just been doing some thinking
when i was in the fourth grade, i joined chorus for the first time because i saw my friends were having fun with it and I wanted some fun. I loved it and continued it through out school. But when I reached high school chorus, tone changed. Yes I was still in chorus but the teacher...well not in the exact words... told me i can't sing. It makes me wonder why he let me stay in the chorus. I guess he didn't want me going to my parents saying this mean teacher said I couldn't sing. plus he was a very popular teacher and to think if he was turned in, I would have to transfer to another school. Well it didn't stop there. One of the concerts we had, I had gotten sick with an illness I caught the weekend before the concert. I still had to go to the concert or I would get an 0 for not showing and wind up with a C in chorus and I didn't want that. So I went and as sick as I was I did pretty good till I almost past out. My teacher makes fun of it, saying I locked my knees. NO BASTARD I DID NOT LOCK MY KNEES. I WAS SICK AND COULD BARELY SPEAK OR SING!!!!! Some how I got an award later that semester for most improved soprano. I didn't make it into the extra chouses. I didn't have a role in the musical. I did try out for it though, in front of people (still sick btw) when I would usually run for the hills. Senior year... he made me look as if I needed him to pay for everything. We went to this place in Boone and we had a choice of Arby's or this local place in the area. Mom of course says Arby's since the other place was like 15.00 or 25.00. Can't really remember since it's been a long time. Teacher said he'd pay for it. I felt embarrassed. Later on that school year, we went to New York and being short as I am, I got separated from the group. I called him but of course I get no answer (i get that a lot) so i called a student that was with us and finally someone got to me. He makes fun of me about that, saying "I was sniffing daisies" oh and get this... he told me that he wasn't no sugar daddy. I wanted to slap him but I didn't. I have a clean record.
Looking back on all of that... I just wish he would told me I suck at singing so I could have done something else besides getting mocked at. Oh he called me fat one time and that year I starved myself. That was the same year I almost passed out. Grrrrrrrr!!!!!!!