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Final Showcase, August 20, at Game Play Space, Montreal.
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So, umm, I think I'm losing my mind. I've been hearing things—voices, to be exact—that no one else does and I'm becoming really paranoid and I had a blackout period yesterday where I lost 3-4 hours. And I've also been lying to people more lately, for no reason. I don't really even feel an urge to do it, it just comes out automatically as if its the truth. I never feel bad about the things I say, either. I really am terrified that I'm going to go crazy. –CH2016
Hello lovely,
I'm sorry that you're going through this. Hallucinations and blackouts are very scary to experience, especially at first. I think that it would be a really good idea to see your doctor and speak to them about this, as well as the lying. They'll be able to refer you on to a psychiatrist, who looks further into mental health issues to find diagnoses and/or medications that may help to alleviate symptoms such as hallucinations. I think it would be a really good first step in managing what you're going through. They may also suggest seeing a psychologist to find out the reason behind the lying, and finding ways to challenge it. So do see your doctor so that you can get that help started.
With the hallucinations, or when you feel like anything abnormal is coming on, like dissociation, I recommend trying out some Grounding Techniques. Grounding is a term for attaching yourself to your body and reality, the world around you. These can be really helpful in gaining back control over the situation, and helping you to cope.
As for the lying, we did a Topic of the Week on compulsive lying in the past, which you can find here: Compulsive Lying. It may offer some ways to help you cope with the lying, or find some resources to give you further support. Although it’s a little different to pathological lying, this article on Understanding Pathological Liars has some good tips down the bottom that may help you. Keep in mind that I am not a doctor, and cannot say that you are experiencing pathological lying or compulsive lying, but the tips may help you.
You're not crazy, lovely, just experiencing some difficulties at the moment. Do see your doctor, and they can start to get you some help on board.
Take care,Alexandria.