Rediscovery
I had thought I was completed beyond a shadow of doubt. I had thought I was with the one for whatever the future would bring. I had thought that I had found salvation in the form of a woman given form by the light itself. Then she tore it away.
The reason given was one of cause due to my own mistakes in the past. The reason given was a lack of choice. She couldn't choose me. Over the life she knew before. I was discarded because of that...
Then the relevation mentioned as an aside that it was her choice and her order did not demand it. It was something dark and twisted within my own soul... Something broken in me that made her choose any other path other than the one I thought we were on together.
Now I am adrift... Lost to the ebbs and flows of this society again and left with naught but hope that the future would be bright for those around me. I finally understand my role. I am to be a broken one... That others can look upon as a lesson. I am not one to be admired or emulated. I am an abject lesson in how to fake being something you're not even though anyone that gets close to me can smell the stink of addiction and a rotting black soul.
I don't say this to be dramatic. I know my dark recesses. In some ways I am comforted and protected by them. Oh I will still help and smile because there is nothing left of myself for me to mourn or hurt. I am no longer a man within but a reflection of what others want to see.
So I have accepted a future and what will come. Perhaps an end... Perhaps a new beginning of another twisted mistake. Perhaps there is something more to myself that can be broken further. Only time will tell.