant or are you the small one, stumbling, new yet familiar to life and a stranger to death, the scorching sun burning you as you search for your purpose, smaller than the crumbs of bread you carry back to home, the depths of the earth from which you crawled, to which you might never even find your way back. Are you the big ant, who managed to crawl back towards darkness and familiarity, back to the place it was nourished enough to one day feel the wind upon its exoskeleton, who drank sugar water with its peers and perhaps made a home under a leaf, fearful of the giant steps of a creature so tall you could not comprehend it's shape, could not comprehend life itself but understood death, knew when it was time to run, which was always, following in others footsteps in the hope of finding a way out once again, of finding a way back in. Are you the mother of such creations, perhaps? Do you stay buried under the soil, crowned by your achievements, both a prisoner and the guard, do you feel pride looking at what you've cultivated and do you fear what would become of you without it?
i am the small ant that abandons the colony because i do not respect the queen and her lack of efficiency i'd rather create my own colony, the BEST colony in which there is no queen there is no gender, only yaoi, and if you follow me you too can reach enlightenment. we are ethical we are sustainable we are demure we are mindful we are cutesy. i do not mind a solo journey but those who wish to follow are welcome. i will carve my own path unbound by antly needs and if i die easily in my feeble husk that was my destiny. i do not fear humans in fact i could care less just like i do not care about god they can do what they want and it will only be their loss.