#chanpost

[hwngcs3]

God, someone needs to hit me on the head or something. Lately I can’t stop thinking about that person.... .....I’d like to talk with him one more time....just to get answers to those questions I had for over an year....

....and to see if he’s doing good.....

[hwngcs3]

I wonder if sometimes... the thought of me still crosses your mind....

....after all this time I seem to be the only one whose mind constantly goes back to the past, making me feel like an idiot

[hwngcs3]

Sometimes I still think about him. How he's doing...even if he’s still alive. But then I remember all the pain and i push back the imagine of him from my head and keep going on....

[hwngcs3]

I feel like stating to wear earrings again...I wonder where I put them tho. I guess I haven’t worn a pair in 3 years or so....

....or maybe I’m too old to look like a rebellious kid with pierced ears? xD

[hwngcs3]

I’d love a bubble bath and then get in the warm bed and just snuggle under the duvet until monday.

And I think I should buy some bath bombs and a thermic blanket for the bed...since I’m old and need to keep myself warm 

[hwngcs3]

...yet I still think I can never feel such a deep love anymore...

[hwngcs3]

It’s incredible how, after an year, i still end up thinking about him and about our relationship...

....I must be dumb... ...that love was so bad it’s still poisoning me...

[hwngcs3]

No matter what you say with words....somethings must be shown. I keep having this feeling of having people telling me “i love you” but then not caring about me one bit....