even though i knew what was coming, that he was going to regenerate, it was still so jarring seeing it happen. and the emotions that came with that scene. we just watched ten say good-bye to all his old friends and companions --he even got to see rose! and then the oods' song guides him back to his tardis and he has tears in his eyes and says he doesn't want to go but then it happens. and it was just...hard.
it wasn't this difficult when nine turned into ten because we only had nine for one series. i love ten so much. i know i'll grow to love eleven really quickly too but i'm afraid the little qualities that made me love ten won't be there with eleven. i need a moment, i think, before i start series 5. i'm going to go make pancakes and process.