“i really don’t want to lose you.” // “i’m begging you, don’t do this.” // “it’s not you, it’s me.” // “i really wish you well.” // “can’t we still be friends?”
“i really don’t want to lose you.”
Gracen shook her head and ran a roughhand through her hair. She couldn't hold back the scoff that escaped her lips.He didn't want to lose her? It was hard for her to believe that when he seemedoh so determined to stay with his bitch of a wife. She knew of course that thereason he stayed was for his boys and she knew she couldn't fault him for thatbut she no longer wanted to be his side girl, not now that she was pregnantwith his child. "Dom, I won’t do this anymore. I can't work here and seeyou with your wife and your kids knowing I've got your baby inside me."She placed her hand on her stomach without much thought to it and looked up athim. "I'll keep in contact because of the baby but I can't do this withyou anymore and I won't make you choose between me and your boys. So I'mgoing."
“i’m begging you, don’t do this.”
The more she spoke to him the more hefumed. He didn't understand why this was coming as such a shock to her. Theyhad been trying to stop seeing each other practically since they had startedseeing each other. Remi just couldn't do this anymore though, couldn't have herleaving him in his bed alone at night to go back to her boyfriend, the constantjealously of wondering what she was doing with him. He couldn't stand itanymore and he was done. Done with her. Done with all of the bullshit. Seeingher out with her boyfriend wasn't something he ever saw, and having seen themout together the day before had been a huge reality check for him. It was as ifsomething in him had finally clicked and he didn't want to do this anymore."Vivian, please just stop okay? I don't want to do this anymore. I can'thandle it. So you have a choice. Me or him."
“it’s notyou, it’s me.”
Oh he did not just say that. It was themost cliché break up saying and she hated it with a passion. Bronwyn knew thereason he was telling her goodbye, or at least could guess part of the reason,and she wanted to hear him say it, not give her some overused phrase. He wantedto protect her, she knew that, but she didn’t see how letting her go would achievethat goal. Lee was toughest most powerful man she had ever met and she knew shewas safer with him than without him. “Oh, don’t give me that crap. What’s goingon? Please don’t do this. . .” She said, her voice cracking as she said it. Itwasn’t until she really let it sink in that he was letting her go that shecould feel her heart starting to break. She had known for a while now how muchhe meant to her, but being presented with the prospect of losing him justcemented those feelings. And as she looked at him, watching the way his eyesavoided her own, it brought on a wave of emotions she hadn’t felt in a verylong time.
“i really wish you well.”
How did she never see it? Now that sheknew, it was like everything made so much sense now. It was so obvious now thatthere had been so much sneaking around between the two of them, something shehadn't seen at the time because of how much trust she had in her girlfriend.But now it seemed as if she really didn't know Audrey at all, and wasn't sureif she couldn't even trust her. I mean how could she when they worked foropposing organizations? They had been ordered to kill each other and thoughthey had fought, neither of them had been willing to go through with theirorders. Not that Ronan had wanted to anyways, she loved the girl too much forthat, but now she just wasn't sure things could be the same between themanymore. "Don't try to dismiss me. We're going to talk more aboutthis." She told her, not wanting to walk away yet.
“can’t we still be friends?”
Maeana had to fight the urge of bringingMaddie into her arms and hold her close, to console her and tell her that ofcourse they could be friends. That wasn't something she could do though. Herlifestyle wasn't something she wanted Maddison involved in and as her feelingsbecame stronger for the other girl she knew it was time to let her go. Thisworld of sex, money, and drugs was not one for the sweet girl in front of her.Not to mention the fact that Maea couldn't stop thinking about the fact thatshe just wasn't good enough, not for her, not for anyone. And Maddison deservedthe world. It was something that Maeana was certain of and she was also certainthat she couldn't give it to her. It took everything she had to hold back thetears and keep her voice from wavering. "I'm sorry . . . but I just can't.I can't be just friends with you, Maddie. This is the way it has to be,okay?" Through all her efforts her voice broke slightly and she had toturn her head away.