#chasing thunderstorms

[eliphantart]

Omg I CANT BELIEVE I NEVER POSTED THESE. My favorite fanfiction of all time are the Chasing Thunderstorm fics by Foxy'sgirl. They unfortunately deleted them off of FF but I got to save them for myself. I adore the writing even now. It's just really great.

[tysonrunningfox]

I just found out you’ve taken Chasing down and then someone reposted it! I’ve had it downloaded since I first read it and it’s ALWAYS been an absolute favorite of mine. But, I feel bad keeping it knowing you don’t want it out there and I feel like I needed to come and just make sure it was okay or not?? I get why you took it down and deleting it would be no problem from me knowing it would make you feel better!

The short of it: It’s totally fine with me that you have it, if you ever spread it I reserve the right to call you a dick (the person who did post it was not alright with that).  And also, I really appreciate how considerate you’re being for sending me this and for thinking about it, it really means a lot.  

The long of it was going to be under a cut but I’m hoping if it’s not someone will like…read it

That person was behaving like real garbage to repost it, I won’t lie.  That was a garbage moment (that I still doubt they’ve learned from, given how they’re sticking to the idea that I’m some sort of Sheriff of Nottingham worthy of revenge).  

I…….I’ll be very honest as I’ve tried to be through this whole Chasing thing, from honestly writing the story which contains so much of an awkward, painful period of my life that I chose to post and it somehow got big, to how much I needed to take it down.  I don’t like how easy it is to download fan fiction, it’s hypocritical given that it’s fanfiction which inherently stomps all over the concept of copyright but I don’t like that people can obtain permanent copies of other people’s words without consent.  That feels icky to me and I personally never do it.  

But!  At the same time, Chasing at some point got way bigger than me and most of the time I’ve made peace with that and it’s fine.  I am sincerely wracking my brains for a way that people who love it could have chasing in a way that’s passive to me and requires no continual effort, because frankly, continuing to talk about it is exhausting.  Feeling guilty about taking it down is about 75% of the energy that taking compliments for something that makes me feel vulnerable was/is.  I don’t know, dude, but you’re really sweet and considerate and I appreciate it, but I’m super tired.  

[tysonrunningfox]

Is there a place I can read the Chasing Thunderstorms series you wrote? It isn’t on fanfiction anymore.

FAQ

[tysonrunningfox]

Do y’all want to hear something funny?  

Well I’m going to tell you anyway, I had a httyd marathon today before I saw the third movie and I was really thinking about reposting chasing.  it didn't belong to me anymore and it might make people happy, but now?  

It’s going to be a real hurdle for me to not delete everything in the next day, because someone can’t help being an asshole

[tysonrunningfox]

literally though, this is actually predictive because I was half thinking that maybe after the third movie I could move on.  

It’s not because of the third movie, it’s because apparently this shit is ok, Eret III is only safe because no one cares, but hiccstrid aus?  Fuck, liable to be poached at any time.  

Seriously, what the fuck?

[tysonrunningfox]

Life is made of billions of miniscule moments of emotion, strung together like beads on a chain. Moments of hate, moments of love, and moments of destiny that steer a person around and around like an eddy in a raging river. Occasionally, if a person is spectacularly lucky, in between the lightning strikes, a moment is perfect. - Chasing Thunderstorms (2011-2018)

I have to say Chasing, you gave me one last moment, dumping gasoline on my firepit at 7:30 in the morning because my favorite scotch wasn’t enough to convince you to pass quietly.  

[tysonrunningfox]

let's have a little viking funeral for chasing. cover it in a nice wool blanket, spread flower petals on top, and let it go

This is hokey, I love it.  

Can we actually do this?  Like I just remembered that I was recently moving stuff from my childhood bedroom and I found the notebook I originally started chasing in.  I’m going to go home and burn it ceremonially in my firepit.  I think I might have the page that the idea started on, honestly, because I’m a word hoarder.  

I really like this idea actually.  Thank you.  I’m going to do that when I get home.  

[tysonrunningfox]

Mass Answer Under a Cut

I want to answer these anons but am trying not to make a horribly huge deal of this so please skip if you don’t care.  

Nothing is wrong with it, per say, well...that’s not fair, I feel like a lot is wrong with it and I’m not really proud or comfortable with it being my loudest shout.  It is also outdated, but that’s not why I’m taking it down.  

I’m forever just...fucking humble about how many people have loved this fic over the years.  Really.  It never ceases to stun me.  It resonated with people and I’m so happy that it did, really.  I’m happy that I shared it with you all and that I learned what I did while writing it and it’s been such a crazy thing.  Like I wrote something that got clicked on millions of times?  Millions?  

I’m so grateful to all of you who read it and loved it and I’m so happy that some of you still read what I write now and I can’t tell you how smug and to be honest, relieved it makes me to hear that some of you think I’ve improved since and I really couldn’t have done that without chasing.  And all of you are the reason it’s been up so long.