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Our Buddy in amongst the woodchip at Pulse Point Oils this morning and looking very chilled. #catknapping #catchillin #purrfectfelines #purrfect #makingmybed #bedreserved #adayofrest #40winks #waitingforthesun #instapets #woodchip #instacats #greycat @pulsepointoils #naturalinfusions #naturalskincare are @hdrinfusions #relaxingdayahead #buddy

[familiaralien]

catknapping replied to your post: Sorry to already get into a serious talk today but...

i had to walk away from an exfriend because they were being extremely abusive towards me and several of my friends and it lead to like 2 years of harassment and whiteknighting and victim-blaming so I’d exercise caution with people who are unsafe.

Yuck D:<. Yeah sadly this happens a lot more than it should. Some people are such spoiled little entitled snots they become complete monsters the second they don’t get their way in a relationship.

Like I have had plenty of people walk away from me over the years for my behaviour (some of which was valid and just... others was me being a fucking dick). This is a completely normal part of life. I have no idea where this “you need to be 100% tolerant of everything ever a person says or does uwu” came from because its not from a healthy understanding of the human species.

[familiaralien]

catknapping replied to your post: One of the weirdest phenomena I see (which I will...

people do this to me as a real flesh-and-blood person and they do it to my NB characters and i really really fucking hate it :/

I will beat these people with a rubber chicken!

Jokes aside yeah its very frustrated 8/.

[familiaralien]

catknapping replied to your post:Like just you wait someone is going to take...

don’t worry about it G b: but they are different actresses. I don’t know who any of them are though.

;-; oh no. But yeah thanks for confirming they are different people, not sure what shows they’re form. I don’t actually watch sitcoms (I’m more into cartoons and educational shows because I am a giant shitty nerd).

[familiaralien]

catknapping replied to your post:Long reply so I’ll put it under a cut!

i have severe fatigue problems too, i’m already ‘borderline’ for hyperthyroidism and need to go for another blood test 3 months from now but the constant exhaustion and drainedness is controlling my life right now so i feel you there :<

;-; Yeah, I need to get blood work done soon as well, I could have got it today but my nerves are so bad I was going into an anxiety related episode at my doctor’s office. The nurse kinda suggested I just go directly to the hospital when I’m feeling a little less poop.

[familiaralien]

Long reply so I’ll put it under a cut!

catknapping replied to your post:Ah such a lovely morning I get up: I start crying...

i know that feel, g. hang in there man D: -hug- -also shoos the spider-

D: I don’t even know where the spider went either I hope it goes away forever. Hopefully I will be ok, my doctor appointment does relate to my bad memory+ chronic fatigue so hopefully I can get both examined and something done about it or at least get it diagnose so i can convey to people I’m not tired and forgetful in a healthy manner.

Like the reason I was crying earlier is remembering the fact that when I was trying to add my brother to facebook and wasn’t sure I was on the right page because I literally could not recognize his face. 

Now for context my brother isn’t like a half sibling I saw once in a blue moon growing up. This is a person I saw every single day pretty much for the first 18 years of my life and at least once a week for years after that. Its only in the last couple of years I haven’t seen him much and that’s all it took for me to forget what my own fucking sibling looks like. For most people that probably isn’t that heartbreaking to hear but for me it fills me with such an intense guilt because this isn’t suppose to happen. I can accept my face blindness making me forget just about everything else but my mom or brother are the two people I care about most in the world so forgetting either one just... destroys me.

I’ve had memory issues since I was a kid in various areas but since people don’t understand this I end up disappointing them a lot and its been tearing me apart for a very long time. I already have problems with isolating myself because I have anger issues/trauma/mobility problems/fatigue. I certainly don’t need a 5th issue that makes leaving the house stressful! Fucking goodness sakes its pathetic how much of a mess I am and there’s dick fucking shit I can do about it. More I try to “man up” and pretend the issues aren’t there more depressed I become because reality just keeps punching me in the face. 

I mean its gotten bad enough when I know something has to be done the next day I don’t sleep because I can’t be trusted to remember what I have to do when I get up the next day. What kind of life is that to live? I just want to function like a normal adult holy shit.