Hi, if anyone is army from Central FL, i’m trying to get members in a discord server i just made. i want to be able to make friends within the community and i want that for other armys too! My idea is to be able to chat, plan meetups, learn korean, discuss hobbies, etc. Please let me know if you want to join!
Paris day 1 Yoongi. This man has us thirsting when we see his biceps. I feel like Army with Yoongi as their bias are like Victorian men freaking out at the sight of an ankle or arm. It’s me. I’m the Yoongi bias thirsting over his arms and seeing his back muscles every time he stretches
Now one of my favorite music videos. Very artistic and love the meaning behind the song. You can tell they have been through a lot to get where they are now and they 100% show this through their music. I hate that they have to consider so much shit normal but I love the song 💜
Synopsis: Y/N had known Kim Seokjin for years. Goofy, loveable, Jin. She'd started as an assistant and worked her way up as a manager, until they crossed a line. One that would change her life forever. She cut off contact, left her position, and disappeared. Nearly five years later Jin receives a message. A simple picture. But it turns his world upside down as he realizes why the woman he'd loved disappeared. All to protect him from scandal.
Watching the guys on stage again, it felt like coming home. When Jin was featured on the large screens I looked down at Jinae, her eyes wide in awe. Despite having only met him, she was already completely enamoured by her father. I wasn’t sure if this was the move, but I also realized that for Jin to be in her life, she was going to be exposed to this. I looked up to see that Nari was watching us. She smiled before turning her attention back to the stage.
By the end of the concert Jinae was fighting hard to stay awake. I had considered leaving earlier, but she’d gotten upset. While I wasn’t normally one to give in, tonight felt special so I had. As the guys sat on the rotating stage, each of them giving their ments I sat with Jinae in my lap. When it got to Jin, I looked up watching him on the screen. I could see the emotion in his eyes as he spoke, realizing that his ment wasn’t just about the city or the fans. Veiled was his gratitude that the city had brought something bigger to him, this stop would forever be special to him. To anyone else, it was a typical ment, but to me… I knew what he was referring to. I kissed the top of my daughter’s head. I managed to hold it together until they started to play the last song. That was when I felt the tears start to silently fall. It had been an emotional few days and it felt like it was all coming crashing in on me like a big wave.
We went back to the green room, I knew the guys would already be clearing out. I may not have been part of this for the past five years, but I was all too familiar with how it all worked. Carrying Jinae, she fell asleep as soon as her head hit my shoulder. Hana left straight away, Nari said she was meeting up with Mina. I must have looked confused.
“She’s a friend of Jungkook’s.” It was a vague enough explanation but her tone said enough. I took it that nothing official was going on between them, but the others suspected it.
“Y/N-ah.” I turned to see Jin coming in. He had a bag over his shoulder and still had that post-concert glow.
“What are you still doing here? You should have already left.”
He smirked, “One day backstage and already falling into old habits?” He teased. “I’m going to ride back with you.” Jin walked over and held out his arms.
I realized he was offering to take Jinae from me. I hesitated for a moment, only because one of those damn what-ifs crossed my mind. It was quickly pushed aside as I adjusted to let him take her. Jinae stirred a little mumbling something incoherent, but settled in his arms. Again with how natural he looked holding her, how right it seemed, I felt my chest tighten. The regret I felt at having hidden her from him for so long was deep.
“Did you like the show?” He asked.
“I did, it’s good to see you guys all back together again.” I nodded, “You guys looked good out there.”
Two members of security walked out with us. Once Jinae was buckled in, Jin came around to sit with us in the back. With the tinted windows, no one would be any the wiser to who was in that vehicle.
It shouldn’t feel so easy. Coming back together like this. Jin rested his hand on my leg, neither of us said anything. It was a quiet but comfortable ride back to the hotel. I felt like Jin was too forgiving, I didn’t understand why he was being so understanding about what I had done and wasn’t angry. Instead he was shifting everything to make room for Jinae and I in his life. Part of me had thought he would want her in his life and merely deal with my presence as her mother. But that wasn’t what was happening. I was beginning to think that I was more upset with myself than he was.
When we had returned to the hotel and ensured that it was safe to move about without being seen we went back up to the suite. I got Jinae changed and into some pjs. She woke up enough to whine while I got her changed but immediately fell back to sleep once I stopped bothering her.
“She’s going to sleep well tonight,” I laughed softly as I closed the door, leaving it ajar. “You don’t have to stay. You’re probably exhausted.”
“More hungry,” He shrugged. “I wanted to talk to you about the next stop.” he rubbed the back of his neck. “My manager adjusted the hotel booking for Vegas. It’s a suite with two rooms, so you and Jinae will have your space but…”
“The three of us are staying in the same suite.” I finished, looking up at him.
Jin nodded, “I know you said that as long as the two of you have your own space, it would be okay. But I wanted you to know before. I didn’t want you feeling blindsided.”
“I appreciate that,” I smiled. “Are you okay with it though?”
He frowned, as if he didn’t quite understand why I’d be asking that. “It means having you both closer.” He nodded.
“Seokjin, I just don’t want you to take on too much. I know that you want to be in her life, but you can ease into it. No need to go zero to eighty.” I reassured him.
“I’m trying to make some of this easier on you too, Y/N-ah.” He said quietly. “Asking you to come on tour and travel like this… I know it’s a lot.” He took a small step closer, but I could see he was still trying to respect every boundary I had put in place. “This isn’t just about me being in Jinae’s life. It’s about us figuring things out, too.” He reached out and pushed some hair from my face.
“I’ll come by in the morning.”
“Okay…” I nodded. As he started towards the door, I found myself calling back for him quietly, “Seokjin?” He turned back to look at me. “I want that, too. Us, I mean. Figuring things out.”
He’d left, but I knew he’d be back in the morning as he’d promised. I took a shower, carefully folding the jersey he’d given me and setting it off to the side. Going from being so involved in their lives to being so far removed, and now back here. It was a lot. My heart and head were trying to make heads or tails of it all. I was beginning to realize how much I still loved him. I knew that I had never quite gotten over him, but I’d led myself to believe that my lack of moving on was because I was focused on raising Jinae. I didn’t have time for relationships. But maybe all along it was because my heart was holding out for Jin. That deep down I hoped one day this would happen.
The next morning I had Jinae up and bathed before Jin came over. In the light of morning I was feeling a little more sure of myself. Last night hd been the first time I had openly told Jin that i wanted to figure things out between us as well. He’d made his view on the matter quite clear from that first day on my parents back deck.
My phone buzzing caught my attention as I got Jinae set up with a small activity. I knew I wsa going to need to figure something out to keep her engaged while traveling because I was not going to rely on a tablet.
Jin: Is your coffee order the same?
Me: Yes, why?
Jin: Does Jinae like potatoes?
Me: That is a very random and weird question, Seokjin.
Jin: Breakfast potatoes.
Me: She likes McDonald’s hasbrowns and you will be her absolute favorite person if you bring her one. Because they’re a treat.
About a half hour later Jin arrived carrying a coffee and two bags with food. One clearly had the golden arches of the McDonald’s logo. Which Jinae immediately clocked.
“Appa… What’s that?” She ran over pointing at the bag.
“This?” He smirked holding up the bag.
Jinae nodded, then peeked around him to look at me. The whole thing was amusing.
“I don’t know….” He teased playfully. “Do you want to take a look and see what it is?”
Again Jinae nodded, this time more enthusiastically. He crouched down and made a show of peeking in the bag and quickly snapping it shut. It was a whole production before he let her take a peek. As soon as she saw what it was, she lit up and gasped excitedly.
“Eomma! Look!” She took the single hashbrown out and held it up for me to see.
“What do you say to Appa?” I asked, smiling at her excitement.
“Thank you Appa!” She said and threw her arms around his neck in a hug. It was enough to almost knock him off balance, but he caught her. Jinae then took her prized hashbrown and went to sit and eat it.
“I told you that you’d be her favorite,” I teased him.
“I took your message as permission to get it. I’m following your lead, Y/N-ah.” He smiled. “I also brought some fruit, and there’s a bagel with cream cheese in that bag for you.” Then he picked up the coffee holding it out to me. “Also, coffee. Since it was such a late night last night.”
“Thank you, Seokjin.” I smiled taking the cup he’d held out.
We sat and talked a little about the concert, how much work they were putting in. When Jinae finished her breakfast she came over to where we sat on the couch talking. I saw the look in her eye as she looked up at Jin and knew something was coming. The I realized, I hadn’t told Jin about what Jinae had said the night before. But before I could say anything, she took care of that.
“Are you a Saja Boy?”
“Saja Boy?” Jin looked from Jinae to me.
“Jinae, I told you last night, Appa and your uncles are not the Saja Boys.” I said, trying to hold in a laugh because Jin looked utterly confused.
“But Appa looks like Jinu. You call Appa Jinu.” She tried to reason.
“I call Appa Jin,” I countered, knowing there was little reasoning with my daughter. I laughed at the side glance she gave her father.
“Wait, Ara was calling someone named Baby Saja Appa last night. Yoongi was having a fit about it. Is this related?”
“Seokjin, how does Jimin know what K-Pop Demon Hunters is and you don’t?” I asked, then looked to Jinae. “Should we show Appa?”
“I know what it is,” he said, getting defensive.
“Yes!” Jinae said over him excitedly and I looked back at Jin with a smirk.
“Want to watch a movie as a family?” I saw it in his eyes, what calling us a family did. I was already up, moving to set up the movie on the TV as I had the night before.
“The idea of watching a movie together makes me happy. But I feel like the two of you are somehow scheming against me.”
“Don’t worry Seokjin, it’s all part of being Appa.”
