#cheilectomy

[spiritedanyway]

#fourmths #cheilectomy #update: The left how has a functional 75degree range of motion but neither foot could- go back into a lunge and deal with the pressure without feeling like a cut. The right only has. 45 degree range and a constant sharp pain (when being used) on the plantar surface of the joint most likely due to adhered fascia from being immobilized for 2 years- actually my entire plantar fascia will get a shearing pain every once in awhile especially during a dance class. #insurance deemed me medically unnecessary but it is impossible for me to stretch and release the tissue by myself. All in all I'm in a lot less pain than before, and hopefully it will still get better (there are #dream stories). My doctor told me to dance more and push it as far as I could tolerate. So I went for my first #run in a long time. Did two miles in 13minutes. And my body was probably in worse shape- but of course I don't need to use the range Of motion that I need for other tasks

[spiritedanyway]

Dear Diary

So I finally got to tell my PT about the surgery.  While he was very excited, he kept focusing on the post op pain even though the doctor said his colleagues go back to work within 3-4 days.  While I'm aware it will exist, won't be pleasant, and may affect me longer than 3-4days, I have a relatively high pain tolerance and I've been walking around grinding off cartilage, pinching tissue and compressing nerves for almost 2 yrs so bring that shit I've had practice.  While I'm sorry that this also puts stress on other people these are the things I'm worried about: being able to sit still while they place an IV (I mean I pierced my own ear but having someone else access my body freaks me out), not dying under anesthesia (I know it's not a big deal but still it happens), getting home, being able to take care of myself and mostly, that the surgery will not be successful- that the damage done already is far too great and will cause even greater, lasting pain.

People like us don’t get the opportunity to be afraid.  We stay positive and hope for the best, knowing that our bodies are made up of the same shit that lions are made of.