be careful what you wish for (i just might get it)
Only two more years of this. Two more reapings and Cosima would never have to worry about her chances of being picked for the games again.
She stood next to Molly near the front of the crowd as her mother and Tahlia watched from the back. They would all meet afterward by the clock tower and head back to the apartment to eat lunch. The reaping was a holiday, meaning that there was no work or school to be had. For the longest time Cosima had looked forward to the day, but not since she turned eighteen. That was the year their lunch turned into a celebration that it hadn’t been her name called, but some other unlucky person’s.
She felt as if she had been standing in the crowd much longer than she had been when the Capitol woman who had been presenting the tributes for the past decade stepped onstage. The introductions always went on too long in Cosima’s opinion. She wanted the names to be called and for it all to be over with. She would only have one more reaping after this, and she could handle one more reaping. “It’s not either of us,” she whispered to her cousin. As a slip of paper was pulled from the glass bowl, she tucked a long strand of hair behind her ear.
“Cosima Silamide.”
Cosima stood still for a moment as she tried to decide if that really was her name. Perhaps she misheard, or perhaps she wasn’t even remembering her own name correctly. She looked over at Molly who hesitantly stepped away as if Cosima were suddenly contagious and knew that she hadn’t misheard. Smoothing out her white linen dress, she made her way to the stage, conscious of each step she took. A cameraman quickly came up beside as she got closer. She didn’t know how she had to ability to do so, but she smiled and waved into the lens.
Once she was onstage, Cosima couldn’t hear any of the words being said beside her. Her racing thoughts and the ringing in her ears were too loud, and she was focused on the screen streaming her image. She rubbed her thumb against the outside of her thigh, watching the image mirror the movement. She then subtly pushed back her shoulders and gently held her hands together in front of her, standing up just a little straighter. The girl on the screen looked so much more put together than Cosima felt, and that strangely made her feel calmer. It would be fine, she thought. She could make this work. It was an adventurous thought, but she had always wondered what it would be like to be a victor. She had said for years she wished that she could live in the Capitol, and perhaps this was her ticket in. Did she will this into existence? She only had to beat out twenty-three, or maybe twenty-two tributes. That didn’t sound like that many, but maybe that was the adrenaline talking.
Cosima finally peeled her eyes from the screen to realize she had missed the boy’s name. She scanned the crowd to find where space was made for the other tribute to walk through. He was just getting up from a kneeling position, saying something to the little boy beside him. It wasn’t until he was nearly to the stage that she recognized him- Jae… Something. He was a few grades below her back in school, about Molly’s age. As he stepped up onto the stage she looked him over. Had he always been so tall? Did she ever notice that? Did she ever notice anything about him? She reached over and shook his hand, as was customary at the reaping. Before the pair were led into the town hall, Cosima turned back to the district, smiled, and waved goodbye, watching herself on the screen as she did.
















