Around two years ago, due to some changing interests, I revamped my following feed more towards a cluster of longposters (whom I actually found through rat-adj-adj-adj circles. You may judge for yourself whether you are part of this cluster). And now several of these folks are mutuals and/or friends, and I like to think I've left enough clues/rent-lowering gunshots lying around...but for this post I must confess it fully. I am a man afflicted with Fandom Brain,* and today it is flaring.
(*By my definition: my primary hobby is Stories, and my primary interest in fiction is characters and their small-r relationships. Being aro means I'm like 50% less ship-obsessed, but. That still leaves the other fifty percent.)
Which is all preamble to say that I'm experiencing what I'm calling "unreasonable lust" for a Television Character and it's progressed to the point that I've designed an OC (for perhaps the first time in a decade) whom I've referred to as "character designed specifically to fuck [that guy]," as if that makes it any less embarrassing.
Anyway. Head in my goddamn hands. Look at my moodboard boy