the front of a creased envelope, stamped with the drawing of a dove perched on a half moon. @chocalafolie.
hey. i sent this to your grandma because, well, she might know where you are. it’s been years. isn’t it crazy to think about how much time has passed? i’ve been thinking about the past a lot lately. maybe that’s just a sign of my impending doom, 30 years old soon means incoming gray hairs and midlife crisis. i don’t make the rules.
i know it’s probably really odd. a letter from me. a letter at all. the truth is, i don’t know how to talk to you anymore. and asking for your phone number from your grandma sounds like a death sentence to my reputation. well, the one i left behind anyway. so. how’ve you been? i heard you left the village. i don’t keep up with the news about you or anything but it’s kind of hard to miss. my auntie and the old ladies around there, they talk. i guess even when i was a kid they talked. i didn’t understand it at first, but i learned. there was a point that my summers were never the same thanks to you. maybe you know that’s not a compliment, but i’m trying to let those be bygones.
the point of this whole letter isn’t to drag up old shit. or even to stir up the pot with my rose colored glasses. the point is that everything is that the whole damn world is going crazy and no one is doing anything about it....
in all these years, i’ve never tried to find you. but i’ve never forgotten you. and now there’s something i think only you can help me with. so if you don’t want to talk to me again after all that shit last time, i understand. but if there’s a chance we can stock pile it and do some mental gymnastics to put it aside and work together instead... i want to take that chance.
if you’re up for it, meet me soon. i’ll leave my address on a seperate slip in the evelope. tell no one where i live. you can come any time. be there or be square.