so like. i’ve been fucking MIA i know. where have i been??? spiraling mostly. but also writing on wattpad like a little freak even tho i have two readers (and one of them is me. literally me rereading my own shit like a narcissist).
anyway i haven’t posted anything here in a hot ass minute and i guess it’s cuz i haven’t really felt super fucking welcome?? like idk not trying to be dramatic or whatever the fuck. not fishing for anything. it’s just like i thought this would be more fun. like oh rafe cameron tumblr community!! let’s be thirsty together!! let’s be sluts for a fictional man and cry about it together!! but instead it’s been me quietly reposting my own stuff and talking to the void like a loser
meanwhile wattpad is over there being messy as fuck but at least i can pretend people are reading. and comment on my shit like “wow this is so good bestie 😭” to keep the delusion alive.
anyway. i’m not gone forever. i’m just slightly emotionally bruised and dramatically lurking.
alsooo i’ve been seeing hate on my girl @rafesbabygirlx and i’ve HATED that shit. like wtf. she fucking left because of it and honestly?? fuck you bitch. oh who is you??? literally who. people be acting like they got power over words on a screen like girl get a grip. log off. touch some fucking grass. get your vitamin d. go flirt with someone in real life idk. socialize maybe. it’s not that deep and you’re not cute for being cruel online.
this community is just… messy. too messy. and not in the fun “oops i made out with my best friend’s brother” way but in the “i need therapy and an internet ban” way.
and like. i would LOVE to contribute more here. i want to post my shit. i want to share my psych 203 series bc rafe is such a lil loser for nova it’s insane. like he is DOWN BAD and she’s not even trying. it’s delicious. i write. i got most of it already done or half-done or like 75% emotionally ruined. but for what. for WHO. i’m posting for two people like ????
anyway. if ur one of the two ily. if ur the other one it’s me. we’re in this hell together.
might still drop shit idc idk. ’m confused rn. love u bye
— your local emotionally unstable wattpad gremlin