Changing the Norm
My personal goal is to change the norms of my life that don’t encourage personal, professional, and spiritual growth. I’ve been here so many times in my life, I’ve been challenged and I’ve pushed myself to become better. What I see though looking back is that I lose my way, i lose my motivation, I become content, I become happy and stop trying to get better each day.
It affects my ability to love and be loved, it affects my ability to save and plan for the future, my ability to keep challenging myself. I have that personality where I am UP one minute and DOWN the next. The way i think and act during these wild mood swings is what I’ve been trying to focus on lately. I posted about it earlier where I can feel the mood swings coming and I know I need to be careful to be calm during the UP’s and not over-commit then become extra focused during the DOWN’s so I don’t beat myself (or others) up too bad.
Changing the norm on how I treat my children is big on my list lately. My mostly angry and confused child that likes to lash out at the world has realized that I’m trying to be a better daddy. I realize that he wants Love and Organization and a Home life above all else. When he is given these regularly throughout the day the stressful and confused moments have been brighter and easier to manage. I’ve seen him listen to my comments on love and prayer and his reaction has been heart warming. In the heat of a melt down he retreated to his room quietly and when I walk back there to talk to him through the door he told me “leave me alone I’m talking to God”. When he came back out his eyes were full of happiness...
Today will be a good day...
Today I will focus on the good at work and share what I think is bad with one last hope for change...