truth: what is the worst thing you've ever done to someone you loved?
oh please don’t make her say it. she already lives with it everyday , every second of every minute.. has been for years now but bringing it up with words , reliving the moment... the way every part of her would shiver and eyes instantly well up. “ well... uh... ” you’ve asked the question so have to wait for a good while until the woman can actually struggle through it.
“ it’s uh.. it was back-- back in high school..with-- i just-- didn’t even-- ” deep breath and a moment to recollect herself. “ sabrina was-- is , she is the first person who showed me what being in love actually meant.. what being loved meant and all the promises i made of giving her the world when i couldn’t even--- couldn’t even stand up for her. tell everyone that the person they went around calling a.. a crazy stalker or whatever was the love of my life and they had it all wrong! --- i was the luckiest person in the whole wide world to have gotten to be with her and i just.. i was a fucking coward who backed away when it truly meant something. and i know my father basically threatened to kick me out if i said anything but that was just an excuse , i get that now. i should’ve said something , god damn it should’ve gone on stage and yelled how the school’s most beautiful girl was dating me!! --- if only we could turn back time... ” she wiped the tears away because where was the right to cry when she was the one who caused this pain. jamie knew the regret she’d live with would’ve been there her whole life and she it’s what she deserved for hurting the one person who loved her...
