✉ // a. ➝ @chainsmcker .
30 are they holding on to something in the past ? can she forgive ?
well… holding onto might be a strong word, but unable to completely let go of ; using it as some sort of driving force, yeah. there are things in the past not easily forgotten, and never ever forgiven. jackson did ruin her body, he ruined her future, he took everything from her, and that’s not something she can ever forgive. this is why she don’t feel any particular guilt of murdering him. ( it was a murder, but not a crime ). that put aside her forgiveness is hard earned, and the blonde is known to hold a grudge. but she is fully able to forgive and will do so if she feel it right.
34 does your character feel self-righteous ? revengeful ? contemptuous ?
no, not particularly. the supernaturals she hunts have killed and that’s why she’s hunting them in the first place. there are a whole lot of non-humans that’s she’s met over the years that has been allowed to live on, simply because they have never murdered. and she’s left them with warning that should they fall off the proverbial wagon, she will hunt them down and kill them without even breaking a sweat. other than that she knows perfectly well that she’s morally questionable, and won’t ever deny that particular fact. revengeful on the other hand.. as stated earlier blondie is known to hold a grudge, and not forgive easily. but vengeful only in the eye for an eye way. she’s not the kind to spread rumors or other ways of “bitching” ; either she harms you physically, or there is no retaliation tbh. contemptuous ? yeah, she can be.
36 do they like to suffer ? like to see other people suffering ?
no, she doesn’t like to suffer. she believes she deserves it, for failing to save leanne. for letting her baby sister go through most of the same hell she went through. for not being able to put an end to it. for being too weak to stand up to him …. all of that makes her deserving of any kind of suffering she experiences, from loss to loneliness, to extreme hunger and sleep depravity. well, that would honestly depend on who the other person is ?? like, was it jackson ? yes ! she would love to see him suffer ! and inflict the pain too ! any of the “bad” foster parents ? yes ! foster brothers and sisters ? nah, that was usually solved in a quick fight. supernatural scum ? mostly, yes. everyday people ? no, not really. but she doesn’t care enough to help out unless she knows them.
