#chronic bullshit

[allegedlyiwrite]

I hate laundry. I wish I could just wear one cool outfit all day everyday till the end of time, and it somehow never gets dirty.

[woahitswednesday]

Woke up in an intense amount of pain

And haven't been doing super great mentally which is why I haven't been on here much.

If anyone could send me food money so I could get something tasty to brighten my day I'd appreciate it 💜

Cashapp: $willingwednesday

Or message me for Paypal

[lostestleo]

Life isn’t easy being this anxious, depressed, and riddled with fear.

I have been regressing a bit this year so far, but I’m hoping that if I put this into words I will be able to make some sense of it and get back on track.

I haven’t been able to enjoy anything; socializing, video games, and even music. Everyday is a struggle to get out of bed, and everything after getting out of bed feels like climbing a mountain.

If I try to explain it to someone, I am told that “they’re tired every day too, but they don’t have the luxury of being unproductive.” …Which obviously makes me feel even more useless and damaged.

I know I’m not alone in this feeling(which saddens me, but also selfishly brings comfort).

Final thought: I wish I knew a witch doctor.

[dwarveslikeshinythings]

Every day I wake up to a new joint hurting and get to play the game of "is this a temporary tweak or is the pain now permanent?"

It's like the opposite of Christmas!! Every day!!! Forever!!!!

[papermint-airplane]

God I wish my body were normal. I have two chronic lifelong conditions for which there is no cure: hypermobility and eczema. Hypermobility means my tendons in my joints are extra stretchy and my joints can overextend very easily leading to random dislocations, swelling, pain, and stiffness. Eczema means I get itchy, dry, painful rashes with welts all over my body that oozes, cracks, bleeds, swells, peels, and has a tendency to get infected very easily. And since both of those things are worsened by hormones, menstruation makes them worse.

Guess who started her period a week early.

Full body swelling and pain, yaaaaaaaay I'm so happy this is my life for the next week and that I can barely move. 🙃

Wanna see my gnarly-ass eczema-riddled arm? Don't say I didn't warn you if you click and regret it. It's not pretty.

Now imagine this on my entire body. Yes, even there. I am miserable right now.

And believe me, it's redder and looks worse in real life.

[bownbroth]

back breaking work

[all-or-nothing-baby]

everybody (part) hurts —a song by hEDS

[lil-c0met]

i can’t stay awake today, but every time i fall asleep i dream that i am desperately trying to open my eyes with my fingers and either they won’t open or when they do i still can’t see: blind spots in the centre of my focus (like when i used to get migraines, shimmery invisible blocks), or i look at people and can only see their torsos; their faces/heads are always out of the ‘shot’ and i can’t look around it