#cathy problems

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anywho hope i die soon

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in other news today has been absolutely terrible 😊

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crying in bed at 3AM thinking about how lonely i am and how I literally have -1 friends :')

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when u think someone's vague tweeting about u + homework stress + seeing brian messaging you and literally having a heart attack but it's actually another brian = recipe for a headache

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MY COSPLAY SENPAIS ARE TOOOO GOOD TO ME T_T

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1. What were you doing before this? i was at the usu watching roy, jaq, angela, devon, and brian play pool 2. Why did you join tumblr? friend introduced it to me before hs freshmen year so i decided to try it out 3. Do you believe in karma? hmm not really?  4. Anything you look forward to in 2016? summer?? HAHA i want to have break again..oh AX too.. 5. Do you believe its okay to have bitter feelings against someone? yes...?  6. How trusting are you? i’m pretty trusting actually... 7. Favorite thing on netflix right now? LOL i dont really go on netflix, i just watch animay  8. Pet peeve? WHEN PEOPLE MOVE MY STUFF 9. Spirit animal? panda....all they do is sleep and sleep and look cute... 10. Zodiac sign? leo 11. Do you have a salty personality? i’ve gotten saltier with time..

1.Do you believe in aliens? nah 2. What is your favorite food? PHO BRO!! 3. What is the most embarrassing thing you’ve done? in 3rd grade there was a talent show so naturally i signed up to sing beautiful soul by jesse mccartney. my young vocal cords could not handle the part where he held out “soul” at the end so my voice always cracked at that part. a few of my classmates went to the show and they made fun of me the next day... 4. What is your hidden talent? i have no talent sry 5. What is your favorite thing about yourself? my hair? 6. If you could go anywhere where would it be? tokyo!! 7. Who is your favorite disney character? i really like belle.. 8. What is your dream job? photographer 9. New years resolution? try to be more outgoing so i can have tons of friends... ; - ; 10. Do you have an irrational fear? umm i cant really think of one now...idk my parents disowning me...friends leaving me...idk LOL 11. Is tomato a fruit or vegetable? technically a fruit but yo would u put a tomato on a cake and eat it. would u. 

@thefreshbitch @alpacalypsso

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I went out to eat with cosplay friends that I met through Twitter and holy shit...I was only with them for 4 hours but it was exhausting......

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ski trip

on the first night of ski trip the girls and guys were separated and we each had to do “initiation”. they gave us different activities to do involving alcohol. the guys had to strip down to their boxers and do it in the snow RIP guys. i honestly tried my best not to drink that much but all the activities combined made me drink a lot……..plus most of them were team based so i felt guilty if i only drank a little 

1. had to finish a can of beer in 3 minutes otherwise you had to take a shot (i couldn’t do it)

2. do wall sits with each others backs and held that position until we finished a container of soju 

3. had to hold the plank position until everyone took a turn drinking their cup of soju and if you fell out of it you had to drink more (i dug my fingernails into my hands to make sure that i didnt fall out of it and theres still marks………..)

4. got into groups of 4 or 5 and we had to finish a cup filled with random alcohol and food bits

all of this made me pretty drunk for the first time but i remembered everything albeit a bit fuzzy so heres what i did on the first night

started crying about not wanting to drink anymore 

yelled oh my god i hate my life/fuck my life every 20 minutes 

yelled fuck or shit every 5 minutes 

cried about my parents thinking im a disappoint bc I was drinking and saying that they love my brother better (roy and devon kept trying to calm me down and roy wiped my tears away HAHA sorry roy…)

went around giving people hugs and telling them I love them

one of them escalated into kissing kazuki??? and we slept for a bit on the stairs 

kazuki peed on the stairs

took horrible selfies 

escalated into brian kissing me….i have a fcking video omfg 

went around screaming people’s name to see if they were okay

heard that kazuki was vomiting blood and i freaked out 

told people I liked yaoi

kept telling andrew not to drink

told people not to smoke bc it was bad for them

cried about losing my phone and made jaq find it

i’m honestly the worst type of drunk, i cry, i get loud, and i get really affectionate with people LOL as yahya calls it i’m an emotional drunk and jimmy told me he likes me better this way HAHAHA 

i couldnt sleep that night probably bc i was trying to sleep on a chair and alvin kept throwing up in the sink (bro….he was throwing up from 1am-7am and just hearing him made me want to throw up) 

the next day we totally lazed around after cleaning the house of puke and watched 6 episodes of amercian horror story omfg as the last part of initiation we had to finish this vile pot of alcohol and food bits but this one was way worse than the one from yesterday. it honestly smelled like vomit?? there was tomato sauce, hot cheetos, sausage, spinach, tangerine, scrambled eggs holy shit 

almost everyone including me drank significantly less so nothing really interesting happened that day besides drunk karaoke?? HAHA that was super fun i can understand why people like it hmmm there was some fight between the cheongdae but i didnt pay attention 

idk…it was my first time getting drunk so i just wanted to write about it…yeah i think i can only drink with KASA people LOL. my reasoning was that i trust everyone there (which i totally do) but i get uncomfortable at the thought of drinking with other friends? so yeah idk whats with that HAHA