#chow.ask

[mechowow]

hey dia do you have a type?

"This prompted me to make a diagram, complete with little pictures of them all. I believe this answers the question incredibly well. Any questions?"

[mechowow]

Do you not think it’s telling that despite him changing entirely and not hating anyone else like he used to he still hates Mav?

"No, I don't, in fact.

Walking in on Paenit taking that swing at Mavrik proved that Paenit did not, in fact, change as much as he or anyone else thinks. He got bigger and better at controlling that part of him.

....There are very few people alive that I trust more than my Dad. Mavrik is one of those people. There is absolutely nothing you can say or do that would make me believe he deserved to get hit."

[mechowow]

Care to elaborate on came back wrong, Dia?

"Sure.

Everything.

The Festur I knew wasn't very strong, but he was pretty explosive. I liked that. I liked his explosive passion. It was admirable. He was quick on his feet, full of life. He blurted his thoughts constantly and wasn't afraid to take up space. He was loud. He was wild. He was intense.

I don't know this Festur. I still care about him, because he's mine to care about, and I won't let this second chance slip away. But...he's...different. Exhausted constantly. There's no anger, no fire in his chest or his eyes. He's quiet, he's mellow. Dying muted all the bright parts of him. He thinks more than he speaks. And fuck- he's so strong now. I don't even think he realizes how strong he is. I have no idea why he's so...strong. He grabbed my wrist the other day so I wouldn't grab the hot part of the pan and it...it was kinda scary how strong it was.

I'm not...comfortable with these parts of him. I miss the guy who tripped over a bucket and kicked it through a window. I miss the guy who lived bold and loud and explosive, who acted first and thought later. I know he's hiding things from me. I know he's not being entirely honest. I guess I don't want to confront it...because it's something he would've done before he died. Keeping secrets because he thinks he knows better. It's the only shred of the Fes I knew that I have.

I love him anyways. Fuck, someone has to love him. It's unsettling, but I'll grow used to it. Eventually."

[mechowow]

What about Mondes titties

"What titties?"

[mechowow]

Hey Dia, if you could physically travel back in time for just one minute to tell your past self not to do something they're about to do, what moment would you pick?

“Theoretically, everything I’ve done has lead up to this. To what I have now. I wouldn’t have met any of my quads had I not gone into the Fleet. If I never met Fes, never would’ve gone into the Fleet, never would’ve met my quads.

Yes, a lot of it sucked ass. All of it sucked ass, actually. But things are looking….pretty okay now. Maybe the grass is greener in a future I can’t comprehend, but I like how things are in the current, and I don’t think I’d want to change how things ended up.

Maybe I would tell myself not to be so hard on Mondes during the interrogation. Go easier, don’t shock him as much. Everything else seems necessary.”

[mechowow]

So Beloved are you like the first Monark??? Or was there some before u? I know you’ve been around a hella long time so idk if there’s any records or anythin

“That’s a funny thought! I’m hardly the first, and as you know, I’m hardly the last.

Some call them Legacy Bloodlines, some call them Heirloom, or Historical Bloodlines. Most of these tend to be highbloods though there have been a handful of lowbloods as well, such as the Signless’ line, or the jade Maryam line. Bloodlines of trolls who have been here from the start, who have made names for themselves time, and time, and time again. In one way or another.

Some remain glorified in the eyes of the Empire- such as Pravus, for example. Some remain mythological, such as the Charon line. I hardly know all of them, and I’m certain there’s a few Monarks somewhere out there I’ve yet to know of too.”

[mechowow]

What were Jodiah’s deepest disillusions? In life? What are they now?

The biggest disappointment he had was finding out the world was not as kind as he thought it was growing up. That's largely due to being anon before he joined the Fleet. Everything was easier when he had the choice to hide his caste, and when the world didn't view him as lime. He never connected the dots until he joined the Fleet and was forced to present as the caste he is. (He's considered a 'legal' limeblood, meaning he's allowed to stay alive but he can't contribute to the gene pool, can't reproduce at all, and likely won't obtain any ancestor title.)

realizing that. people treat him MUCH differently. based on how he presents. that took the biggest hit on his psyche. having to adapt after being forcibly outed. realizing the anon version of him was simply more palatable

His next biggest challenge is going to be realizing that the dreams he had when he was young simply aren't what they're cut out to be. being a paramedic wont be as rewarding as he thought!

currently he's starting to doubt if leaving the fleet was the right choice. he hates that thought because he promised his kismesis he would never go back ( and he meant it! ) but he's starting to unravel from the lack of structure and his own internal metronome telling him to go anon again, but dont go anon again, but go anon again, etc etc

[mechowow]

beloved if you had to eat one food for the rest of your life what would you pick

"I am positive I can make an endless supply of meals out of rice. One can never go wrong with rice. Rice, breads, pastas....Any one of those, I could feed an army with."