I recently started following a bunch of Jewish tumblrs, and while I love love love most of the content and the fact that it speaks to my community, I can't help but feel a little bit not right at reblogging some of it. The truth is that on a day-to-day basis I'm not religious. I'm a chiloni in Israel, and usually I'm pretty damn proud of that fact and what it entails. I've been caught making fun of many Orthodox practices, and being fed up with the many ways in which the ultra-Orthodox dominate the religion in my country.
I have a complicated relationship with Judaism as a religion - obviously it's laced with a fuckton of privilege, being mostly Ashkenazi-presenting and being completely confident that my place in the community will never be questioned. But, I also really don't like a lot of what practicing the religion entails and a lot of what it has come to mean in Israeli society. I've also felt wildly out of place in foreign country Chabad places. It's just not for me. I connect with my community on an Israeli level much more often than on a Jewish level, and I don't quite know what ties I have to global Jewry. It's all a bit distant.
So when I reblog something from a Jewish blog, I always feel a bit like I'm intruding, though obviously we share some common interests and problems. Essentially, I'm confused. Really. Is what I'm trying to say.
