what are you willing to do? - C.K. âŠËËË
SYNOPSIS â Helping the quiet TA, who shrinks himself down to avoid taking too much space, come out of his shell. Youâre slowly understanding why he thrives in an environment where heâs told what to do â and he shows you why heâs hesitant to be in charge.
TAGS â MDNI (18 + only) nsfw. work contains explicit sexual themes and content. piv. Gentle Giant!Choso, Dork!choso, overly freaked out!reader. Nerd!choso, SIZE KINK, sub to top(M), Switchy. rough. making out. couch sex. lifting. mutual masturbation. Changing positions. Missiònary. excessive use of sexual innuendos, dacryphilla, inconsistent writing (?). Choso will do anything you ask. PWP. Teasing, Degradation (both). pet names. crack.fluff. reader is nice to him obv. but freaked out.
WC: 14k â art by k4eny on twt
a/n: Hello blog, IM VERY HAPPY W THIS ONE and i promise to not leave u high and dry! this is highly inspired by an augustinthewinter audio (im a #freak) â Also what if I release my drabbles HEH
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The score read on your last mock test for your Historiography class. Your worst subject for the semester by far. Next week was going to be your midterm. Now, since your professor, Mr. Gojo, knows his students a little too well, he facilitated a surprise mock text to see how much you all understood the lessons.Â
A chorus of curses and groans start filling up the classroom with each student receiving their results as theyâre handed out.Â
ââŚNow I can assure you, if you guys are worried about scoring higher than each other, it wonât matter because theoretically almost all of you failed.âÂ
Another set of groans and a little bit of laughter comes from the class. Youâre back to looking down on your paper, flipping through the pages to check every question and each correction out of habit, noting down what you have to improve on. Then you stumble upon the last page with the words;
 Feel free to ask for help :)  You smile, knowing exactly who wrote this without them being in the room. You look up to double check and youâre right, it was just your prof still going on about Khaldun or something â you tune him out to make way for the giddy feeling rushing through your stomach.
Usually youâd hate for people to offer help when youâre forced to do something you were unprepared for, taking the sentiment as a passive aggressive version of getting called incompetent but this time, you ponder while rereading the sweet little note in green inkâ of course he used green ink to avoid students from being discouraged â and it's one of those times your stupidity has done you some good.
Itâs an hour and a half later when class ends, people filing up to leave the doors of the lecture hall when a voice calls out to you.Â
You smile at your professor, a little strained, but itâs okay, you tell yourself, you expected it. You walk up to him, bag on your shoulder, unzipped because you rushed down. Youâre still smiling when youâre there, already preparing for what he has to say.Â
The smile falls and you sigh, âI know that look.â
Heâs standing with his arms crossed, dark shades balanced on his straight nose, looking down at you with nothing short of paternal disappointment. âYes, and you shouldnât be too familiar with it either. Seventy-five? really? I thought we were talking recommendation letters last week, turns out youâre barely passing my class?â
You swallow back, not really knowing what to do so you kinda just stand there awkwardly, waiting for him to air out his worries. âI know it's like, a little weird to put this much pressure on you but câmon kid, youâre looking at being the next assistant after Choso to help your resumĂŠ right?âÂ
You nod, still not saying anything, but you canât deny how you perk up when you heard his name.Â
Your professor pauses briefly mid rant after spotting how you only met his eyes when he mentioned his current TAâs name, a light bulb flickers on in his head.Â
He squints, âYouâve been familiar with each other, correct?â
âYes, sir.â Youâre quick to reply, stopping yourself from physically gulping out of nervousness.Â
âHe been showing you the ropes bit by bit?â he mutters, uncrossing his arms and leaning over the desk.Â
âBit by bit, yes.â You echo, unable to reply without being scared of saying the wrong thing to tick him off.
âAndâŚâ He feigned thinking about it, fidgeting with he pen in his hand and tapping the butt end of it on a thick stack of paper. ââŚHeâs also helping with lessons to keep your grades up?âÂ
You say nothing, keeping your mouth flat and shut. You peer up at him, and shake your head slowly, âNo sir.â
He tsks, standing up to his full height. âItâs not necessary but youâre aware thereâs an average for you to keep up just to become a TA right? We wouldnât want students biting off more than they could chew.â
You nod once more, though this time, a lot more fervently. âIâyes, sorry. Iâll-â
âGet to it, yeah.â He finished for you, tucking his hands in the pockets of his slacks. He waits for you to move, watching how youâre still standing there and waiting for him to also tell you to move. Youâre so alike, he thinks.Â
He nods upwards, dismissing you. You thank him while youâre already turned your back, eagerly making your way to your next mission.
Gojo watches the door swing inwards from the impact of your departure, a smile in his tone when he mutters to no one, âThatâll give her some motivation.â
Youâre rushing to your next class now, given the fifteen minute grace period you were granted had now been shaved down to ten, no thanks to your professor, forcing you to take two steps at a time when making your way to the other side of the building.Â
Youâre looking down at your phone, deleting and retyping a message in your instagram dms. Itâs when you pass the stairway that an unexpected force uncontrollably comes on to you. You thud against it, breath caught, hand tightly clutching at your phone. You stumble on your steps, holding onto the closest thing you feel for. You donât fall, you donât even come close to the ground, but your knees certainly felt like they couldnât carry you.
Because here you stood against a very worried, very tightly holding you, Choso Kamo. Your mind blanks, your class just a few doors away, forgotten. Unintentionally, a small smile spreads on your face.Â
âHey, I wasââ He laughs nervously, âI was looking for you.â His hands wrap around your nearly limp arms, almost covering the expanse of it, yet held at a respectable position.
âYou okay?â He tilts his head down to meet your eyes, a look of concern etching back on his terribly handsome face, he swallows thickly and you watch his adamâs apple bob decorating his thick neck.
 He takes a second to peer back at the stairs, then back to you before he realizes how his grip still clutched on you. âIâm sorry.â He pulls his hands down at his sides, unsure of what to do with them. âI was about to-â
â-Me too actually.â Cutting him off, you couldnât help but smile even wider, uncaring if you looked too excited. You raised your phone, âWas about to send a dm but I got class in like,â You flip the screen to face you, âtwo minutes.â A pinch of apprehension makes its way to you but you push it back.Â
His eyes widen behind his rectangular frames, lenses making them appear bigger than they actually are. Â
âReally? Shit, â He cursed, regretful, âI donât have class anymore so I could just wait outââ
âSit in with me?â It comes out of you before you could stop it. ââor not.â You quickly add, retreating. âI could just go and email you.â
âNoâI mean, Of course. Yes. Me, Iâll go.â He smiled with a toothy grin, ignoring how you said email instead of your socials in hopes you wonât bring up how he stuttered over his words. Youâre caught off guard and before you know it, heâs already making his way to the door without even being sure which class it was.Â
Heâs reaching for the handle when you stop him, âOh, next door, please.â He nods bashfully, adjusting the strap of his comically small backpack on himself and apologizes under his breath. He follows you inside, you push, prying the door open. His palm flat against the wood, effortlessly holding it for you both.Â
Luckily your professor hadnât been in class yet, so you werenât spotted as the only late comer (technically no, with company, you werenât.) The class was sparsely filled as it was only part of your minor and this schedule wasnât as popular, so you could basically sit anywhere. You scan over the room, and you spot some seats at the very front. Youâre about to take a step forward when you realize youâre being a little rude.Â
âWhere dâya wanna sit?â You ask, head tilted up with a smile. You try to ignore the gleefulness that comes with the idea youâre gonna be seated next to him. Again, you push this feeling down, knowing itâs completely unprofessional and straight up childish. Though conversely, what you feel for him is not in the slightest, childish.Â
âBack, definitely.â He answers a little too fast, blinking to check with you. âIf you want.â He adds.Â
Heâs so polite, you could just die.Â
You find comfortable seating by the right side of the class, second to last row and close to the back per request. This classroom was a little smaller, so distance from the whiteboard wasnât really an issue.
Youâre listening to your elderly professor repeat instructions about a future assignment and knowing heâs just going to be posting the guidelines, you just tune him out again, distracted. You have to learn to stop doing that.
But youâre shamelessly peeking at the side, Chosoâs writing something down, you watch his face as he continues without a care in the world, back hunched down to get closer to the papers maybe, tongue poking the inside of his cheek in focus. You look down at what heâs writing when he flips the sheet over, the sound of the paper is quiet amongst the loud hum of the air conditioner.
 Heâs checking something, a test again? You wonder if yours is there. Something catches your eye, heâs even writing down notes in the side for each correction. Maybe heâs also writing notes of encouragement for others. You donât wanna wanna act all sensitive but something in your chest dampens. A lick of disappointment knowing you werenât just given a little extra effort.
You shift in your seat, suddenly aware that you completely distracted yourself again and let your overactive imagination take over. You bite your cheek, brushing off the disappointment and sit properly on your seat. It moves the entire table though, you moved a little too roughly. Choso backs up in his chair, the commotion throwing off your professor in his fruitless discussion.
You gasp before immediately turning to check on your hard of hearing professor. He mumbles some incoherent complaint but you donât wait to think and just apologize, âSorry,â and itâs hopefully enough to divert the attention from you both.Â
Choso grunts, âNoâsorry, my chair was too loud.â He pulls the long, shared desk back with one pull of his hand, before hunching to go back to work. Thereâs already a furrow in your brows at the apology, and youâre staring at the side of his face, his hand behind his full, overgrown hair, expression mirroring your own except towards his papers.Â
You adjust back, only this time youâre a bit farther, scared heâll probably sense youâre being a little invasive. So you keep your eyes up at the projected screen and let the silence pass, the light sound of the ballpoint scratching paper on the smooth surface of the table and your teacher murmuring mix behind the stupid thoughts interfering and prodding at your composure.Â
You made this unnecessarily awkward, eyes looking back down on the paper without trying. Youâre still kinda curious what heâs writing down. Heâs writing down notes to the side, red pen and allâ red pen and all?
You do a double take, your uncontrollable, imposing, borderline deluded thoughts returning back to their place in your hopeless brain. Did he use a red pen for everyone or green? He used green earlier, definitely. What the hell? Why does it matter?
âCan I help you?â The inner monologue in your head ceases at the question. You glance up at him, a crooked smile on his face, dimple gracing his features. He waits for you to say something, you process how it's a little close to a tease. Youâre unable to say something and end up nodding.
He smiles, achingly sweet and sincere, still waiting for a response. You blank out, unable to think of a proper fake answer in time.Â
A last flick of your gaze at the paper outs your thoughts, he looks down at them. âIf youâre looking for any of your own, this isnât your sectionâs.â He assures, trying to fill in the silence you were so talented in bringing out in your conversations.Â
You giggle out of pure giddiness, unable to hold it in as you act like a school girl and not a college student. Itâs probably so strange to him that youâre acting this way  â internally reprimanding yourself is your only avenue for self control at these moments. You hope he doesnât think the same way. âNo um, youâre so focused on writing nice notes for everyone and marking every point.â
He smiles wider, eyes turning into pretty crescents. He shakes his head once, sitting back on his chair, and finally not slouching. Your stomach flips noting how he occupies more than half the seat. He scratches his neck, eyes flicking back at the papers for a moment before meeting yours, then averting again.Â
âI donât thinkâŚâ He leaned over to read the name on the paper, ââŚInumaki, T. thinks my detailed corrections, or rather critiques are very nice, nor the rest of section Z26.â he mumbled the last part, adjusting the collar of his pull over.
âcritiques?â You inquire, unconsciously leaning to his side of the desk, closer so you could read them too. Choso hopes you canât feel the warmth on his cheeks radiating right now.Â
He nods his head a little too quickly, despite not being able to see him from where you were. Heâs dizzy with the scent of your floral shampoo under his nose, heady and pulling. âYes, just to help with,â he falters again, your bare arm brushing against his own, clothed one when you point at a certain part of the paper while reading, knees hitting under the table when youâre closely looking down on the sheet. âWith the, the uh, future tests yeah-â
Choso watches your lips move but he doesnât hear what comes out. Right now, heâs pushing away such un-utterable, uncalled for thoughts when his view is your head over what would be is his lap, only being separated by this rickety table. It only gets worse when you shift your eyes at him, wide and up at his tired onyx ones, only now his are a little wider too, something past friendly reflecting in your before averting back down the white sheet.
Youâre still reading the paper, taking in the info for each question. âOh,â
He snaps out of his daze, immediately taking notice of your blank tone. âWhatâs wrong?âÂ
Youâre processing the words on the essay type test heâs checking and you realize youâve never seen this kind of test before. âYâknow, now that Iâm reading this, I donât think weâve answered this activity yet.â A beat, and Choso flips the paper down.
âRight, thatâs probably not good,â He places a spread out hand over the papers, sheets mix on top of each other, disheveled and disorganized, one nearly falling off the narrow table.
Youâre already laughing, âYouâre so clumsy,â your hand stopping one of them from flying out of place.Â
âNo, you probably shouldnât look at that too-â
âRelax, I donât have the photographic memory to copy each answer. As much as I wish I did.â You mumble the last part, tucking the papers into an organized pile, facing outwards. âSee? No cheating for me.âÂ
Choso fights the smirk that inches his way under the skin of his cheeks, nodding to you. âI appreciate your integrity.â You return the look on his face except with the stack in your grasp right now, it reflects its white canvas like a soft light on your skin, a sweet warmth overcomes him. âI never told you why I was looking for you.âÂ
You place the sheets separate from his pile of unfinished work. Pursing your lips, you make a noise of acknowledgment. âOh, I was thinking the same thing. I didnât know how to approach you âcause it was kinda embarrassing.âÂ
âEmbarrassing how?â
For a while, you contemplate how to make yourself sound less pathetic, trying to amp up how to sound flirtier without breaching whatever boundary of the title you held to him. You wanted to play safe, for now.
âLike to ask for help, I bet it's as funny as someone asking a stupid question since you probably didnât have to do any of that when you were in my year.â You donât have to confirm with him whether or not itâs true, Chosoâs going straight to a masterâs after graduating this year. Youâve been hyping yourself up to ask him out for a while, knowing that heâll most likely drift from you as a friend with the work that comes with finishing one.Â
You truly werenât looking for any kind of college relationship or even a fling, knowing such places bring unnatural levels of attraction to people who lack self identity, and if youâre being honest, college made you question that part of yourself when you first began.
 Ergo, you focused on yourself for your first year to second. Now, youâre in your third yearâs second semester and people are thinking about their thesis and fellowships. And here you were only starting to make career moves for your future in your third year.Â
But you digress, circling back to how all that led you to meet Choso. Someone youâve made acquaintances with last year during an exhibit at the schoolâs anthropology museum. Yes, you had an anthropology museum â Jjk technical college was not cheap.
His hair was a tad shorter back then, guiding a bunch of first years through the new exhibit, excitedly discussing some bones and energy. The glint in his eyes was bright and he was wholly unfiltered, charmingly gauche. You had tried to pose a question at the time, wanting to entertain him out of definitely just pure curiosity for Bioarcheology, but second guessed yourself and never approached him again.Â
Until, it was that same year you found out he had been the TA for the professor you were aiming for next year (as a second year college student), and you found out he was resigning as the teacherâs assistant from a friend of a friend, and how Gojo had been already looking for a new one early on because Choso was that competent.
You want to say that maybe you joined just because professor Gojo was someone you highly look up to in the field of history research and will grant you a killer recommendation for a future career â which you know he willâ thereâs an underlying feeling where you also canât deny that the idea of how it brings you closer to Choso made the position all the more appealing.Â
So this year, when Gojo read your CV and decided to accept you out of the many (3 applicants, one was an irregular student, the other a nepo baby), and encouraged Choso to start training you by now, it was like fate realigned itself to bring you closer to him.
Sort of.
Now he was in front of you- beside you, and casually replying with, â I donât mind spending my free time with youâtutoring and stuff.â He offers, completely unaware how he gets your stomachs in knots and your heart feels like it's trying to rip out of your ribcage.Â
âReally?â You ask too eagerly, he nods for extra reassurance. âItâs just, Historiography just isnât something Iâm good at but Iâm also I find it interesting but itâs also really hard butâ I also want this.â You size him up, towards his side of the table. âYâknow, this.âÂ
Heâs about to point at himself, before looking at the papers and something clicks in place. âChecking papers on top of your thesis, dropping them off at Gojoâs office at 8 am, and getting death stares when I come across his students?â
You nod, almost even more eager, âAbsolutely.â
âYouâre perfect then.â He says, no hesitation whatsoever. You were eating it up and he was completely unaware. You giggle, heat rushing to your face.
You almost forgot how talking came easy with Choso. It was refreshing to meet someone you could hold a conversation with without feeling like you had to perform all the time, or wonder what to amp up or tone down. He had his intimidating moments at first, like being overqualified for a TA and the unmistakable height, or when youâre overthinking how to impress him and you donât truly act yourself â but those impressions crumble effortlessly when you recognize him for his sincerity and obsession with the academe.Â
Choso canât help but let a chuckle bubble in his throat, smooth and rich like a creamy cup of strong coffee. Heâs analyzing your face, the apples of your cheeks are out with how wide you smile, he made you smile like that. The fact sits comfortably in his chest. Heâs staring at your lips, maybe he can get away with it as him just looking down to your height, the few times he feels his own acted as an advantage for him.Â
ââŚany reason you use green?⌠Choso?â He blinks, and heâs back in the classroom and youâre now holding your own head with your palm, waiting for him to answer.Â
The back of his neck is hot with the thought you could probably notice him zoning out. âI like,â he searches your eyes, hesitating, and then, âI like green, so.â He nods, trying to rationalize his plain answer to himself.Â
Youâre squinting, âCool,â nothing behind your tone, just the air that still manages to sit awkwardly between you two, suddenly the old scribbles in the storage part of the desk was so interestingâ
âAnd it's good for not likeâŚâ He swallows back his nerves, heart pounding in his ears. âI didnât wanna discourage students.âÂ
The admittance runs like oil down your back and you feel like youâve hit him dead center in what you wanted to hear. âRight,â You look around, a false pretense of thinking in your expression, âSo⌠why the red?â You ask curiously, pen in your hand scratching off the old paint under the desk in anticipation.
He paused like a deer caught in headlights, licking the dryness of his lips. Staring down the sheet of paper, yes itâs red indeed, he thinks. His lips part, you watch the smooth, glossy sheen of it move against the light. âI guess I have a favorite class.â He coughs, feigning the ease he was currently lacking with each word he carefully chose to speak.
Despite the urge to egg him on, you leave it at that, your bravery for the day already expended. You know if you continued you might say something a little irrational, and youâre also afraid to jump his bones too quickly. Though youâre pretty sure he could still hold you up if you tried.
Class ends anti-climactically, your professor waving your class off with a less than interested parting. Youâre out of the classroom, Choso following behind when, âSo, when do you wanna start? Iâm free after class tomorrow and itâs the weekend. I donât mind staying longer.â
Youâre following his pace as you walk through the hallways of your building, aiming for the exit but youâre thinking about what happens after. Youâre not fully sure where youâll end up once you part. Do you just go? He stayed with you the entire boring class, (obviously the only reason why you want to stay longer and none other in particular) surely there must be something you have to do in return.
Youâre nearing the exit and you canât help but feel like youâre letting something slip if you go past the doors without making your thoughts known, âI have this thing with my best friend tomorrow, this is not a very good look for meâ I promised Iâd do this qualitative interview andââ
Heâs quick to reply, âOh yeah, I totally understandââ
Shit, okay you were not seizing the moment correctly. âYou should come with me.â You turn over to him, unable to stop yourself.
Choso all but freezes, âWhat?â
Okay, no going back now, smacking your lips together before going for the kill. ââWith me. Yeah, we could hang out and,â Could you still back out? No.Â
âJust, maybe study after? like we could study like⌠for the,â So much for not wanting to jump his bones, ââŚwhole night.â You canât look at him any longer, eyes scanning back the outside that now surrounds you. The noises of campus and the lamp posts are bright, projecting a warm white over you. But all this is not enough to comfort you from the trepidation finally shaking your brain.
You watch as Chosoâs pale cheeks start to tinge into a flushy pink, eyebrows raising behind his glasses.
 âOh, okay, yes. Okay!â He nods taughtly, though willing.
You pause, âOkay?â trying to check if heâs serious.
âSure.â Youâre both standing opposite his body, shocked with what youâre hearing from the other as much as you were shocked from the words leaving yourselves.Â
A beat passes, leaves rustle, and amidst that youâre silently hoping it won't matter how you didnât think this through fully. âFive oâclock sound good?â
***
It was a steady, calm-ish afternoon, your best friend Miwa was sat in front of you, laptops laid out on the table. Sheâs writing down notes and closing up her recording software and youâve been fixing up your hair, clothes, and picking lint off it. You find a loose thread on your shirt when, âHey,â You look up, alert. Miwaâs squinting at you, blue hair cast in a warm yellow from the mid-afternoon sun. âYou good?â
Youâre finger quits picking at yourself, âWhat? Yeah,â eyes flitting back to the pesky string sticking out of the hem of your top.Â
Thereâs a hum coming from in front of you, âYou sure? Youâve been so fidgety this entire time.â
âI am not fidgety.â You say, fidgeting. A sigh comes out of you, and you lean back on your chair, hands coming on top of the arm rests. âYou really okay with me bringing Choso?â
At this, Miwaâs lips curl into a smirk. âI knew it.â
Your eyes flick over to the side in thought, then back at her sly expression. âWhat do you know?â
Sheâs sitting up from her hunched posture over her laptop, and drinking from her cup of her almost lukewarm coffee, shrugging with her eyes still locked on yours.
Your thumbs come up from the arm rests, âWhat is it?â
She clears her throat, placing the mug on a coaster. She looks back up, a smirk still planted on her face. âJust that I didnât know that he was your crush,â she expects you to reply, but youâre still waiting for her to elaborate. âYâknow, Choso.â
âI donât have a crush on him!â
She squints, âOkay so weâre lying today.â
âItâs merely admirationâ and some attraction at most.â
âThatâs literally what a crush is based on.â
Youâre blinking at her, feeling caught. You bite your tongue, knowing that your best friend out of anyone should be able to catch you in a lie. Or even a truth you lie to yourself about. You speak up, âWell?â
âYâknow I love you.â She starts.
âOh no.â Dread seeps into your stomach, and you know if she starts somewhere along the lines of sugar coating, the following was about to be some bland truth coated around maybe an even bitter core inside.
âI like Choso! Heâs been your friend for a while and Iâve never talked to him but he sounds really devoted to his work, maybe goodlooking, heâs smart, and heâs niceââ
âWhat would Muta thinkâŚ?â
She chuckles, softening at the thought of her own boyfriend. âNo, I just wanted to keep an eye out for you too when I say this.â She pauses, trying to find a way to word this as pleasantly as possible. âCause you know how girls talkâŚâ
You latch onto that last part, stomach churning in suspense. âNot really, I donât.â
She stops herself from cackling at your nervous expression, âI just heard heâs alwaysâŚnice.âÂ
âWhatâs wrong with that?âÂ
âLike too nice? I guessâŚitâs really hard to explain babe,â She cuts herself off, sensing your growing apprehension. She observed how your hands are rubbing on the expanse of your cup, and bringing it to your lips to avoid saying something. She quiets down her tone, now kinda shy about mentioning it. She leans a bit towards you, âLike⌠in bed, yâknow?âÂ
You sputter in your mug, feeling unwelcome liquid scratch your throat. Miwaâs eyes widen when she watches you cough, eyes turning watery. âOoh gag reflex, thatâs not coming in handy.â
âFucking shut up-â Youâre coughing still and sheâs laughing uncontrollably now. ââI did not expect that.â
Sheâs wiping the corner of her corneas with a finger, âIâIâm sorry I just had to bring it up.â
Youâre more composed now, eyes looking up at the clock, itâs ten minutes to five, and youâre trying to relax.Â
You donât exchange looks with Miwa until a short moment passes for you to think.Â
âSo have you thought about what it would be like?â Youâre back to meeting her eyes, a silent exchange between you both. Miwa smiles at you, lowering her voice and putting a finger up to her ear like an agent, âThen Iâm glad to relay information.â Sheâs giggling when you throw a tissue at her.
Youâre already standing out of your seat and making your way to sit beside her. She motions her hand for you to come nearer, both turning your heads when the door chime rings and someone enters, calming down when itâs just some delivery person. You relax, side eyeing her.Â
Miwa inches closer, âOkay so Iâm friends with this senior from my org and she had a friend who was seeing Choso, sort of? Anyways I mentioned once that you were replacing him and that youâre a little into him, sorry.â Youâre beckoning her to continue, not caring much for the last part and nodding along.Â
âAnyways, it was like a one night stand thing and â donât get me wrong Iâm not trying to spread rumors or judge,â Another pause, and youâre already on the edge of your seat.Â
âWell? Go on,â You pull her in, arms tangled and clutching her, knee jittering.Â
âI heard he was kinda scared in bed? Like maybe he has a phobia or something.â Your knee stops, and youâre now confused, âItâs just kinda odd âcause the guys like a unit, right?â a crease forms between your brows. âMaybe heâs like⌠a power bottom?â she whispered, tone serious.
Youâre nodding, taking in the information with actual consideration. âPossibly,â Youâre fully facing her now, âYâknowâŚhe is a TA.âÂ
Itâs Miwaâs turn to be confused, struggling to find the correlation. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
You fight the expression trying to pull on your lips, you nibble on the skin then let go, âIâd say heâs good at being told what to do.â
Miwaâs eyes widened, before adding, âTell me when you find out.â A second where youâre both quiet and then youâre being shook by the shoulders, both of you squealing and chortling in your corner. It would be no surprise if youâve caught the attention of other customers with your commotion.Â
She quits with the shaking, now smoothing over the fabric over your shoulders for messing up your top. âSo what are you gonna do about it?â
You canât help but entertain your imagination, âI mean I think Iâm too conscious to be playing around too much.â Your friend nods along, supportive. Past these exciting thoughts, it was all a front for the feelings you struggled to word out, âI really like him, Miwa.â
She parts her lips but as if on cue, another chime from the door rings once more. He stood by the entrance for a brief moment, barely scanning the vicinity when he locked eyes on you, a cheeky grin lighting up his face.Â
***
ââI think they never made any real contact.â
âNo, thatâs definitely up for debate.â
Miwa watches your back and forth, pen in hand. Choso decided to be part of her research sample as well, given that heâs already here, he should make use of his time. And he didnât mind, he liked helping out.Â
If only he could actually speak and answer the questions without you guys debating every time one of you made an opinion on something vaguely related to Miwaâs research topic. At first it was good, your opinions can be added too but now sheâs running out of space in her storage with how long this unintentional joint interview was going.
âOkay guys, the interview questions are about historical revisionism. While I do see the correlation, how did we end up in Egypt andâŚ?â
âAncient Mesopotamia.â Both of you say, completing her sentence.Â
âI can elaborate.â Choso suggests, clearly unable to read between the lines of Miwaâs inquiry.
She stretches in her seat, her legs feeling cramped up with the lack of movement all this time. âYâknow what, Iâll hold you two to that. But first, letâs take a break!â Itâs not even a minute until sheâs out of both your and Chosoâs sights, on the way to the restroom, pen and recorder left on the table.Â
âYâknow, I donât think she likes me that much. I also think sheâs too nice to tell me that.â Youâre in the middle of cracking your neck until youâre moving your attention to him.
âDonât worry too much about it, I think she just isnât up for hearing any more strong opinions on exported textiles.â
âThatâs if they were truly exportedââ You shove his arm, and heâs laughing at your face, not even moved from the push. Heâs pretending to rubbing his bicep in feigned hurt, lifting his arm in the process, almost flexing. You try to ignore how they felt so hard under your fingertips. You check him out unintentionally, taking notice of how the hem of his layered shirt hangs enough to show the lower part of his stomach. Out of respect, you look the other way.
You swallow thickly, ears hot. âI think Iâll get another snack. Want anything to eat?â Youâre already standing up and off the chair, limbs wobbly from the long period of time you spent sitting on the deep arm chair.
Thereâs a sudden burst of noise coming from the entrance of the cafĂŠ, very loud and boisterous. You canât help but let your jittery self get distracted, there stood an entire group of men, looking like they just got off practice. Youâre wondering why one of them looks vaguely familiar, but thereâs a body blocking your view out of nowhere with what you realize is Chosoâs chest.Â
Thereâs an odd, slightly frantic look in his eyes you havenât seen on someone as easygoing as him. âUm, how about I go with you?âÂ
Youâre looking up at him, a little skeptical on why the sudden change of tone, but agree anyways.Â
Youâre in the short line along the display and point out pastries that you could try when a voice calls out to the person beside you. âCho!â
Itâs easier for you to check where itâs coming from as Choso was in front of said voice. You recognize the pink hair from the group coming in earlier. Heâs about 2 inches away from being as tall as Choso, hair damp like he just came from a shower, and a sports bag was strapped across him.Â
A pat on his shoulder signals your dark haired companion to turn, seeing a sight heâd been trying to avoid earlier. Of course he had to be the one ordering for his group.Â
âHey man,â Choso greets, strained, a guard visibly coming up around him.Â
âWhatâs up, you donât say hi to family anymore?â The sentiment, although on paper sounded sweet, in reality was like a taunt. Something you donât wanna dissect to avoid reading into it too much. âWhoâs this?â
You peer over at both of them, their attention now on you. Still unable to read the room, you focus on Choso to see how he wants this to play out. He steps in for you, âYou know her, I mentioned the TA thing like a while back. Sheâs a friend, though she is replacing me.â
 He gestures to the pinketteâs side, introducing him.Â
âMy brother by the way. Same year though.âÂ
Sukuna nods at that and smiles, canines showing. He reaches out with his hand, and you meet it halfway. âRyomen Sukuna.â Huh, heâs not a Kamo.
âPleasure,â Youâre squinting your eyes, thereâs something a little unsettling about him that you canât place, but youâre not trying to jump into that.Â
 âI didnât know Choso had any siblings â ones on campus, no less.â
You let go of his large, callous hands, moving an inch closer to the cashier when the customer before you has their turn to order. âHave 2 terms to catch up with and I donât really see this one around either âcause I did training camp in Barcelona last semester.â
You nod in acknowledgement. Silently, youâre comparing them, unknowingly looking back and forth between him and Choso a little too obviously.Â
âWe donât look related do we?â
 Before you could defend yourself, a dry chuckle beats you to it. âWe get that a lot.â He squeezed where his hand was planted on Choso, who visibly tenses. âDifferent mom, same dad. He doesnât take after him though, if youâre worriedââ
âAlright, I donât think she wants to know about that.â
âSpeak for yourself,â You laugh nervously, trying to ease the tension you could feel multiplying tenfold. He pats Chosoâs shoulder before bringing his hand down to the side, not before looking at the side of his brother's face as he semi-whispered, âAt least one of you doesn't have their panties in a twist.â
âI would if I were wearing mine.â A very long, awkward silence overcomes all three of you. That is until a nearly genuine smile breaks out of Sukunaâs angular features.Â
âHa, what the fuck,â He mutters in amusement, âYouâre both weird, thatâs cute.â A dry chuckle eases the anxiousness you were struggling to place the source of. Though at the cost of your own dignity.
The line to the cashier moves, itâs yours and Chosoâs turn now. Heâs first to leave his brotherâs side, not even bidding him a glance as he moves past you. âNice meeting you,â you voice out, still on edge, Sukuna just nods in acknowledgement.Â
***
Itâs around 6:40pm when Choso walks you to your apartment outside of campus. Thereâs a slight tension in the air that youâre struggling to bring up, itâs been there for the remainder of your meet up, not having said a word since youâve left the cafĂŠ. Youâve been trying to make a move and talk to him but heâs had his eyes on the ground this entire time, rarely up, and definitely never on you.Â
He was about to walk in the pedestrian lane when you tug on his backpack. Heâs caught in the pull, looking up to the red walking signal reflecting on the road. He walks back to stand next to you, still not saying a word. âWhatâre you thinking so hard on?â
For a moment he turned his head to you, a little too quick to not look like he wasnât anticipating you to bring it up yourself. He looks ahead once more when youâre walking now. âIâm sorry about earlier.â
You start to feel a little guilty for not clarifying sooner, wondering if this entire time he thought he shouldâve apologized for something he couldnât control.
âItâs alright, it wasnât unpleasant for me.â
He almost laughs at that, âRight, and I was jumping for joy.â
The air shifts, itâs not so tense anymore, just between that and uncertainty directed at something else entirely. âI felt really dumb earlier.â He adds, looking back down on the pavement. âI couldnât say anything to make him leave us alone.â
Youâre a few blocks nearby to your place, walking a little ahead of him so he could follow you now.Â
âAgain, it wasnât that bad. You donât have to apologize.â Once more, silence fills the space between you both and it feels like youâre unable to remove this weight you feel affecting your interaction.
Now youâre both looking at your feet as you wait for cars to pass the street youâre crossing and for the timer to finally get to zero. Your foot is stepping over a dry leaf to fill in the lack of communication, the sound crunching in the quiet in a loud, distant manner.
âI just kinda get made fun of for acting like thisâweak.â You crane your neck up to meet his eyes, and youâre right to think heâs still looking down. âItâs just annoying how even until now itâs expected of me to bite back on others âcause I look like I should.âÂ
Thereâs a furrow in his brows, and heâs tightly clutching on the strap of his bag. âLike Iâve accepted that, sort of. Iâm already conscious of itâ but maybe people like to pick on me when it's obvious Iâm not gonna do anything.âÂ
Youâre making another turn together, heâs leading with the path heâs familiar with and you follow, his words donât falter. âMaybe âcause it makes them feel less small or some shit â I donât know.â
After processing the words that left him, it brought you back to your conversation with Miwa. How you laughed about his past history with women and how you basically gossiped about his insecurities. Guilt swirls in your stomach, realizing this might just be a little worse than you treated it to be. You keep quiet, deep in your own thoughts, letting him say what he needs to.
âAnd of course my own brother is like that too.â He rants, tracing back to the behavior he displayed earlier. âHeâs my brother and I love him, yes. But frat guys could be such dicks, yâknow? I was like his first practice hazing dummy liteâŚin a way.â
You nod, acknowledging him. âRight, right.â Youâre turning to the street ahead of yours, just about a block away now.
âItâs hard to not let those insecurities take over.â He groans, âI spent so much of my life trying to make my best first impressions, and I feel like it backfires on me with the wrong peopleâI hate that.â Heâs scratching the back of his head. âSometimes I just wish I looked normal. That way I wouldnât literally feel like the elephant in the room.â
At that, you turn almost as if youâd heard the worst take in your life, brows scrunching. âNormal?â
He shakes his head, âYes, normal. Like I can wear normal shoes and sit on couches normally.â
âI like that youâre not.â You say, insensitively. âI mean youâre not not normal. But I likeâŚit.â You slow down, trying to backtrack on what you just let slip.Â
Heâs blinking down on you, a look of surprise etched on his slowly flushing face. ââŚWhy?âÂ
Your breath is caught in your throat, not knowing how else to explain it. Â No going back. Remember?Â
 âI feel safe, even if you donâtâŚbite back. And on top of that youâre kind. I think that matters a lot.âÂ
Choso stares at you like you just grew a tree on your head, but in truth, heâs just trying to tone down his elation. âReally?â He asks dumbly, already cursing himself in his head for looking like he wants to hear you call him that again. Safe.
You dip your head, agreeing once more. âIâm a girl so I may be a little biased but if I were also a little taller, I wouldnât have to deal with some idiot guys trying something on me, and I could also defend myself easier.âÂ
âOh yeahâYes, that's totally different from my problems.â He clarified, trying to catch himself from sounding ungrateful. You watch the way his expressions shifts from blank to stressed and bite back a smile. âThereâs obviously people with worse problems than being bigger than a doorway.â Heâs looking down and pushing his glasses up, almost ashamed.Â
You turn to the road leading up to your street, your apartment just at the end of it. âIs that like 6â3 orâŚâ
âHuh?â He meets your inquisitive eyes, âUh, just a little more.â He replied, shying away from your stare. Youâre thinking about all the objects that could possibly match up to Chosoâs figure.Â
âThose chillers they got in 7â11?â
âHm, nope. Like 2 inches more, maybe.â
Your stomach does a flip you had to ignore, âYouâre lying. Six foot six?â
âWithout shoes, yes.â He nodded, met with you side-eyeing him. âWell youâre free to go with me to my annual checkups and see.â He defends, a smile finally appearing on his face at your skepticism.
You squint, stopping yourself from looking too excited with the many, unbecoming thoughts storming your brain. âIâll hold onto that.âÂ
Shortly after, you find yourself standing in front of the building to your apartment. âIâm sorry about dumping all that on you, It was a lot.â He looks around before letting out a barely there sigh, âIâll get going nowââ
âAre you forgetting?â You look back and Chosoâs standing stiffly, feet planted on the ground. âWeâreâŚstudying, remember?â
Chosoâs throat bobs at your sly tone, convincing himself there is nothing behind it. Â âYou did a lot today I just thought we were tiredââ
âWe donât have to study then.â Youâre looking around and thinking to yourself before landing back on his face, âI mean you came all the way here, you could come up and have some tea?â
The notion has his chest puffing out to regulate the way his heart started beating like its pounding from behind his sternum. He doesnât say anything, his eyebrows raise behind his glasses, his usually sleepy eyes now wide. He nodded and let out a strained, âOkay.â
***
The door to your apartment swings open with a loud creak. The lights switch on, a warm white cascades from the ceilings.Â
Your keys make a clinking noise against the ceramic jewelry tray you leave on the dresser by the entrance. The door is wide open, you feel Choso trailing behind a couple steps away.Â
Heâs standing kinda stiffly, âDo I take my shoes off orââ
Youâre shaking your head, stepping aside to let him in. âMy neighbors are kinda sticklers for people who leave their shoes outside in the halls.â He walks past the doorway, head craned down. Itâs supposed to look like he was trying to avoid getting hit by the frame of it, though heâs only finding a way to hide his face naturally.
He picked his head up when he heard clanking from the kitchen which meant that you were inside. âI hope youâre not allergic to pollen? I like to put honey in mine.â You ask, your voice still clear as the space isnât big at all, but in his head itâs distant. Heâs trying to calm himself down, taking in your apartment.Â
Itâs small, kitchen tight and youâve no space for a table. You use the counter as one, your bed, desk, and sofa all in the same space. However, the lack of furniture made it wide, the âliving roomâ taking the least space with just a little coffee table and the tv on the floor as the only decor.Â
âYou didnât say anything so I didnât add any honey.â He finds himself turning on his feet when heâs met by your figure, coming from the kitchen with twoâ red and yellow âmugs. You hand him the yellow one, he takes it with a âthanksâ. You make a move to sit on the couch, trying to get cozy. Chosoâs still standing, sipping on his cup awkwardly.
âYou can sit if you want.â Chosoâs eyes flick over to you. You realize he had shed his bag on the entrance, still it looks like something is weighing on him.
âIâm okay, I might launch you out of itââ
âSit with me.â You pat the spot beside you on the couch, your fawn-like eyes up at him.Â
It turns his legs into jelly. Thoroughly convinced, he sits beside you, trying to be as careful as he can so the side of the couch doesnât sink to his weight too much.
He winced at the audible sound of the springs under the cushions, âSorry.âÂ
Quietly, you assess him. How stiffly he sat, how much of the seat he took up despite keeping himself at the edge of it. If he sat back, would his knee brush against yours? Though you feel a little bad for taking advantage of his reactiveness towards you. However, something deep inside you is undeniably excited with the thought.Â
On the other hand, Choso feels like heâs watching himself act in third person, deliberating what part of his body he should move next to not look too obnoxious or stiff. He doesnât know if he should just let the silence pass till he runs out of tea, or maybe till it turns lukewarm. You shift in your seat, he feels your gaze heavy on him. You donât say anything, you just stare at the side of his face. His throat bobs.
He looks over to you for a split second and meets your eyes, you raise your brows at him, a smirk growing on your sweet face.Â
An anxious laugh bubbles from his throat, the tips of his ears tinging red. âI think youâre aware of how youâre making me nervous.âÂ
You couldnât stop the way the smirk spreads into a wide smile. âI was thinking of how to get you to talk, is all.â You tilt your head to the side, checking out how the light from your room lamp makes his jaw seem sharper. His hair nearly fell on his shoulders, built and perched with his elbows on his knees, posture a little hunched, but he still sat taller than you. Nothing short of tempting in your eyes.
He follows your gaze, âWhat?â
âYouâre also thinking of something.â
His brows pinch, he hates how good you are at prodding at him when he clearly doesnât know what to say. âIâm always thinking.â
You nod, âAnd still, you havenât said anything since we went up.â
Choso pauses his already stiff self. You place your mug down, crossing your legs on the couch. He brings his attention back to you but youâre already intently looking at him. He flinches back.
Sighing, âWhat do you think Iâm thinking about?â You purse your lips, shrugging at his question. He shakes his head, a smile fighting its way on his face.
 âThen Iâm happy you only brought me here to drink some tea.â A roll of his eyes comes out of sarcasm, reaching for his own mug on the table, stretching his arm out.Â
Heâs about to pull his hand back when your smaller one lands on top of his. The contact would have made him drop the glass into little pieces if it werenât for the coffee table underneath. He lets down the cup, missing the coaster you laid out.Â
âThatâs my mugâŚ.â You point at the red cup in his grasp, yours. You let the words linger like the pads of your fingers on the back of his hand, âHm, youâre really warm.â
He blinks, unable to ground himself back to reality because maybe, maybe youâre trying to make a move on him. Heâs unable to look into your eyes,Â
âUh,â He falters, the warmth on his cheeks multiply and spread out when you inch closer, the warmth of your own body makes him feel like heâs overheating.Â
âHow else could I get you to go up with me?â You say, goading another reaction out of him.Â
âI-I mean you could just ask andâŚI wouldnât say no,â Youâre closer to his face nowâtoo close. But youâre still not looking at eye level â not close enough.Â
âI think Iâve done a lot just to be around you, Cho.â He almost melts at how the stupid nickname his brother calls him sounded so good coming from your honeyed lips. Choso gulps, audible and embarrassing in the silence of your apartment.Â
He started off this conversation on the edge of the couch, somehow it feels like youâve backed him into it.
âYâknow, the TA stuff, asking to studyâdo we look like weâre studying now?â Your arm skates over his hand, up his arm, the touch leaving goosebumps in their wake.
You watch how his jaw all but clenches at the feeling, a newfound confidence makes you unbelievably giddy, driving you to push more. âBut what I wanna know is,â
He feels like heâs running out of breath before he could utter a word when your palm lands up on his hard chest, feeling for the erratic thumping of his heartbeat underneath the fabric of his shirt.
Your head is craned up, lashes bat at him, âWhat are you willing to doâŚ?â
Heâs looking deeply into your eyes, searching for the answer to your question, not realizing how his neck is craning down at your height in return. Several beats pass â he feels a tug on his shirt and then heâs closing the distance between your lips.Â
He whines on the soft, wet skin, sucking gently, eyes falling shut. His hand finds your cheek, the other reaching for your side when you tangle your arms around his neck. The pace is hungry yet fervent, tugging and melting against the other. You pull away slowly, lips parting from each other wetly. Youâre smacking your own lips before smiling up at Choso, giggling.Â
His eyes are hazy, glasses crooked out of place. His hands are covering your back and smoothing over your clothes, âI can do anythingâ whatever you want.âÂ
If you werenât already grinning wide enough, now youâre fully Cheshire-like. Pushing yourself closer towards him, âAnything?â He nods eagerly, youâre pulling him in, hungry.Â
His hand is on the back of your neck now, holding. Thereâs something about his touch that feels like itâs keeping you together without feeling too possessive. Caring with a dash of hesitance. One youâre looking to break through tonight.
Your lips travel down his neck, leaving hot, lingering kisses along his throat. âOh, mmh-â He bites his lip immediately after nearly letting out the low noise from chest, eyes shutting when you find the particularly sensitive spot on his neck. You feel his fingers dig rougher on your hips, youâre on your knees now, determined to cover every inch of him in your touch. Your weight falls on him when he tugs you, the hands planted on his shoulders squeeze out of instinct.
âYou good? I-I didnât mean to, ahââ He tried to move his head away from your persistent lips, but a shiver that runs through him stops his actions. Youâre sucking on his skin, humming proudly, undettered from your little slip. His hands brush down your sides, they plant themselves lower on your waist.
You plant kisses all the way back to his chin then meet his lips again. Youâre eye level, a sinister glint in your eyes. You stick your tongue out, half lidded gaze and staring right at him â brushing the wet, pink muscle along Chosoâs bottom lip, teasing. Heat rushes on his face, blood rushes on his crotch. Youâre killing him.
You suck on the pink flesh, tugging then letting go, heâs pulling you in closer by the back of your neck. He wants you on him, mind unable to decide how â just everywhere is fine. You drop your palm down between your bodies and on the garter of Chosoâs sweats, feeling for the hardness underneath.
He hissed as your fingers brushed what would be his shaft, âUm, sorry, can we make out a little I thinkâŚâ He holds your head closer to his face, breaths mingling as you catch them. âIâll get less hardâ nervous, I think. Sorry,â You hummed in agreement before landing back on the flushed skin of his mouth, quieting him down with your lips.
You giggle against him, chasing as he squirms, palms settling on his shoulders. You pull off him with a peck, feet planting back on the carpeted floors. Choso now sat far into the couch, slacked with legs spread. His mouth parts as you start undressing, stripping off into your underwear.Â
He sizes you up and down, taking in your soft, bare skin, your strapless bra and cotton panties under the warm lights of your apartment. It elicits a heavy throb under his pants. Chosoâs breathing feels uneven and the air grows thinner when you settle back on the couch, only now between his spread out legs.
 Youâre steadying yourself, his hands find a place on your warm, now bare skin. You smooth over the wide expanse of his chest, then land on his neck, even warmer than you. âThis okay?â You ask, to which he only replies with a nod.Â
Youâre about to lean into him when he reaches for his glasses, but you stop him before he tries to pry the piece of metal off. âThey stay on.â
His breath catches in his throat, stomach dipping. A part of him heâs not quite sure whether he wanted to acknowledge, liked when you tell him what to do.
 He lets his hand fall, you adjust the rims on the bridge of his nose. âYouâre so pretty.â Youâre holding his face with both hands, tilting it upwards to you. A lopsided grin appears on his face at the comment, eyes shying away and down from your face and to the body on him. Â
âThanks- Thank you,â He replied poorly. His palm skated from your waist and to your back, laying above the clip of your bra. His lips are caught between his teeth as he takes in the feel of your skin against him, he looks up. âYouâre awfully pretty as well.â
He was never good at expressing himself,only with what he was sure of. But this was new, you pushing, him taking, it was all new. But he meant every word he said to you. He leaned in to catch your lips against his. Fuck, if only you could tell how much he meant it.
Heâs slotting his tongue in between your parted mouth, leaning further in and youâre falling back, but heâs catching you â keeping you to him. You work together smoothly, as smooth as silks rubbing against each other. You clutch on to him tightly as if heâll slip if you donât. You taste like jasmine tea and heâs wondering if the sweet taste is from the honey or just you. Heâs holding you by the neck and pushing your back into him.Â
You finally move to settle on his lap, the kiss unwavering so youâre first to pull away, âChosoââ He catches the sound of his name in your mouth, chasing, taking, and taking. There isnât any place on your body that isnât covered by him, your arms, your back, your legs in between his that caged you. You moan at the thought against his greedy tongue, entirely consumed. But youâre impatient and already wet, the fabric of your panties has been riding up for the last 10 minutes. So you squeeze his arms weakly, but itâs enough for him to let air flow between you.
âShit, Sorryââ Heâs frantic and searching your eyes, but heâs met with your hazed out ones and your swollen, drooly lips. He wiped the corner of it, chest heaving. âI need toâ youâre driving me insane,â He chuckles, deep and uncertain with how true the fact felt. Heâs brushing your hair back gently, âIâm sorry,â he lets go of you as youâre pulling away.
Youâre upright now, letting your feet back down. Youâre bending over to his lap, palms resting on his spread out limbs, âYou need to make it up to me,â Youâre once again reaching for his sweats, the imprint of his shaft taking form at the side. He gently lays his hand on your wrist.
 âAre you sure?â His eyes are wide, pupils dilated, the frames of his glasses are now on the tip of his nose bridge. But thereâs a wave of genuine uncertainty blanketing his expression.
Youâre blinking up at him, âWhy wouldnât I be?â
Itâs a tangled knot in his chest, one bundled in embarrassing moments and unsuccessful hook-ups. He stuttered over his words,
âJust that before Iâve-â he pondered if he should risk you laughing at him, but youâre expectantly looking into his eyes, and your hands are already on his lap, a little more and youâd be right where heâs aching for you. âIâm scared of making itâŚunpleasant?âÂ
His hand rubs up and down your arms, youâre tuning him out and thinking of how you should go about sitting on him. He continued to ramble on, âUm, like Iâve been told it wasâŚâ
âToo big?â You ask, attention now on him. Externally youâre collected, stating it like a remark. But internally you know itâs a fact. You feel a little bad thinking about it but now youâre piecing together your earlier conversation on what Miwaâs friendâs friend mightâve been complaining about.Â
Choso all but nods, eyes scanning your room as if that would keep yours away from him. âI could just help you, yâknow. We donât have toââ
Youâre turning over and maneuvering his hand out of his lap, sitting on his thigh. For a moment, youâre a little hesitant, hovering. âI mean Iâd like it if we did, but Iâm alsoâŚâ His words trail off, holding your hip and securing you on his lap, unbothered as your weight settles on one thigh. He clears his throat, âIâm okay with, um, anything.â
Youâre leaning into him, on your side, hand trailing underneath the hem of his shirt, grazing his clenched abdomen. He jolts, causing you to jump in your seat. Your eyes widen for a moment before relaxing, hand skating lower under the garter of his sweats with a simpering grin on your face. Youâre kissing his cheek, gentle and slow as your hand palms over his hard, covered cock.
Heâs watching your move under the fabric of his gray sweats, feeling your smaller fingers squeezing and rubbing the base of it. It hurts, he thinks. In a way that something stings and feels good at the same time. Youâre squeezing at his tip when he throws his head back on the couch, groaning loudly. You take the opportunity to mouth on his neck again.Â
âCan you pleaseâ Can I please take it off?â He asks politely, but the grip on your hip feels anything but. You hum, still licking at the expanse of his neck.Â
Youâre pulling his pants down with his helpâmostly him just taking it off himself, desperate and aching. Heâs bare from the waist down now when you settle back on his thigh, sweats and boxers discarded on the floor.Â
Youâre now shamelessly gawking at his erection bouncing against stomach, slapping against it. The warmth of your hand catches him off guard, finally making contact skin to skin. You tug on the shaft, immediately taking notice of how your fingers struggle to close around it and were squeezing on accident.
âFâoh, god. â He rests his head on your shoulder, sweat building on his forehead. You start moving your hand up and down, already slippery from how heâd been oozing in his boxers the entire time. Heâs quiet behind you, save for the heavy breathing on your skin. You go faster. âYour handâs so tight,â it comes out in a whimper. A wet, mouthing sensation can be felt on your shoulder, heâs biting your skin to muffle himself. But It doesnât work, his throat lets loose with each reaction.
 His eyes roll up from your shoulder when he feels you lean forwards and away from his chest, cock twitching when a wet glob of spit drips on him from your tongue.
Youâre both watching your hand work up and down, bringing both onto the shaft, heâs cursing as you go faster.Â
Youâre throwing your other leg over his thigh, straddling him in reverse, before resting back on him. Choso's hands come up to hold you under your knees, keeping your legs apart. He watched as the movement stretched the fabric, pussy still clad in underwear, drenched and barely covering it. But he canât help but peek lower, your hands exclusively paying attention to his erection.Â
You joke, âItâs like I'm jerking myself off.â
A deep chuckle rumbles from his chest, the vibrations thrum against your back and you turn them into moans as you suddenly go faster. âSucks though, I canât feel it.âÂ
Youâre unable to see his expression behind you, but you can hear how his moans are muffled between his teeth, âYouâre s-so eager.â
You reveled at how shaky heâd sounded. âOne of us has to be.â
And then a strange noise akin to the tearing of fibers can be heard from below. You gasp as it happens in front of you, hands slowing its ministrations. You realize youâre watching him rip your underwear, exposing your wet, shiny pussy. âHeyââ
 Heâs adjusting himself from under you, bringing his other hand under your thigh, your legs tugged higher as he starts rubbing right on your clit.Â
Heâs rough and accurate on where he wants to touch you, deliberate in his movements. Heâs quick but he isnât rushing either, his only motive was to get you to falter in his stead as you were doing just the same.
Your voice shrinks into breathy pants, the slick sound from your poor clit syncing in with each, âAh, ah, Choââ
âYouâre making me so, so hard, babyââ Youâre both an obscene sight to behold, playing with each other, spread out, grunting or whimpering. Both sloppily still trying to let your lips tangle with each other despite the inconvenient position. Both a mess, your tits spilling out of your bra, and his glasses all fogged up.Â
You grind into him, âFeels so good,â rubbing your juices on the cock youâre jerking with now one hand, coating his chubby length. Your body felt like it was on overdrive, moving your hips up and down as you clenched on nothing, gushing freely.Â
Youâre biting your lip as your hips grow erratic, brows pinching and your abdomen clenches on itself. âI-Iâm close.â
Choso lets a groan escape,âFuck, really?â realizing heâs making you come first. Itâs a miracle heâs held off this long, he wonders if heâll hold up if you let him inside. The thought makes him move your hips on his cock, assisting you as you use him to get yourself off.Â
He doesnât know if heâs breathing so hard because heâs getting tired or because he knows getting your clit rubbed nudges you a little closer to the edge when you start to get louder. He breathes against your ear, âCome on me, please.â Heâs mumbling now, less at you and more to himself. âI wanna see you cum on me, please, pleaseââ
Your legs begin to shake in his hold, fighting to shut close but the grip under your knees forces you to come with your legs spread wide, pussy making a show of spasming against Chosoâs cock, voice breaking as you whimper. âThatâs it baby, thatâs it,âÂ
Choso is completely enamored, the sounds of your high pitched whines in the air was like music to him, the way you writhe against his body was this entrapping dance. He couldnât keep his eyes off you.
He notes how you were still in your bra, he whispers something about it, but youâre just nodding your head with your eyes shut, riding it out. Then heâs unclipping the strap with one hand, the fabric falling off and releasing your perfect tits.
You then relax your back to him, twitching still. But then heâs thrusting his erect cock up between your folds, the stimulation starting to make you wetter again, your breath can only catch up so fast. Youâre attempting to lift your hips with a squirm.âGi-give me a secââ
Choso quickly lets your legs fall to the side and pauses, sitting up and moving your head to face him. âShit- we can stop here,â he assured, breathy and worried. âI didnât mean to, I was just looking at you. You looked-â So fucked out, âIâm sorry.â
âSh-shut up,â You look away and Choso stiffens under you. Was he too rough? Before he could even utter another apology, you spoke, âIâm fine, I just need toâ breathe.âÂ
He watches you quiet down from underneath you, heâs rubbing your thighs comfortingly. âI am sorry,â The silence lingers, only getting tenser with each beat that passes.
And then you start chuckling â at nothing in particular. Your breathing slows down, and you look back to check on him. He looked so worried, brows pinched and his lip jutted out. A lazy smile breaks into your features, leaning down to catch him in a chaste kiss so he wouldn't see the expression on your face. âI liked it, okay?â
His breath hitched in his throat when you spoke against his lips, âYeah?âÂ
Youâre nodding, smile now exposed. You kiss him again, powerless against his sweet lips. He relaxes, hand coming up to the back of your head. âI wanna-â A kiss, âFuck you now,â A slower kiss, âPlease.â
Heâs backing up to read your face, reassessing. Within the silence, something passes between you two. Amidst the air that smells of sex and vaguely of tea, thereâs this mix of warmth and uncertaintyâand whether or not to dive in it â that lingers in between.Â
Heâs nervous under your gaze, once again, looking for a way out of your eyes that traps him so effectively like no other. Heâs looking down at his still, very much, erect self. âI donât have a condom.â
Youâre thinking to yourself before you reach for the side table of your couch, scrambling for a box you kept there in case.
Chosoâs scrambling to rip the plastic off before fishing for one packet. âIâm not really sure if it would fit so, maybe just try it,â You remark as youâre being maneuvered out of his lap and on the side of the couch. He fumbled with the rubber a couple times, pulling it down before it snapped a little too tightly on his girth. He tugs it down on him until a tear starts spreading on the side of the translucent material.Â
âIâm sorââ He hissed as it snapped against his skin, âSee I canât even fuckingâŚI donât think this is quite rightââ Heâs cursing to himself, obviously a little sexually frustrated. For someone his size he still managed to look somewhat like a defeated puppy.Â
Youâre tugging the broken thing off, relief blooming in his chest but itâs short lived as heâs reminded of how he might not even have sex with you anymore. âBut no, we really donât have to.â He says, discouraged.Â
âYou can fuck me raw, Iâm on the pill.â He internally groaned, pulled back out of his head. You just had a way with your words.Â
He does a complete 180, eyes widening, shifting from beaten to optimistic. He reminds himself to curb his excitement though, slowing down. âYou can be on topâset the pace?â Youâre already moving to sit on his lap.
Heâs nodding his head at you, and finally rips his shirt off himself, now completely naked. Youâre staring down at him, licking your lips at the sight of his milky skin and toned chest. He pulls you out of your thoughts, voice small and distant.Â
âIâll pull out, yeah?â Heâs swallowed back thickly, more of reminding himself to do that. âJust be slow okay? I didnât prepare you that welâum,"
His voice trails off when youâre already lining yourself up with his reddened tip. âA little at a timeâOh,â Youâre already sinking down, unrepressed.Â
The stretch is long and constant, to the point it feels like youâre rethinking how fast you jumped on this, except you remember youâre already lowering yourself very carefully.Â
Your jaw hangs open in a silent scream when you get past the head, sinking lower, your walls throb against his member. Youâre bracing yourself with a palm, Chosoâs chest is covered in sweat and heaving. âYouâre soââs really tight, oh fuck youâre so warm,â He whined out, unable to complete a sentence.
Heâs leaving a trail of hot, open mouthed kisses on your neck and then back on your lips to keep your mewls at bay. Youâre kissing back, heâs only half way in when you start moving. Chosoâs breaths turn ragged against yours, pulling you closer to him. You catch your breath, âItâs stretching me out so much, Choo-â You whine, slowly rolling your hips.
Heâs squeezing your waist before trailing his hands down your ass, âYouâre doing good, youâre doing really good.â
Heâs looking down at your progress, struggling to tell where you ended and he begun, now nearer to the base of his cock. He throbs inside you. âFuck, a-are you okay?â Heâs looking back up at your face, taking in your lips, bitten and swollen under your teeth.Â
He lets out a shaky whimper, âYouâre taking so much.â His eyes finding their way back to your hole swallowing him. âSo good, baby.â
You tuck your feet over his thighs for leverage, pulling off his cock slowly then sinking back down, and back up. You repeat the motions, torturously slow, your slick creating this lewd noise from each rock of your hips as you go deeper. Chosoâs hands are on your thighs, weighing you down but heâs really holding back from actively pushing â still youâre sinking, taking more.Â
You start to bounce, struggling to hold yourself up with your palm on his chest, the slight sting of the stretch dulling out to a deep pressure. Itâs a lot easier now, you go even faster with the help of your growing arousal slicking up his cock. Every touch you leave on each other now feels highly sensitive, your tits pressed against Chosoâs hard chest, his hands squeezing on your ass for dear life. Youâre left unable to keep up conversations or teases to each other now, heads completely in a different space. You're left babbling incoherencies as your tingling nerves derail your focus, the only thing clear was to go after what felt good.Â
But you falter, your knees slowing as they start to ache but you push yourself further, desperate, taking even more of Chosoâs length. You find yourself losing balance and lean over, panting. You lift your hips, then let your ass fall back into his lap, a strained mewl leaving your throat, âI-I need help. I need you, Choâneed you tâa fuck my pussy,âÂ
He groans out at how high your voice got, fresh from its suppressed whines. âOkay Iâll help,â Heâs quick with his hands, holding you by the globes of your ass, and pulls you up. He bites back a noise, hearing and feeling your tight pussy gush and clamp on him as he lifts until itâs just the tip. âsâ okay if I thrust a little?â He whispers against your ear, growing desperate as his cock pulses in anticipation. You nod fervently in his neck, arms circled around him. âOkay baby, Iâm gonna. Iâm gonna help this pussy- fuckkkâÂ
Itâs noisier now, from your skin, sticky and slapping against each other, to your gasps turning into moans against each otherâs open mouths. Chosoâs now taking all the work, lifting your ass and bringing it down to meet his aching cock even faster than you could have. He starts meeting your pussy half way, thrusting up wards and it knocks the wind out of you.
Moans spill out of you with each thrust up, breaking and then bursting out of you. Youâre clinging to him, bodies impossibly close, skin rubbed up against skin. âYouâre so fucking loud, honeyâdo you like it?â His groans turn into grunts with how heâs physically exerting his body, on a mission to see you break apart on top of him.
You reply with a noise of acknowledgment, barely audible amongst the slapping and heavy breathing. Youâre body feels hot all over, from inside and out. Heâs deep enough inside you in places you didnât even know was possible to go that far in, and the best worst part is you havenât even reached the base of him yet. A new objective makes itself known in the part of your brain that still functioned, a dimly flickering idea.Â
âCh-choso can you, nghââ Youâre bringing your face out of his neck to face him, but heâs still busying himself with his thrusts, âI want you deeper, c-could you do that fâme?â
Heâs letting out a high pitched whine he when lets you down, about to throw his head back when you catch his lips in yours, tugging on his hair and pulling roughly. âYouâre stronger than me Cho, câmon. Make me cum on your big cockââ
He groans, planting his feet on the ground, before you know it youâre up in the air, now standing. You cut yourself off with a moan, both of you do âsighing out when he lifts your ass up before dropping you on his painfully hard cock. âYouâre so filthy when you talk, yâknow that?â
It feels like he's all the way to your lungs when he finally bottoms out in you, which would make sense since it feels like you arenât breathing anymore. You cry out once more, wiling your eyes and muffling the noises in his neck, biting down. âAre you crying?â He asks, concern prodding between his excitement, but the thought manages to make itâs way to his cock, fucking you on him rhytmically slow and deep. You let out a choked sob, âFuck youâre cryingânot even going that fast.â
âThen g-go faster,â You managed to voice out between moans, your hips wiggling in his grasp. He groans in response, kneading your ass to stop you from getting ahead of him.
âYou tell me if itâs too much- just, you have to tell me a-alright?â Youâre clenching on him, still trying to bounce. âShit, Okay.âÂ
The slower sounds of your skin slapping each other turn into rapid, sharp sounds. Choso grunting from each thrust, now fully unrepressed. In seconds, the image youâve crafted of him as this shy, hesitant boy, crumbles. Youâre fully moaning out now, his cock nudging deeper and repeatedly in that spot that triggers your insides. âIâm so full, fuck-â
Heâs hiccuping his moans out, turning into whimpers as he pumps you up and down even faster, his nails digging into the meat of your ass. âYouâre taking me so good baby,â Heâs thrusting up when he lets you fall on his cock midway, his muscles forgetting to strain. âFuck, take it, take itââÂ
He dives in against your lips, tongue invading your whimpering mouth. You try your best to kiss back, eyes nearly closing while heâs drowning you in him. Youâre clenching on his cock a lot tighter now, his balls drenched in your arousal, slapping against your other hole from the impact of his motions.
âI think IâIâm gonna cum-â You pull away from Choso who lets out a breathy moan, licking your lips to chase yours. Youâre falling limp against him, hips rendered useless when heâs already fucking you on a pace outside of your own stamina.Â
Your insides are pulsing around his member, your moans growing even louder. Chosoâs deep enough into you when he feels his cock twitch, âI need to pull outââ Youâre immediately protesting, letting out noises of disapproval. âNo, no baby Iâm gonna cum if youââ
âI donât care.â Fuck. Choso holds himself back, his pre-cum oozing out makes your sopping hole even more slippery at the thought of filling you up to the brim. Heâs thinking of ways to keep himself from cumming right this very second when youâre already so fucked out and desperate, high up in your own head.
His dick twitches again and heâs biting his lip, slowing his carry on your body til youâre stopping altogether. Before you could say anything else, heâs pulling out and placing you on the couch, lying down. Youâre complaining, spreading your legs as much as the cushions on your side could let you.Â
Chosoâs holding his cock, squeezing at the base to calm himself down but he opens his eyes to your gaping, hungry hole, presented to him like an offer, âC-cum inside me, Cho,â
His resolve breaks within a blink of an eye, already laying above you and wrapping your legs around his waist. You feel like crying out of joy when he finally makes his way inside, thrusting slowly and hissing from how tight you still are. âI need to be on top of you, I need toââ He mumbled, eyes already hazed out and clambering for satiation.
He topples over you as he finds his balance, now setting a newer pace from earlier, caging you with his body while his thrusts grow even faster.
The sensation is much more different now, a stretch added with the forces of his thrusts now fully landing on you.
Heâs watching every twist of your face and moan spill out. Scanning your body downwards while he lays a palm on your lower abdomen, âIf I cum inside youâre gonna bulge right h-here, dâ ya want that?â
Youâre squealing against him when he presses down, his cock nudging where heâs digging his fingers from the outside. Your walls flutter against his member, sucking him in and pulsing wetly. Chosoâs grunting against you, hips growing faster as he watches your eyes get even more hazy and your face twisted.
Your eyes are rolling back when he starts rubbing on your clit, already impatient with wanting to feel your pussy tighten impossibly around him.
Heâs whispering incoherencies to you, face on your neck when he pulls back his hips and pushes back in deeply as he continues rubbing you.Â
You cry out, shuddering against Choso as the coil in you snaps, holding onto his wrist as your legs secured against his ribs.
He lets out a shaky moan, pumping faster when he chases his orgasm while you ride yours out on him, bodies grinding up against each other intimately.Â
A curse lets you know that heâs finally reached his climax, thrusts growing slow and deep while pumping you full of his sticky cum. Your eyes are glossed over, your throat sore from your own voice when heâs riding out his high, panting and leaving kisses all over your face.Â
Your chests are pumping against each other, both catching your breaths. Your hand finds its way to his face, turning it so he could look back at you. His cheeks are red and his glasses were no longer on him, probably losing them from how much youâd been switching positions.Â
Youâre brushing his hair from his face, tucking a long strand onto his ear. Your body still feels like itâs on fire but it doesnât compare to how even after all that, his stare on you still makes your heart skip a beat. You let out a breath, gathering yourself.
 âWhat do you think?â His eyes scans over your face, âBetter than coming up to study?â
Choso shifts on his elbows as heâs laying on top of you.âYeah that wasâŚâ He takes a moment to think of a better way to describe it, a smile spreading on his face. âReally good.â He settles with honesty instead.
Heâs thumbing over your shoulder, a hundred thoughts trying to materialize themselves in his still mushed up brain. âIâve never done it like that, before I mean.âÂ
Heâs looking up to meet your eyes, and youâve got a glow emitting from you, drawing him in. He hesitates for a moment but then, âAnd you? Howâd you feel?â
You huff out a soft chuckle, realizing how ironic this all was. How youâve still managed to not destroy the awkwardness that came with affections even when youâve skipped over to, well sex. Choso waits for your answer, something swirls tight in his chest, uneasy but still patient.Â
Youâre brushing back the hair on his scalp, taking in how much less guarded he looks without glasses. âYeah, I feelâŚsafe.â
He smiles, that knot in his chest untangling. To no surprise, he finds the thread itâs bundled from may be connected to you. âYeah?â
You nod, smiling, âYeah.â
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