#ceerainrambles

[collyflowerz]

And I don't talk shit about you on the internet Never told anyone anything bad 'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything And all that you did was make me fucking sad

[collyflowerz]

now that i have arrived home from my Disneyland adventure. I'm now getting withdrawals. lovely

[collyflowerz]

Didnt know there was a green apple bookstore at the sfo airport! Loved walking through the aisles.

[collyflowerz]

Costochondritis has been hitting me super hard against my ribs and sternum. Whenever I'm experiencing a flare, I just want to claw into my skin and pull my ribs apart. This intense burning, stabbing sensation can be so unbearable. I can't breathe. I can't think. I can't speak. Just suffering in silence.

I hate it here.

[collyflowerz]

Took a really cute mirror full body selfie yesterday. Body dysmorphia really been hitting me hard though so being able to really admire and appreciate the curves was nice. Even for a little bit.

[collyflowerz]

Seeing my aunt lie in that hospital bed covered in tubes is an image that will forever be engraved in my mind. My entire body is frozen in fear, like a deer in headlights. Spent the last 4 hours pleading for a miracle.

The noises in my head are getting louder, and I want it all to stop. She needs to wake up. I can't lose her too.

[collyflowerz]

to my friends that know me as cbocstar - i changed my username to an old username i have on tumblr as undividedtiramisu ...i will just make a separate art account for myself. so pls dont forget me...and if you do. thats okay too. hopefully we will meet again.

[collyflowerz]

just spent alllllll daaaay creating my oc Zoe's bio page on toyhouse.

younger Me that would roleplay in barton towns forums on gaiaonline would be so so so so so so proud of me. LOL