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Sunday, November 24th

I, just like everyone else, want many things.

I want to write more. I want to paint and draw more. I want to get better at art. I want to learn how to play guitar. One day, I want to be able to sing without sounding like a whale, although I know that day will never come.

Right now, I most of all want to want to be more healthy.

In our society there’s a constant pressure to always preform, to be on top. In school, at work, but most of all to look good. Be skinny, be trendy, wear nice clothes, have nice things.

This desire to change is not stemmed from that. At least not consciously. I’d be dumb to think that I wasn’t affected by this, but I sincerely can say that I don’t think that I want to do this change because of that. I want to do it for me.

I used to have a six pack when I was a kid, because of gymnastics. From the ages 13 to 18 I worked out 4-5 times a week. Then when I started working after graduated and then later moved into university studies, I lost most of my structured lifestyle, motivation, self discipline. Now I work out maybe one time a week.

I feel disgusting. I feel not pretty, even though I’ve never felt very pretty. I’ll eat something unhealthy, and then I’ll feel guilty so I can’t ever fully enjoy it.

It’s mostly in my head. They say exercising improves mental health. I’ve always worked out so I’ve never noticed the benefits. I think I do now.

So living a healthy lifestyle improves your mental health. Exercise extends makes you live longer, and live healthier as you do. This should be enough motivation.

It is enough motivation, in theory. I agree. It’s just hard to get started.

But I want to make this change now. Enough is enough. I’m tired of this. I don’t feel like myself, and I can feel myself slipping into a lifestyle that isn’t good for my physical nor mental health. I need to do this for myself.

Right now, I sit inside and study all day. I don’t eat healthily. With my spare time I watch Netflix. I party and I hang out with friends.

I don’t want to stop having fun. But this is what I want to change:

I want to start thinking exercising is fun again. I want to make it a habit. I want to stop eating all of this unhealthy stuff.

My goals are to start working out three times a week. It doesn’t have to be hour long workouts every time. Going for a walk is enough, some days. I’m going to stop eating ice cream every weekend, pizza, fries, chips.

I’m going to prepare food to take with me too uni. I’m going to stop to buy candy when I’m out. I’m going to drink alcohol less often and in less quantities. I don’t want food to be the only thing that is a treat.

I want to lose weight. I’m not going to weigh myself now. I know it’ll crush my confidence and I’ll give up. First I need to establish these habits. I want to feel lighter when I run. More powerful at the gym.

I want to feel better about myself. That won’t happen by losing weight so I look skinnier. I’m going to feel better because I’m healthier in my mind and body. Then I’ll be more confident.

This is what I can do for myself. The biggest gift from me to me. I’m going to start doing this until December 18, which is my 20th birthday. They say it takes 2 weeks for a habit to form. It’s about three weeks to the 18th of December.

Then I’ll form new goals.

Tomorrow I’ll start.

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Decisions.

I'm just going to be super impulsive and dye my hair blonde.... Why not.

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