Now you can be a better man for your brand new girl.
CW: Angst, no comfort
In hindsight, you should’ve seen it coming. You HAD to have seen it coming. It was all your fault. You never treated any relationship like a relationship but more like a mentorship where you always putting yourself in the mentor place. It was the only way you knew how to show care and love, by giving advices and scoldings. It reminded of 9th grade when your best friend decided to end the friendship because you advised her to stay away from a certain group of boys who were straight up delinquents. “You SUFFOCATE me.”She had shouted on the top of her lungs in the school cafeteria. Now it was different yet so similar. You had helped your new boyfriend with his emotions issues. He had difficulties managing them. He would take criticism as small as it was so bad it could sour his mood for the rest of the week. On the other hand a sliver of praise could make him lift mountains. “Your smile is enough to keep me going.” He had shared with you once in the privacy of your shared bed, with heavy eyes and a lovesick grin. You had decided to take matters into your own hands. You took the initiative of finding him a therapist that would help pin point why he reacted like that. “Your emotions are eating you away my love. I hate to see you unhappy because of a few words.” You whispered to him” You have to change for you. If you ever have to deal with some insensitive jerk or even… your next girlfriend .” You hesitated. That was the conversation you had 3 months ago and sure you were seeing results. But you weren’t sure if does were results or your boyfriend just loosing interest. If you were being honest you were starting to miss his emotions. Rather that than the silence that found you as you came back home every night for the last few weeks. And as you took it upon you to surprise your boyfriend with a treat delivered straight to his job, you were greeted with a gut wrenching scene and a familiar feeling in your stomach. “Your smile is enough to keep me going”. Here was your boyfriend saying that to another woman. She retorted with a “your girl doesn’t know how good she head it having an expressive man like you”. With that you left the building. No tears. Just ugly thoughts of eternal loneliness. You arrived at your house pretty fast and decided to leave without a warning. It was a cowards move but to hell bravery. You just left a note: “your smile is going to keep me going. take care baby. PS: i hope you guys are truly happy”.
it’s not very good but it’s something I had to get out of me. Was thinking of Bokuto while writing this but it can be anyone that fits the description . Very inspired by Lynette Scavo. Thanks for the likes on the last one 💕
