April Wrap-Up
As I mentioned in the previous post, the schedule for finishing up the album was a bit hectic, and it resulted in me having to write two songs in one month. Luckily, I was able to squeeze them both out in a week. March and April differ so much. I actually wrote April first, and when I wrote it I knew that it belonged to the month. I’m not really sure what it was, but I just knew that the song was meant to be for April and it actually turned out in a really good way.
April is slow and solemn, but still remains full of hope. It’s very self-oriented, and it’s really just about how much I have changed this past year, after writing this album and being a senior in general. I thought the song really worked well at the end of the album because it does a really good job of wrapping up all of my feelings about myself into one song.
The greatest part of this song is how I finally came to the realization that I am who I am because that is just me. My personality and my traits don’t come from other people, and when I’m hurt I can’t put the blame on others. I was hurt a lot this year, emotionally, but at the end of it all I learned that the choices I made and the things I did do not rest solely on the actions and words of someone else. I make every choice that I make because I know that it will make my life better and it will make me happier. All of the changes that I go through are by-products of myself and of my experiences, not on other people’s.
It’s taken me a long time to realize that other people’s actions and intentions towards me should not demolish or change the way I see myself as a person. If someone decides to leave me or hurt me or blame me, my life does not revolve around their decision to affect me in that way. The song really describes how all of the changes I’ve undergone this year are because of myself and only myself. I firmly stand behind the idea that each person belongs to themselves and they don’t have to live for other people. My self love has always come first and continues to come first in my life. Making this album has shown me where my happy places are, and that’s in music, writing, the outdoors, good relationships with people, solitude, and other important aspects of my life. My happiness is never built off of other people’s foundations. They are always my own.
I think that this song is my favorite one on the album because it solidifies so much of how I feel as a person and how much I have learned. It projects the message of “everything I do, I do for myself” and that’s the most important message I think I could ever send.










