there’s a note left behind. her pretty cursive scribbled a quick reminder to feed the three feral young cats she’s left for the week. the strays in question are perched at the end of his bed and Hungry : ) much love from felicia !
it's unfortunate how his mental has declined since he fell, a delicate fighter harden by metal and fists. he was not always this afraid, even as a young boy. there was unyielding resilience growing up on the streets of this city. it rotted his teeth, sitting on his molars, and he learned to live with the sting. he made out with stolen goods in his pockets and blades pressed against his throat. now, he violently shakes when his body pulls him from slumber. he's sheen and painted in cold sweat, his skin illuminated by silver streaks coming from the blinds. he sits upright with his palms flat against damp sheets, fingertips feeling numb and pooling with static—he feels not a thigh, nor the fabric of her nightwear, but fur and whiskers from a new friend. the scent of her hair doesn't linger between them, he cannot hear her breathing as there's not a live figure beside him. figures. maybe she reminds him of things. who he wants to be but can't, who he tries to be but fails. but it's not her fault, he can't make it her fault. and already he's imagining her soft touches, a comforting crooning, chin in the crook of his shoulder, nose pressed against the side of his neck. he hears a meow, and a hiss, and falters.
moon is bright; not quite day, but the in-between shift. only those awake are gravediggers and blue collar workers populating nearby highways. dread is creeping up, following the length of his forearms, slipping into every vein, remaining taunt on his nerves. he can feel his heart in his throat, his stomach in tight knots as he gains leverage on his safety. looking around, he finds the note, laid gentle on the nightstand, perched beneath his phone, a paperweight with the battery dead and the phone cord frayed. ❛ ... — ❜ jaw slack, he can't tell if there's annoyance or admiration stirring in him. ❛ god fucking dammit, felicia. ❜










