Track 4 - Far From Home (ft.Panchika) [Original Song Demo] by chisun Song Journey: “Let me turn my sorrow into a song and let me dance to it” I'm just trying to sit here and trying to start this piece of writing without making it sound cliche, it has not been easy for me to talk it out loud. I want you to understand the song like I do but in order to let you in I need you to understand that for people like me, being in love is something very vague. I have no idea what is going on and I don't even know if I am feeling it. Because everyday is a new day, and what I feel yesterday might not last until today. As much as I am trying to make it simple for me, sometimes I just don't know what to do but locking myself in the room just so that I could breathe alone, stare blankly outside the window and start writing out what's in my mind. Here is one of the song I wrote, it started simply with the phrase 'you hurt me' you really did hurt me. For once in a blue moon, an unsure and insecure person like me get a vigorous dose of truth serum of what it is like to really fall for someone. I have never felt ANYTHING this much. Reading up until this very part, I hope you don't ever have to feel anything like me, but please don't guess, please don't ever feel the need to question me or wonder who is it that I am talking about, please leave it all to me in my little box of sunshine and rain. I felt as if this is a punishment for all the bad things I have done in my childhood, to have to suffer with this very one girl over and over again. It's been two years and I'm still trying to figure out why I am this attached. All the songs on the radio are humming 'you will learn to love again' in the same tunes. Maybe there are right, maybe I just overthink everything and that I am too young to ever have to feel like this. One day I'll probably be laughing at myself for ever even dare to talk about this feeling in one of the songs that I wrote. I did this to myself and there is no one to blame. I have been trying to be normal, people would always come up to me and say heyyyyy why don't you just go out and hook up with anyone. I need them to understand that this is not the way it works for me and I might have to live forever trying to fill this empty gap all by myself. The idea that we are just tiny little human and we are just dust in this universe terrifies me. But I am just too insecure to just let anybody in. This is why this very one person gets to rip off every single feelings receptor on my body. She said to me that we fit each other like a perfect rhyme, very ironic isn't it. But it's wry that I am writing this post after two years that she has been giving me just enough to be hooked but not enough to set me free. So here you go, this song is called "far from home". I have put all the feelings about how I think I will never fall in love again in this particular tunes. It is heavily influenced by Taylor Swift, Jack Antonoff and The 1975, great great musicians I highly admired. It took me almost a year and a half to record and mix this song in spite of the fact that I finished writing and producing this song 2 days right after the idea hit my head. Thank God I knew Fai, she really helped me a lot. And It wouldn't even gonna be possible without a little guidance from Nong Nice who helped me a lot in vocal production. This song is my blood and my soul, it is very much a big part of who I am now. Writing: Me Produce: Me Vocal: Panchika and me Background Vocal: Panchika and me Mixing: Me Mastering: Bandlab Programming: N’Nice and Me Instrumentation: Me Piano: Me Video: Sea’Minn and me you will learn to love again, Chisun