#changing the thought process

[fallingslowlyinthefall]

Change is literally in the air.

The universe is telling me something.

I recently turned 22.

It really got me re-evaluating my personal growth and inner development. I realized there hasn’t been much change in that area and, as a result, some really deep old emotions and situations case floating back to the surface.

I’ve been thinking about change and how I can actively help myself heal and make peace or whatever with the past self. I have found myself thinking about this a lot lately. AND then. my Spotify starting playing these songs with lyrics about the past and change. AND then my class instructor assigned us to read and write about a book about-changing negative thought process, how to will yourself to change, and coping strategies for past emotional trauma.

I had to step back a minute. Does that sound like a coincidence? Or does it sound like the universe is telling me I need to make some substantial tweaks to my inner mind.

Growth is necessary and though the world around me has evolved I must ask myself, how much inner growth have I actually done? Any?

[theirtexting-and-murder]

Here have some word vomit

I will be happy again. This is temporary and will not last forever. I am cracked not broken. I will recover from this. She will be ok too. She will stand again. I did the right thing. For both of us. In the long run this is how it needs to be. I have fallen but I will not stay down. I will get up and dust myself off and keep moving forward. This is not the end of the story, just the end of the chapter.