Jan 3, 2023
I find this hard to fully articulate. The cognitive behavioral therapy I've been getting for this past year. Has done wonders for my thought patterns and feelings. To the point I'm generally to open to be around sometimes. I cry in public. I sing and dance in public. Head empty. No thoughts. Only joy shit.
Those wall have been removed and replaced with new structures of cognitive thought.
The worst part is that I know to stay alive in America and to interact with others people around me. That are not in the position or mood be around someone like that. I will have to return that ugly fucking cracked wall. Rebuilding that persona just for the sake of "persevered normalized behavior" 😤
