#chanelamber

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Saddle up partner.

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Don’t judge & don’t jump to conclusions (this is not a sudden outspoken falling in love, but merely a respect for the way my life has been bettered & for how I love on a deeper level). This came from my thoughts during the early hours of this morning as I was trying to fall asleep, they were originally two separate thoughts but they were bound together, I just happened to write them down because I don’t want to forget how grateful I am for those in my life. __________________ Lately I’ve been in my head thinking about what I’m missing: physically, mentally, emotionally…something is missing. Do I need someone to love? Do I need something that’s more than that? Do I need something more simple? Right now I feel like I’m missing something and I don’t know what it is. I love 🌸🌸🌸 with all my heart because he is the one person who probably knows me best (outside of my family) and he loves me anyway. He knows me, he understands me, and he still embraces all that I am. He trusts me, takes care of me, is always there for me. He’s one of the greatest people I’ve had the pleasure of knowing and he is my best friend. We’re fucked up and a little crazy, but we get each other. It’s not a romantic, I need to be physical with you kind of thing; it’s more than that, it’s a connection that is more intimate than intimacy because we are connected in a way that delves into something where we don’t have to touch or hold it, we just let it be and trust that it’s there. He knows me, flaws and all. Glasses and all. No makeup and all. Mistakes and all. He loves me anyway. That means the world to me. (INSERT SUPER PERSONAL THINGS I DON’T WANT ONLINE). She has too much respect and love for him. For a girl who knows it’s hard for people to trust her sometimes because of her past, it’s impossible to express how deeply touched she is. And how she knows she can never repay him for that feeling of true, raw, confidence and belief in her. That is love. He looks out for her, he believes in her, he knows her probably better than she knows herself - he sees greatness in her. He sees strength, and intelligence. He doesn’t consider her what most people probably would on the surface. He sees past her covers and her defenses; he sees deeper. He sees that she is smart, capable of all things; he knows she is capable of greatness. Or hell, at least he makes her feel like she is! And that’s all that really matters. Unconditionally.

Chanel M.

(If you repost plz don’t remove the original, this is my thoughts & writing, plz have respect).

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Inspiration exploring the streets of San Francisco🌞✌️Be inspired. www.commeofcouture.com

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my bedroom :)

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A Peek Into My Mind

every word

every silence

is like a  

dagger,

puncturing  

my heart

and destroying my

soul