I usually don't bring this kinda stuff to my page but my friends make me feel like a dick and idk if its cuz im actually a dick or if their just assholes, this is gonna be long cuz I just wanna get all the facts right but bare with me and please tell me if im crazy or not.
I am a very low maintenance friend, I don't need much or more specifically I don't need to hang out 24/7 but my friends do for whatever reason.
This has been known to them since we became friends, they have always known this.
I am HUGE on my alone time it doesn't matter how much I love or care for somebody I will always perfer to be alone, It's nothing personal I just.. Love being alone.
I don't ask to hang out often and I don't really think there's a problem with that because its not like I leave them high and dry, I have many other ways of showing affection for my friends other than just being in each others presence.
I like buying them things, I keep them in the loop, I tell them almost everything about myself, I guess I would say I show like idk all kinds of love languages the only one I lack is just being in each others company.
So its not like I just don't make it known I care for them, I do.
but they always ask to hang out like every single day and its kinda tiring
and when I told them this and reminded them that I really don't like to hang out a lot especially because I don't have a lot of free time they just throw it back in my face with
"Imagine how tiring it is to ask all the time."
which I understand, I've been there before too, but like.. if its tiring.. don't do it...
Sometimes I feel like they don't care about me either because it's like everything I say goes in one ear and out the other, like for example.
a couple weeks ago I had a AWFUL day at work, it was soooooo bad, for context I work in a retirement home as a waitress, and we had 2 servers call out that day so I had 9 tables of 4 people to juggle on my own which I am not used it, on a normal day with a full team I only have 4 tables to put it into perspective.
Like I said earlier I keep my friends in the loop, so as shitty things kept happening I would update them and stuff we all do it, im not the only one who does like real time updates.
and they asked to hang out, considering I had a awful day I wanted nothing more than to go home and flop in bed, right? You'd think they'd understand right?
they started this big argument with me about how they feel like I don't care about them because I don't have out with them as often as they like, and mind you IM STILL AT WORK.
I got so mad I was asking my coworkers for their opinions and they all agreed that they were being dicks but they were still being so disrespectful that I deadass gave my phone to my coworker and told him not to give it back to me until the end of my shift.
like it was just so bad and today im just so sick of it, I feel like a heavy resentment towards them at this point.
today, I literally JUST set a alarm to take a nap because I didnt sleep at all last night and I felt like shit, I finally felt tired enough to fall asleep for a bit and of course I get that text.
Here is the conversation word for word, but for this one its just one of my friends idk what the other was up to.
Purple is him Pink is me.
Im bored of swimming plus I didnt sleep at all last night and feel like shit
I don't feel like doing anything today
How are you bored of swimming
Because its all we do lately
When was the last time we went swimming...
What else are we gonna do
And all we do is play video games too
We haven't hung out as much recently but whenever we have we've ended up swimming so idk im just tired of it plus I've been in my own pool too
*response to the video game comment* Yeah but video games you can switch it up however we want so its diff idk
I get compromise but I feel like shit
Leave me alone I was just act to nap too and now you got me riled up
and then he sent the salute emoji but I'm typing this on my laptop and I don't wanna jump through hoops to get it and yeah..
there's alittle more to this but this is just what I feel like are key points.
I see their side, they enjoy spending time with me and I enjoy spending time with them too of course their my best friends, but also compromise is about both parties... not just one?
Idk how we'd even compromise for this cuz I just wanna be alone but either way they seriously seem like they don't really care how I feel sometimes.
I care about how they feel, and times when I can't give them what they want or need I try to tell them nicely but idk sometimes I seriously just wanna tell them to fuck off cuz wtf...
they've known this about me forever and yet they keep pushing and treating me like the dick for setting my boundaries.
its even more annoying cuz their dating and they are always taking each others sides.
not to mention they are NEVER away from each other?
this might sound hyprocritical but they always act like im some kind of creature because I prefer to be alone which pisses me off too but what can I do.
but like they are ALWAYS together there's never a moment where they aren't.
the only reason I ended up being friends with the guy in situation is because they are never apart and there's been countless times I wanted some alone time with my friend but couldn't because he was there, and he gets so pouty when we leave him out too even if its not a big deal like yk having a girls day
going clothes shopping and stuff like idk.....
