#carpelife

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I love how c!dream apologists and sympathizers in general have one and the same problem - we are forced to follow each other and count on each other that everyone has different other fav, because it's almost impossible to follow any other apologists (used loosely) because they will, at some point, write or reblog the worst take about c!dream

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in this few last hours of 2021 I wanted to say big thank you to all of you for so so many reasons, I don't even know where to start! I posted my first drawing for mcyt in march so being an active member of the fandom feels still so fresh to me, I still want to call myself a new person around here but for so many people I became a permanent part of the group, it scares me sometimes :')

this probably is going to be a mess ashdashd

I want to thank people who were with me from the beginning, Lost especially, who probably is done at this point, I thanked her so many times for be there for me. she was a reason I felt brave enough to post my thoughts and ideas. she introduced me to so many people I can now call friends without being unsure

I want to thank dreblr that was create in front of my eyes and give space to so many people to express their love to our green bastard without a fear or annoyance to deal with antis. and I want to thank for so many content that was created for him, arts, and fics, and analyses, and jokes, and cursed posts and so so many moments that made me laugh or feel like I'm not alone in general negativity towards us

I want to thank dtblr for accepting me running around as long as I didn't feel intimidated by all of you and started making friends. there's so many people who are dear to me and so many people who I love seeing on my dash even if I don't interact that much. I really really appreciate you so much :') you guys make so many funny or interesting posts or beliefful art or gifs, it couldn't couldn't get any better :>

I want to thank so many people who followed this blog. I'm ending this year with breaking 1k followers and that's something I would never never expect to happen. so many follows made me scream or smile so wide and I'm so happy I can call you friends

I want thank you all for supporting my art so much. I'm happy with my drawings hitting 100 notes, that's always a goal, but whenever something breaks that 500 notes, I honestly can't believe that. and it happens with such a big part of my drawings. and I promise you, I'm going through tags so often, they make me smile so much, they help me so much, they truly make me so much motivated to create and share art

and while we are on this also thank you for making georgeeehd headcanon so popular because it still blows my mind how beloved the concept became :')

I want to thank dreamwastaken fanart account for following me on tweeter because what the fuck

there's also so many little reasons to be grateful for this year as well. every funny tag, every supportive ask, every mention on a follow list etc. etc. I love you all and thank you so much because I wouldn't be here without every single one of you

Here's a few special special mentions: @lostinmcyt (obv), @kiuda, @peppsta, @owlyspirit, @resonating-kitty, @elliotl, @foolishalex, @dreamhot, @redrosedream, @gogogy, @cryptodream, @comradedream, @dreamquackity, @judgehangman, @dreamsclock, @strandedcrow, @fxllingout, @melancholycatastrophe, @dweamblob, @cgnf, @mydreamxdgivenrights, @orkidays, @entropicmagpie, @gnfnetwork, @dreamslesbian, @simplepotatofarmer, @beloved-blue, @messy-gguki, @electracraft, @angeloncewas, @mesoa-mandoad, and @piracytheorist. you guys made me really really happy this year <3

(for many many reasons even if we don't interact that much. PLEASE don't feel bad if you're not here I meet so many amazing people this year it's almost impossible to name all of you and I'm sure that if you're part of any group I mentioned before I keep you close to my heart as well)

my anxiety likes to plan numbers on me and the last few weeks were tough for me, and I doubt myself and my place in the fandom many times recently but I'm excited for a new year and everything that it can brings. I want to talk to you more, and follow more people (I really need to go through my following list because I'm following almost 400 blogs and that number scares me so I stopped following people sadhhsda) and make new friends and I want to draw so so much more and share my ideas with you :) see you in a new year :) <3

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new pfp >:D

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what a set

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people in dsmp fandom really are like 'c!dream apologist are scary' and 'them thinking that c!dream is redeemable is not cool' while I am having anxiety attack while interacting with anyone outside 5 people I know I can trust because I don't want to have angry asks and pointless discussion because I dared to like him and the first thing while joining fandom was me learning that I'm the worst and I don't deserve any respect :)))

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I'm drawing c!dream as we speak

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If we get lore today I think it's a good moment to remind everyone that I think c!dream is very neat and he should be out of prison and allowed to heal <3

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I apologise for a person I become the moment lore starts tomorrow